Tori FURL Married To Badass Demon's blog: "Sad Poems"

I'm so tired of this empty feeling
I'm so tired of being alone
I lay here staring at the ceiling
Waiting by the phone

I jump when the phone rings
It brings a smile to my face
When he hangs up my heart stings
And I sink back into my lonely place

I wish and I dream
That we'll be together soon
I can't wait until we can look up hand in hand
At the stars and at the moon

I yearn for his kisses
His touch - His embrace
I can't wait for my dreams
When I get to see his face

I'm flooded with thoughts of him
In my heart, soul, and mind
I imagine his touch
So gentle and kind

I try not to weep
I hope he doesn't hear my cries
But I can't stop the tears
Falling from my eyes

I cry a thousand tears
And think - how much more can I take?
But in my heart I know I'd wait a thousand years
All for love's sake

Standing here all on my own,
watching life go by,
taking in those dreadful words,
...a tear drops from my eye,
I stood there as i watched you run,
and waited for the pain,
love can be a painful thing,
you used my love in vain,
Why'd you leave me here to cry?,
our love had felt so...right,
why'd you go and break my heart,
just like you did that night,
let me kiss your lips once more,
so I can see it's true,
help me see your love is gone,
that I can't be with you,
don't leave me here to fall apart,
to watch you fade away,
tell me how you really feel,
and why you just won't stay,
I never thought I'd cry so much,
I want to see this through...
although you'll never feel for me.....
I always will love you. 

I walk down the shattered road
Filled with broken dreams and lies
And tears form behind my eyes
Because I know
You lead me here
And to you I'm no longer dear 
And you don't care what I do
Because I mean nothing to you 

So I walk this road sad and alone 
With no place to call my home
because you don't love me
And I'm starting to think you never did

So step by step
Inch by inch

I try to move on
But the road is long 
And when I start to think I'm getting along 
I see your face and realize
I'm just not that strong

Every turn I take
I see you there 
And the pain is something I can no longer bear 

You were my everything
But now I have nothing
The pain feels like daggers crashing through my heart

But still I go
Step by step
Inch by inch
I walk up the lonely road 
Trying to push your memory away 

But still I trip and fall
And then I remember it all 
Every smile
Every kiss 
Every stupid thing I miss
And I cry myself breathless one more time

And so I'll walk the shattered streets 
Facing my defeat 
On a road to long 
Singing my sorrowful song  

I can't stand how
you have no idea how
much I like you.
Will you ever know?

I can't stand it 
when I see you
with her, it makes 
me want to go blind.

I can't stand it 
when you say its just a 
fling, yet you remain
with her.

And I just can't stand
how you say you love
me but you'll never
love me like you love her.

I just can't stand
how much I love you. 
It makes me want to die.
Because I know we'll never be.
because you don't see me
the way you see her. 

Today is the day,
The day I told you how I felt.
There was no response,
You just walked away and,
Totally ignored me for the rest of the day. 
I thought you loved me, 
Well I guess I was wrong.

I don't know how I feel. 
My friends try to comfort me
But I just want to be alone, 
And get away from this place.

The place in my head, 
Where everything is red.
Everything goes to hell,
In the place in my head.

It all goes wrong. It 
Always happens so fast.
And I .......I can't deal.
The drama follows me,
Like the moon follows the sun.

I need a happy place.
A place where everything is done.
Where I can get away.
Well now we don't talk,
And I can't forget 
And I won't regret.
The things that I have said.
I said "I love you" and 
You just walked away.
My dreams were crushed. 
And I will miss you today.

You try to forget and 
we both know it won't work.
You love me too, but
Live in a different world.
And you're afraid,
They'll make fun of you
And you don't know what to do.

I am not like you, I 
Don't care what people think.
I have my own style,
And say what I mean, while
You dress how your friends want
And say the "cool" things
That really are not.

You were confused and 
Didn't say. You just went away.
Now it's too late and I'm not over you, 
But I'm done with the drama, 
The cryin, and the mood.

Well I won't be there to wait for you.
To help you then be ignored for a day or two.
I am done with the shit,
And I'm done with you. 

Why do i always lose, where others always win?
All i can think of is how happy we should have been.
i sit here afraid, in tears...alone,
My friends all sick of hearing my moan!

My heart was ripped apart, 
the scars they will remain,
Gave you so much, gave you my heart,
You knew me so well, so why can't you see my pain?

What am i supposed to do?
Can't tell you how i really feel,
but i can't bring myself to move on.

Stuck here feeling low,
Stuck here feeling numb,
Stuck here with thoughts of you,
Stuck here... forever??? 

Am i losing you, or is it all in my head?
it's like you're laying right next to me in an empty bed.

It's all the things you don't say, that let me know you're ready to drift away without the promise of returning one day.

Am i losing you, or have you already left?
the absence of the love in your presence has left me distressed.

Have i done too much or even to little, what has made you uneasy, disabled to love like a cripple.

Am i losing you? Yes i am.
the signs were there
although i did not see
because i was obsessed with finding you, in the process i lost me.

lost the love i have for myself
the pride and respect
which places me before anyone else.

i will not lose that love, no never again
whether i change for worse or better,
i know i can not stay the same because like before i met you and after you leave the only person that'll remain in the picture is me. 

You Left Me Alone And Went Away
Not To Care, What I'd Say
Heart Shattered & Tears Followed
I Waited To See.. But You Faded Away !!

You Didn't Care To Know
My Feelings, My Pain - Without You - Be,
Though, I Loved & Believed U Are Mine..
You Didn't Care For Me:
Your Friends, You Thought The Most
Realized Never, My Love & Its Worth !!

Believe Me, Friends Often Come And Go
But My Love, Will Only Grow
Go:. Search The World Over
Lover Like Me, U Would Find Never!!!

In My Heart You Will Always Be There
Loving You Until Eternity & For Ever
Listen To My Heart, Not Words I Say
Please Come Back To Me: To My Heart...
... Forever To Stay !! 

I should have known better than
to fall in love with you
It's all just a fading memory 
I should have known 
nothing would come of this
I should have known
you wouldn't catch me
I should have known 
you would never leave her for me
I should ahve known
you were only going to break my heart
But no matter how much my heart is breaking
i just can't seem to let go.