Ive given things my all,and its never good enough
Everyday time keeps slipping away at a ridiculously fast speed
Ive grown accustomed to the darkness in my life
But just once,one time,I'd like to share it with someone
They say that you only get 3 good women throughout the course of your life
Well,I guess Im shit outta luck
Cuz I lost number 3 not too long ago
So where does that leave me?
Where do I go from here?
After being on top,#1,for so many years...theres only one way to go
DOWN.
DOWN.
DOWN.
And I dont mind going down and,if you will,starting from the beginning again
But its such a lonely process
What I wouldnt give to have someone by my side to share my remaining days with
Through thick and thin...better or worse...sickness and health...richer or poorer...
Yknow,just someone who has my back NO MATTER WHAT
But it seems to me that women like THAT are a dying breed nowadays
In fact,I dont think any even exist anymore
Im 32 going on 92,and so far Ive only met 2 in my whole life...thats pretty sad
Out of ALL the women Ive known,and know NOW...only 2 fit that criteria?
And those 2 were many years ago
Since then its been nothing but fake,fake fake and MORE fake...thats it
I guess thats why Im such a lone wolf
I cant trust anyone with my feelings or emotions anymore
It seems,once you open up,they use it against you or they just slip away slowly
Everyone nowadays is out for themselves...thats it
Dont get me wrong,I am too...but if I truly like you,theres NOTHING I wont do to keep you happy
I'll bend over backwards to give you the world
But nobody knows this because theyre too busy thinking of themselves
What a world
Such a shame
The only time people wanna know you is when it benefits them...thats it
Like this one girl I met...she lived in another state,other than mine...
All she was bent on was for me to fly down there and see her
And after all we built up between eachother,feelings and emotions and caring for eachother..
She told me that she couldnt guarantee that anything would come of me going to see her
Whats that all about?
Sooooo...you want me to pick up and move to you,but you cant guarantee that we'll even be together?
Wow,is that selfish or what?
Since that,I dont open up,or even trust,anyone anymore...its not worth it.
And I ask myself...is there anyone worth opening up to anymore?
The answer,sadly,is a resounding......NO