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Wft
I run from an emotionThat has brought me backBad memories of the pastDrowning in what was goneNow resurfaced to destroyThe better part of meBecoming what was pastedStarting overJust want to be meNot walking on egg-shellsCaring a bad dreamWanting faith and love Not wanting bad memories Not wanting to dream Not wanting to close my eyes Wanting to pass it all by

Love Is Faith
Love Is FaithWhen your in a dark spot Love will set you freeTime is nothing when you love someoneTreat one with respect and love For you are what they wanted in life Come walk the truth in Love Jump the line and see the one you care about Travel to the one you need Let it all ride on faith Like a ride at a carnival Scream, yell and complain For the one you lay next too is there Check every morning for life you will miss Take their hand and follow them past point break Life will miss you if your gone from them Write your life with them in stone For that stone will stay for as long as the weather holds Take the stone and show it to everyone It will be the best that everyone can see and read They will be in love with your love to the other and see it works

A Love Amost Lost
Come with me travel the lightDreaming of forever and lost in nowTrying to regain what was forgottenLeaving what was done Having thoughts of the future Wanting what was to be backHave it in my hands yet againTo feel where I was a time agoTo rock what I had in the nowFrom the time beforeCalls still in my head Dreams in my daytimeFears in the night timeAfraid to close my eyesAfraid to dream at night Calls that I need back messages that I long to read Letters I will start writing againFor they are My Loves misses For that I can give back to her

Unkown
Walked a dark road till I lost myself Taking chances on life Running low on turns that I can make Stepping off the path I made Dreams stopped when life went black Chasing Hells demons down that lonely road Watching life flow right beside me Turning my head so not to see the pain The pain in everyones eyes Watching the one they love fall away Chances are that I will never return Return to who I was Only to chase the ones I love back down To see them grow up That is all I need to survive

Love Granted
Love Granted..... Time passes you by and so does a love With no need to rush we sit and wonder What would have been, what could be With nothing to fear, but the future.... I sit and pounder the life I lead now wondering what my life would have been Needing to know if it was better then it could be Wanting to know if you were the one right move.... Never knowing now because of a failed step Wanting the time back, needing to erase that step Wanting time back, wanting you back In time I guess, Love will be granted....To time in a bottle I wish I had To spend more of it with you Looking to the sky and asking one thing Bring it back so I can have it back....

Your Eyes
Your Eyes.... .. .. They keep me thinking everyday.... The peace that they give.... The love that's behind them.... The life that you think about with me shines.... .. .. Anything other then us .... Seems to cast a shadow .... A shadow deep till another time.... We get to spend with one another.... .. .. Nothing shines more then when I look into your eyes.... Keeping me strong for that one day .... That your mind frees and you can say what your eyes say.... Everything in the world will stop on a dime.... .. .. You love that's deep inside was hidden .... Now that I see that no one has given....

Married And Divorcing...
Ok, now is the time to post a little about myself. I don't mind being called an asshole. I don't mind being called names. Names do not hurt me. I've been called alot of different things in my life, but one thing I have never been called is a disloyal...that is, until recently... I have been married for the past 9 years. My wife, soon-ex, has accused me of being unfaithful, selfish, arrogant, and just generally a bastard. I married the woman with the intention of spending my life with her. But what I thought was going to be a good life turned into a nightmare. i can't stand to be accused of doing something I didn't do. I never cheated on her, never put myself before her when she went through surgery, I always put the kids before myself and never noticed the looks that "other women" would give me. that was the kicker, she always told me that women would look at me and, to her, she just knew they wanted me. The only time I ever noticed a woman looking at me was when I was in telemarke

Utterly Wrong And So Alone
Its hard when you are finally able to love some one so unconditional just to have there love seem as though its dwindling because of the way you live, because of others bringing you down .... i hate this feeling of being ripped from the only one ive ever loved so unconditionally. To know that he loves me with every fiber of his being an yet i can barely see him..and it kills me to know thats its all my fault that hes hurting right now , and im the one thats squeezing his heart because im not able to see him often... Please I pray to the goddess help me ...help me to understand. I love him and i never want to let him go i just need some guidence ...something! Blessed be!

What The Fuck Wives?
Ok, I am NOT a perfect wife. I am a human being. I logged onto facebook a little bit ago and saw this: Rest in peace to Joe Paterno but more importantly rest in peace to the Marines who have heroically gave their lives this week. Capt. Daniel B. Bartle, Capt. Nathan R. McHone, MSgt. Travis W. Riddick, Cpl. Jesse W. Stites, Cpl. Kevin J. Reinhard, Cpl. Joseph D. Logan, Cpl. Christopher Singer. Rest Easy, Marines. ♥ From AT LEAST six wives (or fiances or girlfriends or whatever). This pisses me off. Why? Because a man passed away. Is there a reason to be so fucking condescending? NO. So what if the Marines didn't make the news? So what if Joe Paterno did? You are doing to his family what (you think) the rest of the world has done to the Marines. Yes, I care that Marines have died. Yes I care that servicemembers die every day. But guess what? THAT'S WHAT HAPPENS WHEN YOU FIGHT A WAR! So, to all the military wives, fiances, girlfriends...whatever: STOP BEING SO FUCK

When Tomorrow Starts Without Me
When tomorrow starts without me and im not here to see, if the sun should rise and find your eyes filled up with tears for me , i wish so much you wouldn't cry the way you did today, while thinking of the the many things we didn't get to say, i know how much you love me as much as i love you, and each time you think of me i know you'll miss me too , but when tomorrow starts without me please try to understand that jesus came and called my name and took me by the hand, and said my place was ready in heaven far above, and i will have to leave behind all those i dearly love, so when tomorrow starts without me don't think we're far apart, for every time you think of me, im right here in your heartxxx I miss them so much.....For Paula and Leigh

Interesting Dimensions
This is a record for my own interests as much as anything else. Something I can look back on to prevent me from being how I was before. Shirt size 17" neck down to 14.5" Trousers/jeans down from 40" to 32/33 depending on type it seems. xxl/xl t-shirts probably down to large or maybe medium Roughly 40 pounds lost. Happier, more confident (for me) and plan on keeping it this way.

Let's Make A Deal!
It's been a while since my last Happy Hour. I would LOVE to have another one. I am offering photo customization, professional slideshow (examples in "my videos") Your choice of photos & song choice. I would post in "my videos" and send you link so you'd have a copy of your own. And I'd buzzkill & shitface every single time I logon to Fubar (as I do not sign online daily) And status fame for a whole week. Let's recap: 10 custom photos, professional slideshow (any amount of photos with song choice posted in my blog, my video and link to download a copy for yourself) and buzzkill & shitface for 30 days (but I don't get online daily, when I do logon) and status fame for whole week.

Mental Garbage
I started reading works by Orson Scoot Card, a science fantasy fiction writer, yeah i know i reek of geek butt your eyes are reading this so I have nothing to prove to anyone. Although by making that statement it actually has the oppostie effect thereby nullifing the desired outcome. I just finished his Ender series and am now working my way through his Shadow series. His fiction is fantastic because it based primarily on ethical dilemias that his charaters face. I kept myself up for an hour in what i was sure was a THC/CBD induced coma where i could not stay awake but i could not sleep for lack of thinking. I realized something that made me writher inside. I have been in deep denial about it for sometime, I know how i want my life to play out, i look at my past exploits and sigh with contentment because i exployted each opprotunity to its fullest potential for the most fun on my part. But have i done enough? will my gravestone read here lies that chick that worked her way here

Need Money
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Mesothelioma Awareness Day !
This Cancer is very rare and Dangerous ! I wish we all knew more about who and where you can get it! It's affecting a lot of young people when asbestos supposidly was stopped being used ! Mesothelioma Awarness Day is September 26th Thank you !

Earache
I've had an ear infection for over a week now. Last week I called my doctor and she called a prescription for amoxicillian. I've been taking it though I've missed a few doses. This morning my right ear was itching so I cleaned it with a q-tip then did my infected left ear. It became unclogged but started hurting so bad that it was hurting my head. I called my mother-in-law shortly after 8 and asked her if she culd spare some painpills. She asked if I called the doctor and I told her I did last week. She told me I shold call her again since it is still bothering me and told me she would give me some painpills. So I went over there and she gave me 4 pills, 2 pills of different kinds. While I was there her mom(my grandma-in-law)cat came up and rubbed against me. He doesn't like many people, but I am one of him. He rubbed against me and meowed and demanded that I pet him. He is 22 years old if you can believe that. I talked to my mother-in-law for a little while before I left. I am v

The Devil Inside (written Long Before The Movie Came Out...)
I am deep insidetaking over your mindcutting all your tiesyou put up a fightbut that's alright, because your soul is mineDarkness fills your hearttearing you apartyou've drawn your final cardyour game was over from the startYour sin (keeps me alive)Your hate (grows over time)Your love (forever dying)I am (THE DEVIL INSIDE)Blood is boiling nowanger flowing downIn your hatred you drownAdrenaline kicks and now I'm outYour own personal Hellthe darkness, where you dwellyour body just a shellfor the abyss in which you have just fell.Your sin (keeps me alive)Your hate (grows over time)Your love (forever dying)I am (THE DEVIL INSIDE)You've lost all controlYour mind is mine to moldYour heart so fucking coldIt brings me pleasure to pain your soulYour sin (keeps me alive)Your hate (grows over time)Your love (forever dying)I am (THE DEVIL INSIDE)

Jester
Like a moth to the flameMy wrist to the bladeMy soul to hells gatetorn asunder by the fucking painThis fire burns insideyou can see it in my eyesThis rage I cannot hideGrew stronger when they lit my pyre.TAKE ME AWAYwhat did I doto deserve an eternity of servitudeMy struggle was in vainI've never been good enough for youI beg for help, you let me fallI pray to stand, you make me crawlI cry for life, You buried meNow I deny you as my King.

In Hell We Lie
Unending NightmareThe light slowly diesdetouring me from the feeling of severing the ties.madness grasps me.as i wake to findblood stained memories in a life so undefined.you lose yourself,in the wake of demon's cry.your bloody hands shall prove most usefulas i ask you to take me downto take my place in hell.breathe from the flame.the smoke of burning soulsit bathes you in their pain

Violent Offender
holding the shattered glass.blood drips off my fingers.the tears running down the cheek.of this violent offender.she cries out to God 'why?'and plays on the heartstringsof some poor sad sap, dead on the ground with no more than a heartbeat.The King of Miserylost somewhere in this nightmarein darkness constantlythis life so unfaircontemplate suicidethe memories flows from the wristwatching the bloodhe's come to enjoy this.he cries out to God 'why?'the pain so unendingas thoughts fill his head, blood fills his mouth, fire fills his veins.The King of Miseryloveless and brokenthe king is within melife has been stolen

Trail Of Bodies.
Long roads and tough choicesnot enough strength to make it through thisI try so hard to make it up that fucking hillbut my struggle seems in veinall my life is filled with painand all the blood i swallow is making me illSo I'll fight, while i have it in mewalk alone as I make historythese cuts are too fucking deepso to find me, just follow the bodiesI spit this poison in your faceno more love for you to embraceyour life an empty, porous shellI've grown to like the tasteof your blood and I can't erasethe memories down here in Hell.so I'll fight while i still have it in meI'll walk alone as I make historythe lascerations far too deepfor me to see the silver liningyou left me here to stand on my own, I'll break you down and bury you under my feetI'll visit you everyday in your new home, the only way you can never leaveyour hate makes me love you so much i can't fucking breathe

Graveyard.
Chorus:My graveyard in DecemberEverything around me is dead and dying.A graveyard in December,Moonlight bathes the dead and drowns meI remember every time you criedyour stark words scream at me every fucking night.Your heart I've broken so many timesHard to beleive you're still alive.My heart so cold and darkHell's fury burns insidetearing my soul apartThere's nothing to hideMemories haunt you of broken tiesIf not for me you wouldn't live this life.-chorus-You've fought so hard to get us here.bones so broken, flesh so seared.You're mind is racing, eyes full of tearsyou're heart is pounding from the fear.My body breaking downMy will to fight is goneMy fucking veins ripped outIn this river I drownMemories haunt you of broken ties.If not for me you wouldn't have to die.-chorus-My graveyard in December.Look deep into the dark and find me.This fucking graveyard in December.The icey grip of death approaching.

Farewell
Farewell: thou atr too dear for my possessing. And like enough thou know'st thy estimate. The charter of thy worth gives thee releasing; My bonds in thee are all determinate. For how do I hold thee but by thy granting, And for riches where is my wanting. And for that riches where is my deserving? The cause of this gift in me is wanting, And so patent back again is swerving. Thyself thou gav'st, thy own worth the most knowing. Or me, to whom thou gav'st it, else mistaking; So thy great gift, upon misprison growing, Comes home again, on better judgement making. Thus have I had thee as a dream doth flatter, In sleep a king, but waking no such matter

False Optimism
It's a slow day in the small town of Pumphandle and the streets are deserted. Times are tough, everybody is in debt, and everybody is living on credit.A tourist visiting the area drives through town, stops at the motel, and lays a $100 bill on the desk saying he wants to inspect the rooms upstairsto pick one for the night.(Stay with this.....and pay attention)...As soon as he walks upstairs, the motel owner grabs the bill and runs next door to pay his debt to the butcher. The butcher takes the $100 and runs down the street to retire his debt to the pig farmer. The pig farmer takes the $100 and heads off to pay his bill to his supplier, the Co-op. The guy at the Co-op takes the $100 and runs to pay his debt to the local prostitute, who has also been facing hard times and has had to offer her "services" on credit. The hooker rushes to the hotel and pays off her room bill with the hotel owner. (Almost done...keep reading) The hotel proprietor then places t

Alone
From childhood's hour I have not been As others were -- I have not seen As others saw --I could not bring My passions from a common spring--From the same source I have not taken My sorrow -- I could not awaken My heart to joy at the same tone --And all I lov'd -- I lov'd alone --Then -- in my childhood -- in the dawn Of a most stormy life -- was drawn From ev'ry depth of good and ill The mystery which binds me still -- From the torrent, or the fountain -- From the red cliff of the mountain -- From the sun that 'round me roll'd In its autmn tint of gold -- From the lighting in the sky As it passe'd me flying by -- From the thunder, and the storm -- And the cloud that took the form (When the rest of Heaven was blue) Of a demon in my veiw [1829]

What Happened To Etta?!!!!?
So I see Fu has yet to make an Etta James Bling, yet didnt seem to think twice about making one for Amy Winehouse when she passed away. I mean...really?!? the average age in fuland has gotta be at least 35yrs - yes, most of us rememeber Etta's incredible talent. Interesing, no? Considering what Etta has given our society compared to Amy, I am a little disappointed to fu for the lack of respect - its almost unbelievable. In portest I have decided not to purchase bling... oOooooh this is gonna hurt. LOL there - thats my hot air...

The 2012 Presidential Elections Agenda 101
The 2012 Presidential Elections Agenda 101 Before we share Agenda 101 a In-depth News Report, that we feel that most will find to be a honest open minded report. 2008 Barack Obama Approximately 65.5 million people voted for President Barack Obama in the 2008 election. According to statistics 2012 Presidential Elections President Obama Presidential Election Poll according to Internet Polls with 39% of the votes out of 200 Million People. According to a inside, in-depth look at the numbers, that only around 20 Million to 25 Million people may vote this year. According to the numbers, President Obama, has a 10% edge of supporters. At least our report is based on the possibility of numbers at hand, and does not try to reflect the true out come of this 2012 Election. The numbers are based on the current voting out look per and for statistics of each State of 0.5 Million to 1.0 Million people voting Republican. Iowa www.google.com/publicdata

It Started With A Check
if you ask any of my friends or family who are not on fubar what do i have pride in they will tell you two things my hometown of Detroit, MI and the sports teams in Detroit..............well 3 out of 4 even though i can say proudly that i'm from detroit (btw even though people say i'm from detroit we all dont live on 8-mile and we dont know eminem that dude isin't even from detroit he was born in Saint Joseph, Missouri and when he came here he lived in Warren) there is one team i can not stand and that's the Detroit Red Wings growing up i watched the wings play hockey games and cheered for them just because i though i was suppost to but that all changed when i was about 8 or 9ish possibley even younger i watched a hockey night in canada game and saw the quebec nordiques and saw joe sakic play i instantly because a quebec fan i loved how he played how the quebec team dominated the game and won. Well in 1996 i got a new team and not by choice the nordiques relocated to denver and became

I Wanna Watch You Laugh Your Ass Off
After several years of longing, Peter was finally in bed with his best friend's wife, plugging away in her pussy. Just as things were reaching a climax, he suddenly stopped and pulled out, and sat on the edge of the bed, holding his head in his hands. "What wrong with you?" his partner asked. "I feel just like a regular asshole, getting some of my best friend's snatch," the man moaned. "Well," she soothed, patting his back, "you can stop worrying. You were not getting his snatch. You were past his snatch by about four inches. Now put that thing back in." A virile, middle-aged Italian gentleman named Guido was relaxing at his favorite bar in Rome when he managed to attract a spectacular young blonde woman. Things progressed to the point where he invited her back to his apartment and, after some small talk, they retired to his bedroom where he rattled her senseless. After a pleasant interlude he asked with a smile, "So, yo

Not Using Stash Anymore!
I really am saddened to learn that with all the changes made on Fubar within the last year, that not only did I lose a "One in a million" profile skin that fit my life forever, but I also lost quite a lot of jokes from my Stash Folder. Therefore, I will no longer use this Folder to store or share any jokes in the future! I am very concerned after finding my jokes gone from my profile, that we're going to get on here and find all of our pics gone also! Won't that just bite? I think I'll make sure everything I do put in my photo albums will also be kept in my personal files of my pc! In the 3yrs I've been on this website, I never would have thought that simple changes would just wipe away all the work peeps do for their profiles. Saddens me greatly!

War Against God
First let me say I am talking about the God that everyone understands to be god God is a man...when people pray they pray to the heavenly father It's like a multi-cultural adolescence SERIOUSLY...men are the most destructive The least forgiving The most selfish and domineering The most lazy needy individuals as a whole If God was a woman She would be kind She wouldn't give a flying fuck what you did Unless you fucked up her camp Fuck up her camp and drink the tears of sorrow

Missing My Friend
today , was the last day I could keep in contact with a friend , after comunicating with her every day , on yahoo while having our morning coffee... she'd been out of work for 3 yrs. i'd known her for 2 years.. We hit it off right from the start... [ from another site ] ... now her internet is cut off ,,, she lives 1,000 miles away . we talked like she was living across the street... now there is an enptyness in my world ... 1/22/2012

Sunday.....holymoley Its Windy
Dear Diary......have discovered cat is terrified of me teddybear.....he tried to get thru closed door after bear fell out of me sleepibag onto floor next to him, i had to laugh it was soooooooooo funny, i shudnt laugh but it was funny, teddy has been put away wiff said sleepiebag n will ensure cat doesnt see him again, washings out on line.......quadruple pegged , the birds are firmly in the trees n i dont blame em..... think today will be a lazy day......cant do much but i can read n fu ,leg hurts too much to go walking n anyhoos i has to walk to town tomoz so best i rest it eh.........i so dont wanna be here , i want my own home so much ........soon i hope

This Is How You Fix Congress!
Got this email a little bit ago. Share if you agree with what it says: Warren Buffet is asking each addressee to forward this email to a minimum of twenty people on their address list; in turn ask each of those to do likewise. In three days, most people in The United States of America will have the message. This is one idea that really should be passed around. _*Congressional Reform Act of 2011*_ 1. No Tenure / No Pension. A Congressman/woman collects a salary while in office and receives no pay when they're out of office. 2. Congress (past, present & future) participates in Social Security. All funds in the Congressional retirement fund move to the Social Security system immediately. All future funds flow into the Social Security system, and Congress participates with the American people. It may not be used for any other purpose. 3. Congress can purchase their own retirement plan, just as all Americans do. 4. Congress will no longer vote themselves a pay raise. Congress

Firefly's 15 Best Chinese Curses (and How To Say Them - Repost)
In just 14 episodes, Joss Whedon's sci-fi masterpiece Firefly managed to build one of the most devoted fanbases in all of nerd-dom. Properties like Star Trek or Doctor Who may have it beat in sheer numbers, but the Browncoats make up for this with their loyalty and tenacity. What is the secret of the show's appeal? Fans can and will explain the show's engrossing plotlines, fascinating characters, brilliant performances, realistic effects, and a unique visual aesthetic -- but if we had to choose one reason, it'd be the dialogue.Whedon created a vision of a human future where mankind speaks English primarily, with Mandarin Chinese added, as one might say, for "flavor" (i.e., profanity). Not only did the use of Mandarin help inform Firefly's future setting, it also often allowed the characters to express themselves in terms too absurd, obscene, or outrageous to be spoken in English. Here then is a collection of 15 of Firefly's most, well -- absurd, obscene, and outrageous lines

Regirgitated Repitition
I’m choking on the vibration of passing words Swallowing open air and shards of broken letters The taste of a hollow phrase pushes into the broken skin of my lips A bitter acidic flavor invades my throat A familiar combination of recycled breath and gathering dust Small airborne angels collecting on the surface of all things Layered reminders of sought after sobriety Redistributed by a heavy sigh, laced with the cancerous beauty of dancing smoke The chameleon rolling paper of my filter less cigarette resonating with hues of burning yellow to brown to ash, grips the rough skin of my fingers I watch the smooth feminine flow of the noxious fumes escape an organized flow of dissipation with every drag The forced tone of conversation feels foreign but drips with ease from my contracting vocal chords With all that drifts from the inside out, I’m still choking on the vibration of passing words

Escape
I plant my chucks into the broken concrete Faded black, paint splattered canvas low tops Half assed zebras roll through, dripping with the stench of misplaced authority Their empty eyes shoot a painful glare Shattering the fragile halo of light from the broken illumination of streetlights My tattoos blend with the rhythm less graffiti of the old neighborhood Twisting my fingers through the chain linked fence of 13th street Becoming part of the forgotten architecture of the east side I exhale a lingering disease or reoccurring nightmare

Voice
The florescent lights flicker in a steady rhythm Exhaling a sick yellow tint in this box The polished metal mirror reflects a disoriented portrait Swollen tissue painted with hues of dead purple Stretched around the brutal carvings in the steel Enough time has passed The recycled air of the tier has lost its original flavor This isn’t a memory of a lesser you As the ever changing pattern of shadows dissipates beneath my feet From the steady flicker My voice sinks, a body wrapped in rusting chains Drowning in open air

Two-thirds
Schizophrenia Split mind / divided soul Disintegration, deteriorating mental faculties Disoriented A future without direction Moving blindly, I walk further into the increasing void The expanding depth of solitude, increasing resistance to ingestion I stand at the edge of the medicine cabinet, unraveling the labels Plastic cylinders containing pressed powder daydreams Beautifully dangerous pharmaceutical hallucination Walking images that overlap into my reality Only conscious in the corner of my eye Breathing only in the absence of actual vantage points The stale whispers talk, fighting for vocal dominance Remnants of past conversations She speaks in a violent clarity Her fragile words shatter with an echo A promise lingers in the air A proposed permanence of loyalty until death I run the tips of my fingers across my wrist The piercing thump of my pulse reminds me I’m among the living An irrational collection of empty skin suits Relying on glossy pages of se

Words
I open my mouth and vomit a slew of obscenities to the palms of my hands A furious flow of phrases that weren’t good enough for fragile ears The quotations hang heavy in the tense air of dead city streets A decaying mix of shattered weather worn sidewalks and faded voices Still gasping for a moment of conscious reception Great minds restless in permanent sleep Snuffed and left in shallow graves Buried beneath unpublished pages Scattered notebooks littered my bedroom I research forgotten lines Tracing the indentations of ink stains Offering nothing new To the memory of a lesser you

Enemy Of Sleep
I lay on the dirty linoleum of my kitchen floor A mixture of two toned vinyl and cheap plastic Rising up slowly in the corners, trying to escape A voice bleeds through the Styrofoam wall She praying Her words fall onto me, becoming a second skin Wrapping me in a fragile layer of faith A long and beautifully uncomfortable silence deafens me I sink into the image of her She wore low top chucks, faded to perfection They were littered with paint stains and held together with frayed dental floss Swift broken souls that carried the deceptive angel from street corners Somewhere in between the washer worn cut off slacks and the elegant texture scar of her collar bone A feminine frame carved from delicate skin stood decaying and breaking down Her hands, precision straight razors that slice the air with every exaggerated gesture she spoke of My hearing is resurrected with the sound of shallow footsteps A black eyed brunette Her steps echo like broken glass I drift off to sleep

Modern Art
I scream in my sleep and pretend I don’t have a voice when my eyes are open My voice drips down the back of my throat like melting wax I’m cheap cloth on a wireframe skeleton Held together with expensive threadI have this rotary motor that pushes oil like tar through the plastic veins of my body I’m recycled straws and partially melted containment organs When I smile the corners of my makeshift mouth leak gasolineI’m spot-welded metal and rusted spray-paint cans,I am disposable modern art, in the back of this gallery. I find myself drowning down vodka and orange juice, my liquid mood stabilizer I try to keep the worst parts of me in check to avoid becoming the reflection of the illuminated screen…I’m a train wreck inside, the more I talk the less I feel I’d like to bleed morphine and cheap wine I dream of injecting a brand new me under the scars of my arm, deep underneath the dead track of a former addiction. I used to push my love

A Letter
I’m still chasing your shadow across the pages of my half empty notebooks,I’ve been losing pieces of myself with every ink stained smear.I think a lot about a written revolution or other forms of mediocre damage to inflict. I hang on the edge of gathered phrases and banned books. I dream of becoming the ink incarnate of another poet’s voice. I believe my words to be the regurgitated opinions of dead conversations.I dwell on the fact that my life has become a strange flicker of things to be and whats already come undone. I wish you were here, I wish she was here. I fell in love some days ago, not with a body, but with a thought. Falling in love is a lot like falling from a window, you’re completely unaware of what happens until you hit the ground, but you enjoy the disoriented feeling of seeing the world as it spins around and chases you back to the concrete.I’ve become much like a beaten child, I am fearful of approaching hands. I stare vacantly

Where Sound Resides
Through the back alleys of the Lower Eastside I spill my endless imagination in the veins of this place Far away from the neon heart of Sin City I carve words into the palms of my hand My poetry, my voice, Scattered and scrawled on to the walls. Chasing Kerouac’s shadow through the empty bottle in my hand The bruises on my arm tell the story of what I am. Speechless and without arms or a soul I stand before you, Split between My heart and brain. I present my skin, Stained with ink. Underneath overflowing with fear, as to who I am What I am Walking the narrow confines of my inner thoughts I chased her I find loneliness comforting in the fact that I am ignorant. I am a product of misunderstood youth and glue-huffing caretakers Much like the children of the neighborhood where I spill my blood unto the walls This is not graffiti, its thoughtless emotion chasing gravity to the sidewalk I fell deep into the day dream of where the sidewalk ends. Shel Silverstein said

Chase
I’ve sold pieces of myself and my mind.I’ve given my wordsto the empty sky waited for the sun to chase the moon around again to give my voice to the silence of the night…I’ve written useless phrases uneven haiku’s on half empty coffee cups and sugar packets…I used to think heaven only existed in that feeling of speechlessness That came when I could no longer vomit tone-deaf poems of subjects that never interested anyoneuntil I found hershe became the ink incarnatethe stuff dreams are Made ofwhat I chasedin the streets for all these yearsshe became the reason The one I’d swallow the sun for

Dreamer
I tore up the carpet in the living room and spray-painted the broken concrete black…I get up around 3am…It’s when the East Side is the quietest.I lay on the ground and my puppy “Felony” roams around me in a circle looking for the perfect spot to fall down and chase rabbits in his sleep.I turn on my stereo It’s had the same CD in it for the last two years…I pretend to blend in with the cracked foundation of my empty little apartment.I stare at the popcorn texture and imagine starring into the sun.With this down time I dream of the perfect lover…She’s a beautiful mix of disorientation and induced chemical hallucinationI find comfort in my imagination…I believe I am better lonely.I enjoy the way the air has begun to taste when I force a smile. She’s something of a wonderful mystery, I don’t want to solve…I dream of her hair…Its dark with a special hint of burnt wood, that odd mix of two tone

Settled
“I woke up as the sun was reddening; and that was the one distinct time in my life, the strangest moment of all, when I didn’t know who I was - I was far away from home, haunted and tired with travel, in a cheap hotel room I’d never seen, hearing the hiss of steam outside, and the creak of the old wood of the hotel, and footsteps upstairs, and all the sad sounds, and I looked at the cracked high ceiling and really didn’t know who I was for about fifteen strange seconds. I wasn’t scared; I was just somebody else, some stranger, and my whole life was a haunted life, the life of a ghost.” ― Jack Kerouac, On the Road Kerouac may not have feared this moment, but I always have. In a way I will always be a stranger to myself, I fear silence, I’ve begun to let my mind unravel in the absence of audio pollution. I’ve lost more of my mind and personality than I will ever make sense of. I stopped look

#11
I lay on the floor of the Peterson’s hotel Number 11 The stiff carpet smells of second hand smoke and dry blood. I’m not the first tenant of these concrete walls, the ceiling slants slightly to the right and the corners don’t add up. There’s a small gap between the thin unevenly laid covering on the floor and the make-shift plywood baseboard. I can see the air flow exhaling, blowing almost invisible particles of dust through the slit. My eyes begin burning from the irritants drifting in the recycled oxygen. I sometimes wander around from wall to wall crawling on my stomach like a wounded rat. There’s a constant drip from the mold covered faucet in the kitchen… The counter is littered with pages, stained with faded ink, bottle caps and cigarette butts. The no smoking sign has the first letter semi-scratched out and flaking white-out over the red anti-ring… this cheap conversion to make junkie residents and prostitute stop over more welcome&he

These Words
Henry Rollins once said ” there is no such thing as an ex-junkie “I have always handed out my heart to those who saw something beautiful in the train wreck I present in my smile. I am wasted moments and tattoo ink. Where dirty heroin and dope sick attitude once flowed, is now a lust for life. I willingly destroyed all that was nourishing inside me. In my sobriety, beneath the surface of my skin instead, lies a beating heart and a working mind. Through the years, Ive kept my sanity and mind in a constant steady rhythm. I chased shadows and voices to the end of city streets. I inhaled a conscious stream of memories I wish to forget, exhaling my own fears. I sometime sit to think who I’d be without the years I spent absorbing the toxins of chemical intoxicants.Looking into the eyes of the people Ive become vulnerable to always shown the rational fear, some more shallow in the surface of retinas then others. I stopped caring to find something more. In these f

?
Sometimes my mind wanders far from me, I turn into a memory… A stranger to myself, I ramble as my eyelids close. Semi-conscious I spill secrets from my mouth. I fill my lungs, swelling with oxygen, a bitter taste creeps up my throat. I swallow and choke on those words, broken and parted shards of letters. I’ve told you so much already… Am I dreaming of you? Does my voice serve my mind? can I staple my lips shuts and never speak again? Am I drowning in the time that’s catching up to me? All the questions swimming in my head… But there’s one that will always go unasked and unanswered. I will keep it to myself and my sleep deprived state. When I shut my eyes, I will dream of that unspoken curiosity. When I wake up, I will have forgotten what I wanted to know.

Strangers
“..and that was the one distinct time in my life, the strangest moment of all, when I didn’t know who I was”― Jack KerouacIn the absence of sleep the mind unravels, You become a stranger to yourself.Pulling apart layers of personality and dissecting thoughts and memories.In these moments life is distorted and beautiful.I once would dream of shattering the earth with my words, Shouting non-sense and obscenities to the sky. The echo of my voice lingering on the surface of broken glass. The sound resonating in the empty streets and breaking the fragile halo of hallucinations.My madness has caught up with me…Hanging in the air above me, chemical illness pushing pollution into my chest, rupturing my paper thin lungs. The last exhale a steady burst of confusion. I have nothing left to offer anyone. I am a crude canvas of unfinished tattoo ink and mental illness. I once would dream, Now, I refuse to close my eyes. I am Illusion, Incognito. Misconception

"girls Night Out"
The other night I was invited out for a night with the 'girls.' I told my husband that I would be home by midnight, 'I promise!' Well, the hours passed and the margaritas went down way too easily. Around 3 am, a bit loaded, I headed for home. Just as I got in the door, the cuckoo clock in the hallway started up and cuckooed 3 times. Quickly, realizing my husband would probably wake up, I cuckooed another 9 times. I was really proud of myself for coming up with such a quick-witted solution, in order to escape a possible conflict with him. (Even when totally smashed.... 3 cuckoos plus 9 cuckoos total = 12 cuckoos MIDNIGHT!) The next morning my husband asked me what time I got in, I told him

Love And The Butterfly
Love is like a butterfly never here nor there high or low not really watching where to go.A first love is like a butterfly hatching out of a cocoonwe are amazed by the beauty of this new feeling.True love is like a butterfly spreading its wings and starting towards the sky knowing that they want to have this forever.Loosing love is like a butterfly laying its eggs then flying away to dieleaving them in this big world all alone knowing nothing familiar only home.Wanting for love is like a butterfly still as a caterpillar wanting those wings to be just like his friends.Love is like a butterfly Trying to spread its wing and fly Love is like a butterfly It can stay or it can die.

The Butterfly
There was once a beautiful butterfly, it would flutter its perfectly patterned, wings high in the blue open sky.every other butterfly would cry out, 'how pretty you are'and even from afar only he was seen, delicately dancing in the breeze.yet this poor butterfly was not at ease.it was lonely for its beauty isolated it, alone it would fly alone it would cry, butterfly tears dropping down upon, the jealous land below.even with its beauty, it was not happy, and craved to return to its original self, a catterpillar, anomonoyous and free from natures vanity.and so one day it flew away fromits little leaf, to find the forest queen, and enable its dream of exceptance come true.after many miles of blue sky, the butterfly came to the forests queen tree, after hearing the butterfly's plea, the queen grantted its anomonity, and the butterfly was free, for it was now a catterpillar, and as it crawled away, slowly, a beetle said hello, and a ant said hello, and the catterpillar cried catterplillar

Best Man He Could Be
inhale...exhale....im not doin so well pressures of the world, like a living hell the bills are due, the fridge is empty you got phat pockets, please dont tempt me lost in the dark, searchin for my guiding light mischief round every corner, but im tryin to live right my kids lookin up, and a real man is what they see tears in my eyes, cuz i aint who they need me to be struggling with life, wishin for better my girl tries to help, too stubborn to let her lookin at the world, wondering how to make it all this bullshit, i just cant take it frustrated as hell, i toss my hands in the air fightin a losin battle, wonderin why i care but then i see, them two angels lookin at me eyes wide with thoughts of what is to be i see their future rests upon my shoulders a great responsibility, and as they get older i can only hope that they will see daddy wasnt perfect, but he was the best man he could be

Flesh2flesh
Seems there is a lot less of it than one would think considering the nature and atmosphere of Fubar. I see Lounge names like Titty Bar, Sex Palace, and the like. Yet there are no titty's, nothing sexual at all really. Although, one sweet girl did briefly display a most delectable pair of boobies last night.

Intro
So, I've been on Fubar for a while now..... and while I really enjoy the game and the people that I have met and become friends with.... but I wanted more!!! So I figured that starting this blog would give me a creative outlet...just somewhere for me to post some random thoughts, poetry, maybe lyrics to a song or two.....all mine....I'm not a hater or a biter so everything you read here will be an original thought from a clusterfucked mind lol. So that's pretty much it for now....stay tuned plenty of good shit to come ;)

Well I Hope There's Someone Out There Who Can Bring Me Back To You
Are you spending the weekend with the last person you kissed? Nooope. Cause he dgaf about me haha What’s something that you are sick of? Honestly, being single haha Waiting for something? I spose notWill you be in a relationship next month? Doubt itIs there someone who continuously lets you down?Nah, I'm over it Do you still talk to the last person you kissed? YeahDoes it bother you when you text somebody and they take forever to respond? NahHas anyone ever given you butterflies? YeahIs it hard for you to be “just friends” with the opposite sex? No Be honest, do you have feelings for someone? SortaHow old is the last person that you kissed on the lips? 21 Have you ever considered getting a tattoo? Already got 11 haha Is there someone you’ll always have feelings for? IdkHave you ever changed in front of the last person you kissed? NoPlans this summer? Who knows Are you together with the last person you kissed on the lips? No.Boys are always good with their

A Message For Men
A lot of people breaking hearts these days Giving up and just walking away forever's just another word That you hear young lovers say...I know it may be old fashioned, but I still believe,love stays when the strong winds blow even when it hurts, don't let go... You've got to treat her right, understand, that she's your woman and you're her man, tell her that you need her like the desert needs the rain, and if you treat her right, show her you care,when you need her she'll be there, like an island in the storm, a beacon in the night If you love her, treat her right A good woman ain't easy to find, the faithful and the loving kind. If you don't hold her tight , she'll slip right through your hands, love gives more than it takes so be willing for her sake. stand by her when the strong winds blow even when it hurts, don't let go... You've got to treat her right, understand, that she's your woman and you're her man, tell her that you need her like the desert needs the rain, and i

Again
Did you ever? by Sherry McCoy Jones on Thursday, February 10, 2011 at 8:57am Did you ever love someone but knew they didnt care? Did you ever feel like cryin but knew you'd get nowhere? Did you ever kiss someone with the lights down low? Did you ever say I love you and I'll never let you go? Well never fall in love my friend you'll find it doesnt pay it only causes heartbreak no matter what you say. ,Life is fine....... but the price is high, if I had the choice of life or death I think Id rather die..... Well never fall in love my friend you'll get hurt befor its through, you see I oughta know because I fell in love with you.....

Here Again
Into the Maddness by Sherry McCoy Jones on Saturday, May 14, 2011 at 10:48pm I found myself within the walls of maddness. Its hard to give the respect to others when others take my kindness for a weakness. I was once told that laughing is a form of being insane. Lol. People think Im crazy for the way I am. I just tell the truth some people want the truth aslong as its there truth. Not how it works people. Im me been this way my whole life. I know all types of people and I love that. If I call u my friend then to me we r, but friends can be replaced. My people id catch a charge for, my family, blood or not id die for. And they would do the same for me. What has happened? I see people betrayin the people they r suppose to love or care about. WTF. I haue seen shit that a normal person would be in a padded room behind and still I stand here doing for me and mine. So if thats maddness I will stay. For all of u that judge me join the haters at the end of the line. I know Im a go

Here Again Thoughts
My dream man... by Sherry McCoy Jones on Friday, December 23, 2011 at 4:19am I have found someone who makes me smile. Who laughs at my corny jokes. Who smiles when I walk in a room. I found someone who wants be be here even when I'm havin a horrible day. Someone who knows my imperfections and still holds me tight. He's honest, faithful, fun, sexy, caring and straight lol. He never let's me forget how important I am and doent let me put myself down. When I do fall cause we all do he's their dusting me off and pushing me forward. He's my heart theirs nothing I wouldn't do to make his day a lil easier. He's my provider, protecter, and my teddy bear. We never go to bed angry. Because we both know were not promised tommorrow. I have found my soulmate, the one that fate smiled at. He completes me and makes me whole. Befor him I knew love I can't lie. But I can say this I love him more with each day that passes and that's new. He makes me shiver with one touch. I love the fact th

More Thouhjts
My dream man... by Sherry McCoy Jones on Friday, December 23, 2011 at 4:19am I have found someone who makes me smile. Who laughs at my corny jokes. Who smiles when I walk in a room. I found someone who wants be be here even when I'm havin a horrible day. Someone who knows my imperfections and still holds me tight. He's honest, faithful, fun, sexy, caring and straight lol. He never let's me forget how important I am and doent let me put myself down. When I do fall cause we all do he's their dusting me off and pushing me forward. He's my heart theirs nothing I wouldn't do to make his day a lil easier. He's my provider, protecter, and my teddy bear. We never go to bed angry. Because we both know were not promised tommorrow. I have found my soulmate, the one that fate smiled at. He completes me and makes me whole. Befor him I knew love I can't lie. But I can say this I love him more with each day that passes and that's new. He makes me shiver with one touch. I love the fact th

Thoughts
Across the years.... by Sherry McCoy Jones on Friday, December 23, 2011 at 7:33pm She can't stop her hands from shaking, butterflies. She looks everywhere but in his eyes, knowing that will give her away. They met many years ago and have crossed paths more than once, but noe feels like the first time. She laughs more at his jokes to hide that with one touch she would melt. She blames the cold for her hands shaking, but how can she explain her racing heart. Should she tell him or not? He knows more than he let's on,all to well he knows. He can't stop looking at her. He watches her hopin she blames the shiever is her own. He can't tell her how he feels it too, they both joke with eachother about the emotions they feel, passing them off as playful flirting. He knows that she knows, but niether one peak. They talk for hours and been silent just as long....... Comfortable silence and jibber jabber..... thanks fror everything...... you made me realize I don't have to be numb any

Thoughts
Fireflies by Sherry McCoy Jones on Friday, December 23, 2011 at 7:55pm Well her hands a little more steady as she sees him staring at her. He tells how nice she looks and how wonderful she smells. She smiles and feels her face getting hot. Not sure where the night will bring them they laugh and smile. Then they touch and the emotional rollercoaster comes back. He's hands now unsteady, hearts pounding. As soon as he noticed it was her, he kissed her softly and smiles. She can't figure out weather this is a dream and soon she will wake. They kiss again this time with the passion they both wanted to hide, music in the background had them in their own world. Their was no one eles alteast not at that moment, no one. Laying next to eachother making out like they were sixteen again.... He helps her undress, shakin more than ever. The passion, the warmth,the rage. Every emotion all at once in this wonderful act. As they lay in eachothers arms.... Regaining their heartbeats as thei

Doing Things, Thinking Things
If I've said too much,If I've asked for too much,Then I am sorry.I've said I was never going to love again,I've said I was never going to want another man,And now here you are.I'm doing things,And thinking of things,I shouldn't be.I'm sorry if I put you on the spot,I'm sorry if I am coming on too strong,I just want to know where I stand,If I stand anywhereWith you.

Back Under Her Original Name Pretty Little Monster
so in editing this blog i finally got in touch with this girls boyfriend yesterday only for him to be shocked that she is pulling this shit on here.. i feel bad for the guy learning that he took on another job to put him and kristy in a better position cause he was closing on a house to move out of the apartment they were in.. he also bought her a 1000 dollar piece of jewlery for there 5 year anniversary and a new laptop which she has been using to video chat, send nude pictures, and meet guys on the computer.. he takes her out at least 3 times a week to eat and buys her things all the time theres always food in the fridge and new clothes for her ... he also told me a few months back she fucked his best friend in between the time they were taking a break.. he has stuck through this with her and even caught her doing the same thing a year ago and still tried helping her and giving her another chance.. all in all i felt really bad for the guy he sounds and seems like a great guy the poor

The Chef Part 3
Part 3 my body still twitching from the constant long orgasm, you remove your cock from the hold my pussy has on it and u replace it with your mouth. I am laughing and squirming and trying so hard to get away from the onslaught. U hold my hips firmly in place. you insert a couple fingers into my pussy just to keep me going and then u lift your body from mine. With your other hand you firmly grasp your hard cock and pump it right towards my chest. U see my tongue sneak out of my mouth and you ask me if I am ready for a bath. With in seconds you are firing hot sticky cum all over my breasts. Hitting my neck and my belly button. at the same time I see it erupt, my pussy nearly devours your hand in an intense contraction. As you start laying down on top of me you lick the cum off my achingly hard nipples and then you kiss me Sharing our juices with me. It takes a while before we recover, but when we do, you suggest a shower. You lead me to the bathroom and get the water started. You have

Life, Plain And Simple.
Y'know, there will always be a certain time, When everything is hopeless, You are at you lowest, When the pain is just unbearable. Pain, sorrow, loss, agony, All of which, Can lead to your own self-destruction. When it is unbearable, It is just far, far too easy to... Say that you've had enough. To scream and shout, Maybe even consider a swift end. Pain can be so extreme, It can be so very excruciating, That you feel nothing at all. Creating a blackness in your heart, An impenetrable darkness,

With A Sigh
It's just like the first time. Insulation, isolation, and self-indulgence. I catch glimpses of who I should have been or more appropriately what I could have been had I the strength. You're close to those final words but you'll ignore me just the same. I'll be an apparition - a disappointing reminder of the disheartening truth that I am woefully and completely insufficient. As I bid farewell to yesterday and the anticipation of tomorrow is now met with simple dismay. I know. Despite my protest to the contrary. I still know. Barely a flicker of hope in my eyes. Impatient I wilted that flower well before it could bloom. Though I lament all I see is departure. The nocturnal hours of restless hope find me emaciated and praying. Praying? And what gods dare I beseech? What divine presence would hear my plea and extinguish my light? The nauseous burning of failure fills my presence. Here I see the son of my father that recoils barely a shadow of a man. Would t

These I Vow To Do !!
When loved ones come home, always run to greet them; Never pass up the opportunity to go for a joyride;Allow the experience of fresh air and the wind in your face to be pure ecstasy; When it's in your best interest, practice obedience; Let others know when they've invaded your territory; Take naps; Stretch before rising; Run, romp, and play daily; Thrive on attention and let people touch you; Avoid biting when a simple growl will do; On warm days, stop to lie on your back on the grass; On hot days, drink lots of water and lie under a shady tree; When you're happy, dance around and wag your entire body; No matter how often you're scolded, don't buy into the guilt thing and pout...run right back and make friends; Delight in the simple joy of a long walk; Eat with gusto and enthusiasm; Stop when you have had enough; Be loyal. Never pretend to be something you're not; If what you want lies buried, dig until you find it; When someone is having a bad day, be silent, sit close by and nuzzle t

Humans Fail
humans suck a lot. I realize this entire site is one big research study. I assume someone somewhere has the odds generated for others to be kind without expecting anything in return. It happens rarely that others give unconditionally. To those souls I send many positive thoughts. You are truly awesome humans! To the rest of you greed driven humans...see ya when I have something to offer you. ;)

Just Something Stupid I Stumbled Upon
http://www.greatinventions.tv/products/101.php that is the site that i came across and well can't copy and paste the whole think...LOL but let me tell you my thoughts were WHO WOULD REALLY TRY THIS...LMFAO CHECK IT OUT AND DON'T FORGET TO READ ALL THE INSTRUCTIONS...LOL

Health: New Stem Cells Therapy
More on November24.info January 17 2012, a New Drug from the Laboratories of The University of Tel-Aviv's Stem Cells Research.This Drug stop the Muscle Stem Cells from being wasted in the Body. The own Stem Cells of the Patients with this Drug then become Active, Effective, a Priceless Advantage on Embryonic Stem Cells Therapy in which the Stem Cells are taken from Embryos. Being the own Patients Cells, they do not come with the Dangers of Immune Rejection and Alien Body Toxicity. Develloped for 10 years the Drug will Probably be available in 3 years.Stem Cells are used in some Cancers and Neuro-musclular Diseases Therapies. More in the Sources... Sources: "MFA:http://www.mfa.gov.il/MFA/InnovativeIsrael/Stem_cells_slow_ALS-Jan_2012.htm".

Why Are People So Fucking Stupid?
Okay so this bitch on another site begged me to text her, so I'm like okay and I do for a couple days she is okay and what not then all the sudden she starts being a total bitch because her "closest friend" wants a relationship out of her and she can't do that because she says love has betrayed her because of her past you know that old story bs. She goes on to be bitchy and then tells me why after I tell her to suck it up. Oh and before I tel the story this girl claims to be a masochist and a nympho. Anyway she tells me these exact words. I grew up being abused by those who were supposed to love me.. My half sister raped me.. Then she got her friends to.. No one believed a 7 year old..My mom and dad abandnded me for drugs.. My best friend raped me for 6 years.. And now I have muscular cancer.. I have been beat up so much I became a masochist because it was the only way to survive. I hsve never been loved so how am I supposed to love someone ele. Love has only betrayed meand showed me i

Pipa Collapses, Sopa Hearing To Resume In February
The unprecedented blackout of websites yesterday in protest of the highly criticized Stop Online Piracy Act (SOPA) and Protect Intellectual Property Act (PIPA) legislation saw Wikipedia’s English site shut down for 24 hours, as well as countless other websites displaying their disapproval of the bills. Even Google aired its disgrace by blacking out its Google logo on their homepage. Twitter released data yesterday saying the popular micro blogging service had recorded over 3 million Tweets about PIPA and SOPA. Most were in support of the protest, but as the day wore on some took to Twitter to vent their frustration at being unable to use the websites that had shut down in protest. Senate members rushed for the doors with 18 Senators announcing they opposed the new PIPA bill. Sen. Roy Blunt (R-MO) blamed the mass exodus on Sen. Harry Reid (D-NV) for "pushing forward with a flawed bill that needs much work," according to reports by Ars Technica. One of the chamber's longest-serv

Another Story
As i sit here and watch the snow, I think about ya a little bit, I know I gotta stop doing it but hey what can i say I think your sexy and i cant help but day dream lol. Walks over to where you are sitting and plops down and crinkles my nose at you and says hey there sexy what are you up to? You dont answer me at first, i let my fingers touch the side of your face and turn your face to face me and say whats up hon? DId you have a bad week. I still dont really get a response as my fingers trail down to your lips and i smile Maybe i can at least make you smile for a few minutes. you look up at me still have a look like you might bite my head off but i am in a mood to take my chances. I lean in kissing your lips, my tongue parting your lips finding your tongue and wrapping mine around it breaking the kiss slightly letting my mouth grab your bottom lip and suck on it for a minute the replant my lips onto yours My hands travel down your chest to your belt undoing

What I See In You
What is it I see in you I do not have a clue I would like to explore this more To not let opportunity slip out the door I want a relationship Based on friendship To develop in a natural way Not to be rushed on any day I do have strong feelings for you Where do we go now, what do we do What is it I see in you I really do not have a clue

To The Ground
Why is it when my life is coming around Something knocks me to the ground Am I destined to have this black cloud over my head I’d rather be dead I’m trying to break through into the light Oh the glorious sunlight To have it shining on me To be completely free Completely free Is a dream to me Because when my life starts to come around Something always knocks me to the ground

A Real Friend
What is a real friend Someone who’s with you to the end Through thick and thin Whether you lose or win Through your ups and downs Smiles and frowns A real friend will stick by your side Is always along for the ride Will completely defend you Even if they don’t agree with you That’s what it is like to be a real friend Someone to stand by you until the bitter end

Immaturity
What the hell have I done Do you think it’s fun To call people names What childish games You lie to my face What a disgrace Just because your life is crappy No need to make mine unhappy I do what I can to help you Don’t you even have a clue What real friendship is about That is something I highly doubt

I Am Over You
Don’t bother walking through my door You’re not welcome anymore You gave up that right When you gave up the fight I mean nothing to you So get a clue I no longer need you I no longer want you Get out of my life and my head You will never again share my bed I am over you Yes, we are completely through

Goodbye
I just wanted to say goodbye I’m tired of living a lie You want nothing to do with me Of this I can plainly see I just wanted to know what I did wrong With you I thought I’d always belong But you had other plans I guess When you left my life a mess I’ve since picked my heart up off the ground And am turning my life around Because I’m tired of living a lie I am telling you goodbye

Getting To Know You
Getting to know you Is something I want to do Your wants, your dreams and hopes for the future Are you looking for a relationship to nurture I’m looking for someone to hold me tight Through the long lonely night Someone to make my life worthwhile And make me really smile I know all of this takes time For me that’s just fine Because getting to know you Is something I really want to do

Time
My heart skips a beat My stomach’s filled with butterflies I try to speak but nothing comes out I can’t even look you directly in the eyes What have you done to me Where is this going from here Is this a beginning of a relationship Something new, different and exciting I fear I look forward to seeing you again All we need is a little time To get to know each other better And everything comes with time

All I Wanted
All I wanted was to be happy But now I feel crappy My world’s been turned upside down My smile to a frown I hate feeling this way I wish it would all go away Will the sun ever shine Will everything be fine I suppose it will I have definitely had my fill Of being very unhappy And of feeling crappy

Independence
Always completely independent Never wanting to be dependent On any man Do anything I can But then I met you Now what do I do I began losing my independence Because of my dependence That I have on you Again what do I do I know take back my independence Never again to have a dependence

What I Thought
What I thought was going to be forever Is now probably going to be never Because I was being a retard And pushing you to hard About making decisions about your life Like wanting to be your wife I was wrong I will admit My life to you I am still willing to commit To be your girlfriend is enough for me This is if you are willing to have me I just want you to see How much you mean to me

How Do I Make You See
How do I make you see That we are supposed to be together For all of time Our hearts entwined forever How do I make you see I would do anything for you No matter the price No cost is too great to be with you How do I make you see That in my life I need you And no matter what happens I will always love you

Confusion
Sitting here thinking of you Trying not to be blue I should be glad But I’m not, I’m oh so sad I have no idea why We can’t at least try We’ve been through so much Oh how I’m going to miss your touch Where did it all go wrong I thought we were strong Always remember I love you That’s something I’ll always do

Thinking
Trying to keep my mind busy But all I can think of is you You are everywhere I look I really wish I had a clue About what you are thinking And about what you are feeling Where do we go from here I’m tired of staring at the ceiling All alone in our bed What do I do now Where will I go To live without you, I don’t know how I love you with all my heart and soul You are my moon, my stars and sun You are my whole world Please tell me that we are not completely done

Getting Back To Me
Getting back to me Is where I’m trying to be Quiet and shy Even around my special guy My house is always clean The floors have a nice sheen I work hard everyday Even sick, I never stray I’m doing this not just for you I’m doing it for me too Getting back to me Is where I’m going to be

I Used To Be
I used to be quiet and shy There was always a tear in my eye There was never a smile on my face No matter how happy the place Then I learned laughing could be fun I found more things could be done But lately I have been thinking And my heart has been sinking Maybe I should go back to being quiet and shy Especially around that special guy Well we know that special guy is you I love you

The Best Thing
I’ve done many things wrong in my life Caused many people a lot of strife The best thing I ever did do Was fall in love with you You turned my life around Put my feet on solid ground But now the ground has begun to shake The ledge I’m on is about to break I hope you catch me when I fall I hope you will help me through it all Because if I’m with you I know there’s nothing I can’t make it through

Without You
Without you there’d be no sunlight Only the blackest of night I’m trapped in a daze As everything goes into a haze No birds sing in the trees No wind blows, not even a breeze There is on way To make this all go away You know what to do To keep me from being blue The key is you And remember I love you

I Would Give Up
The sun, the moon and any number of stars Just to stay in your arms Any amount of money Just to hear you call me honey The thought of ever being your wife Just to keep you in my life My soul to the devil would be sold Just for your hand to hold My friends, my family and my home Just for the chance to have you all my own There is nothing I wouldn’t give up For us to be able to kiss and make up

You’re Love
You’re love has made me try To laugh more and not to cry You’re love had done things to me That no one will ever see You’re love has given me the strength To let people in, not keep them at arms length You’re love has me holding my head high Like the sun shining brightly in the sky You’re love I can’t live without Of this to me there is no doubt You’re love is what I need To be able to do any deed

This Disease
I thought this craving went away I threw the bottle away I thought I was past all of this I was going to live in bliss I never expected That I was actually infected With this disease And its symptoms are difficult to ease I need a drink now Please tell me how To calm this lust Please before I bust

The Rage
The rage has come back Just like a sneak attack I thought I could control it To lock it away and not show it But to the surface it is about to rise With it’s red glowing eyes Quick someone help me Can’t any of you see What it is that’s going on I know it hasn’t been that long Since this rage Was locked into the cage

Life Without You
Life without you would be so blue You have made everything alive and new What would I ever do If I ever lost you I hope that I never find that out You will never leave of that I have no doubt As I will never leave you Why would I make myself blue True to you I will always be This you must surely see I try to show in so many a way That’s why I say I love you everyday

I’ve Lived
I’ve lived a life of hell While others lives have appeared swell The pain I have known Has been from what others have shown How they don’t care about me Or who I want to be There are many times when I don’t care Because some didn’t remember to share Any love with me To help mold me into the person I would someday be I once lived a life of hell Now things are going swell

The Sales Call (customers Side)
Hello, who is this She is not here miss Yes, he is here What can I help you with dear A special offer you say What are you selling today I’m not really interested in this Excuse me miss How many times do I have to say no And what will is take for you to go Take the coverage you say Again I’m telling you NO WAY “click”

The Sales Call (telesales Side)
Hello, may I speak with so and so Be calm I think this is how the spiel does go I am calling so and so customers today And they have a special offer for you today They are going to pay the premiums for you for a time So for the next two months you do not have to spend a dime You can cancel if you chose You really have nothing to lose We do send you out a reminder Is there any way to be kinder Thank you for your time today I will let you go now and be on your way

I Cried
Last night I cried until I slept Alone on our bed I wept Because you have gone away To serve our country so far away I’ll miss you the whole time you are gone And I’ll cry on the day you return on These will be tears of happiness For I will be overcome with joy, I must confess Tonight I will cry until I sleep But I will not be alone as I weep Because this time you are home with me Back from being across the sea

I All Ready Knew
Before I ever met you I all ready knew That someday I would find someone Who is kind, loving and fun After I met you I all ready knew You were the one I was waiting for The one I would love forever more I also all ready knew What I was getting into With your military life Remember my mother was a military wife I all ready knew what I was getting into When I fell in love with you

The Distance
There will be many miles between us That’s why I’m making such a fuss Not only in miles are we far away But in a different world on another day When I am sleeping You’ll be waking But that’s no difference from now That’s comforting to know anyhow I will miss you And cry into many a tissue The distance between our hearts is none Simply because they beat as one

Sorrow, Relief And Happiness
Sorrow for losing you Relief, for I know you are no longer in pain Happiness, because you are in a better place A place where there is never any rain I will miss you But I am not the only one We will see you again When our work here is done Your work in this time and place is done You have moved on to a new task One in which I hope to someday join you When it is time to shed this life’s mask So now it is time For you to be on your way I will see you again On some other sunny day Dedicated to the memory of Lillian “Lil” Drake May 15, 1945-April 26, 2003

The Speech
Even is a crowded room I feel so alone Anxiety and fear like you’ve never known Soon it will be my time to speak Delivering information everyone will seek I listen intently to the speaker before me How confident she seems to be Oh no, it’s my time to go My anxiety I must not show To be cool calm and collected Is what is expected I deliver my speech with flair My words floating gently over the air To the ears of the awaiting crowd Now that it’s done, I feel quite proud

Time To Die
Death may be the only way But I will never give way To the temptation to try To say I will do it would be a lie So I live in misery Waiting for someone to pity me Even though no one will I keep waiting still For someday I will die To deny this is surely a lie Not my any hand of mine But of one oh so divine For only God knows when and why It is our time to die

Proud To Be An American
I am proud to be an American I will do all that I can To support the troops of this nation Whether or not they are of any relation To me or anyone I know From mornings first golden glow Into the dark of night Our soldiers will protect with all their might Our freedom and our lives From their husband and their wives To the neighbor down the street Until their mission is complete Then they will come home in a wave To the home of the free and the brave

Proud Of You
I sit here staring at your empty chair Wishing you were here, not there Wherever it is you may be Hopefully you’ll come home to me Months, weeks and days All blend together in a haze Until someone asks about you Then the sadness feels anew Sadness cause I miss you so much I wish it was easier to keep in touch Even though you are gone Life at home will go on I am proud of you For serving our country as you do

The Patient
I’m lying here in this bed Wondering if I’m dead I can’t be, because I hear different noises No some of that is voices Is it the nurse or the doctor Maybe it’s the person who flies the copter If life flight is here it must be bad So many people are going to be sad Into the room comes the doc Just after he stops to pull up his sock Your x-rays look fine But I would suggest no more wine Go home, take two aspirin and go to bed You are fine, trust me you are not dead

In My Mind
I’m tired of sleeping alone in this bed What have I done keeps going through my head What have I done wrong That keeps going on for so long I realized no I have done nothing Even though in my mind there’s something I’ve said or done Even if there has been none I know this doesn’t make sense Sometimes I’m so dense I’m just scared of losing you I don’t know what I’d do I know I’ll never find out But sometimes there’s that twinge of doubt

I’ve Lied
The many tears I have cried Are for each time I lied Oh no, not to you That’s something I could never do I’ve lied to myself many a time So much it should be a crime What have I lied about More than I can remember without a doubt About not giving a care About not willing to share My hopes, dreams and life To never again be someone’s wife So many tears I’ve cried One for each time I lied

A Lesson
What have I done wrong now Can anyone tell me how I keep making these mistakes When I thought I was doing whatever it takes To make myself better than before To sit and talk, not walk out the door When things go wrong Maybe because I’ve done it for so long But then that’s no excuse Oh hell, what’s the use Not that I am wrong I must learn to be strong To cope with these feelings I get Maybe I am right, what’ll ya bet

A Beautiful Place
The rain on my face Takes me to a beautiful place Where green grasses grow In the valley below The majestic mountain With natural springs flowing like a fountain Crickets sing Birds glide on an outstretched wing Deer graze in the daylight And wolves howl by night The day is lit by sunlight And the moon always shines at night Calm, quiet and peaceful Isn’t this place simply beautiful

I Hate You
I hate you And everything you do Just the sight of you enrages me To the point I can not see Even to think of you or hear your name My reaction is the same Rage, anger and hate so extreme You’d think you’re in some hellish dream This is no dream I can assure you My feelings are real I do not adore you Seeing you dead Comes after the point of seeing red These feelings I will never act on Because on me other people depend upon

A Wolf
Nature’s most beautiful creature At least they are to me Is the wolf Strong, brave, wild and free To hear a wolf howl Is music to my ears When I see that same wolf It brings to my eyes many tears Their fur is so soft And their eyes so intense To harm one would be insane Can you tell me what’s the sense

You’re Right, I’m Wrong
What is your problem Why do you always blame me Take a look in the mirror And maybe you’ll see I know I’m not perfect And neither are you But judge me not by my face But by the things I do Even then I am not perfect We all do some things wrong But in you’re eyes You’ll always be right and I’m wrong

This Bottle
As I sit with this bottle in my hand I think wouldn’t it be grand To put this bottle away To just walk away From the pain it has brought me Away from the person I could be But I can’t seem to let go Why is it I can’t say no This bottle has taken hold Despite the things I’ve been told No matter how hard I try I can’t push it away, why Maybe I don’t want to Even though I need to

This Rage
How can I calm this rage That has me trapped inside a cage How will I ever get out Someday I will, of this I have no doubt The fire burns deep inside of me Sometimes so hot I can not see What I am about to do Or who it’s going to be done to The flames of hell do not compare To let it out I do not dare But sometimes it escapes my grasp And lashes out like a cornered asp I know I need to calm this rage If I ever wish to get out of this cage

From
From a heart that has been battered From dreams that have been shattered From rainy skies From crying eyes From a nightmare that will never end From a heart that will never mend From a life in despair From a soul in need of repair From anger and intense rage From feelings trapped inside a cage From a whirlwind of emotions From unjustified selfish emotions From all of this I have come From this I feel, sometimes, I am the only one

How And When
How could I have known all along What was wrong When you never talk to anymore Like we used to before How could I have and inkling Of what it is you are thinking When we never spend any time together Just chit chatting about the weather How come we’ve let things go this far It all feels so bizarre When I feel like we are drifting apart But not necessarily from the heart How came we’ve become so out of touch When all I know is I love you so much

Bikers (pt. 2)
Underneath that rough exterior Lies a heart that couldn’t be superior The things they do around the world Riding proud with their flags unfurled For causes in which they believe Some marked by a patch on the sleeve Of the leathers that they wear To some this gives quite a scare To see a group of bikers ride by Gives me a natural high Especially when I see my dad’s bike I get all excited like a little tyke Cause I know it’s my time to ride And wave to those who stand there wide eyed The feeling of freedom is so complete There is nothing in this world that can compete

Bikers
They dress real rough And act real tough The leathers they wear Give most people quite a scare Filled with patched, colors and such That remind us of how much Different they are from most Many don’t like to brag or boast About the things they’ve said and done Sometimes in the name of fun Naked women, loud music and an occasional fight Without that the party just wouldn’t seem right Many people fear them Through this fear they are quick to condemn them

You Are There
When my life seems unfair It never fails you are there To hold me To comfort me To show me passion I have never known And to let me know I’ll never again be alone To help me see things through new eyes That, until now, have been in disguise To show me someone does care To lead me out of despair And into a life anew Where I’ll never again be blue

The Storm
Shelter me from the storm Of my emotions which seem to swarm Around me, never ending Twisting, turning and bending Burning and yearning on the inside Nowhere to run, nowhere to hide From these feelings I get All though I do regret That I can’t explain how I feel But I know you love will help to heal All the hurt that has amassed From my horrid past

Why
All I do is sit around and cry And ask myself why Why do I even bother trying It just leads to me crying Everything I say or do is wrong I’d be better off banging my head on a gong Than do the things I think I should Cause some people never thought I could Just ask my mother she’ll tell you I belong in a place I’ll call the human zoo Where it feels like your locked in a cage Not a person, just a name on a page Now you know why All I do is sit and cry

David (my Love)
You have the most beautiful brown eyes Not too big, not too small, just the right size Your loving and gentle touch I long for it and miss it so much Whether you’re gone a minute or a day The feelings are the same either way I love you with all my heart I can’t stand it when we’re apart It’s just the way I feel With you everything’s so real I watch you sleeping at night And I know that, with you, everything will be all right

Logan (my Son)
You’re momma’s little boy Who is never without a toy Playing out in the dirt Getting mud all over your shirt You’d rather be out playing Than listen to anything I’m saying About when you get older Or how you should be bolder Can I go play in the mud and the muck And can I take this car and this truck Yes, I say, go play How can I make you stay When you’d rather be playing in the dirt Getting mud all over your shirt

Katrina (my Daughter)
Your daddy’s little girl In every way, down to the last little curl But you have mommy’s nose And you even have my toes You have your own smile Which will steal boy’s hearts in a while Cause you’re growing up fast You being a baby could never last Someday you’ll be saying so long Before I know it you’ll be gone Off to start a new life As some lucky boy’s wife And someday you’ll have a little girl Who will be her daddy’s girl, down to the last little curl

Until You
I have felt pain, been rejected Battered, bruised and neglected Been shown how love can be cruel and demanding When I needed it to be kind, gentle and understanding I’ve been confused And felt totally used I’ve had many fears And cried even more tears I’ve searched for peaceful bliss Which I always seem to miss I’ve had many hopes and dreams Stole away or so it seems And this is all I ever knew Until you

While You Are Gone
Lying alone in this bed With thoughts of you inside my head I miss you so much Your devilish smile and your gentle touch You should be home tomorrow To lift from my heart all of this sorrow But you’ll be gone again in a few days And my life will go back into a haze You’ll be down south in Forest City I’ll be stuck here in Caribou, how shitty For six months this is how it’ll be Thank God it’s not an eternity While you are gone just remember that I’ll be Right here waiting for you to return to me

My Fate
I thought I knew my fate Only to know misery and hate I found I was wrong On the day you came along You showed me more of my destiny By just giving me your company Then came the night you loved me I know things could never be The way they were before Cause you have shown me so much more For four months we’ve been together Like two peas in a pod or birds of a feather I guess what I’m trying to say Is I love you, in every way

What I Want To Do
To spend the rest of my life with you Is what I want to do Will you marry me And stay for all eternity In my heart May we never be apart Children for you I wish to bear Then for you and them I wish to care Until the day I die This I promise you my dear is not a lie

Your Love
I love you in so many ways And it’s been growing stronger now for days Every time I see you my heart sings Who knows what the future brings But how long will this last If you take a look at my past Relationships are not something I’m good at I’ve struck out every time I’ve been up to bat But things change As time tends to rearrange How we think and feel I know now this is real I’ve finally found what I’ve been searching for Your love to be mine ever more

Death (pt. 2)
I have confined myself to this pain Which is sometimes hard to contain Death is my only chance for release And my only hope for peace I alone have made this existence To which now there is no resistance I welcome death with a warm embrace Anything to get out of the place Whether it be the death of my body or soul In any part or of the whole Anything to escape this pain Which gets harder and harder to contain

When I Hurt You
When I hurt you I hurt me too So why do I do it When will I ever quit I know what I do is wrong It’s because I’ve done it for so long What am I trying to prove By doing things of which no one will approve Why do I hurt us so Never giving us a chance to grow All I can say is I’m sorry for this My life is completely a miss Do the answers lay in my past I hope I find them fast

Butterflies
Suddenly I get this feeling My mind draws a blank My hands are slightly shaking My heart begins to race I feel like I'm losing control I'm nervous inside and out I have an unexplainable feeling I wish I could figure this out These butterflies inside of me Keep fluttering all throughout I thought they were gone for good I didn't know they could come out It must be the way You get to me like you do The way you make me feel The way I love you like I do...

Confused
What do I do now Can anyone show me how To see what I hope to find Someone who is gentle and kind To show me that love that is lost One who understand what it will cost To show me How beautiful I can be Cause all I see is the ugly face Of someone who has fallen from grace Where are you now I ask And are you willing to take this task Of unlocking me from this pain inside And show me it’s no longer time to hide

Feelings
Feeling hurt and used Emotionally tattered and bruised These emotions I’ve known for so long Will there ever be a time when they are gone Probably not I guess My life is such a mess I long for someone to take away this pain To take me into the sunlight and out of the rain To show me they care That love can be kind, gentle and fair Where is this man I need to know From here which way do I go I search to no avail I hope someday true love will prevail

Deepest Desire
As the sun rises in the East So the breaking dawn of my love begins As the sun sets in the West I am overwhelmed with a burning desire A desire locked down deep inside One that cannot be concealed anymore I long for one sweet kiss to quench my thirst I long for one tender touch that will last a lifetime At the end of it all you are my deepest desire! I love you not today nor tomorrow but forever!

The Things I’d Do
The things I’d do for you To show you my love is true Anything you ask No matter how great the task I would gladly do Simply because I love you Because of this love I feel Your heart I hope someday to steal And lock it safely away So it will never be hurt in anyway To hurt you is the last thing I want to do Again because I love you

Love
There are so many things I want to show you Even more I want you to know Love should not be cruel and demanding It should be kind, gentle and full of understanding If discovered in the right time and place Love can bring a smile to your face But only when you let the love in Will it be time to begin A new life With less worry and strife

I Love You
I love you I truly do In ways you’ll never know Oh how I long to show You just how much The slightest touch Of your hand Whisks me away to another land To a place I long to be Together with you for all eternity

To Fall In Love
To fall in love with you Was the last thing I wanted to do I’ve been through too much pain Been left out in the rain Then came along the day you walked into my life You took away most of the pain and strife Made me feel good about myself Put me up upon a shelf Like some precious ornament Made only for adornment But when the world begins to quake Watch out I may fall and break So hold me close to you Or you’ll need a lot of glue

The Tree
Out behind the house stood a tree It was planted there by Ellery He planted it the year his granddaughter was born On the lawn it would someday adorn But his little tree never grew With it now what should he do Remove it I guess But that would be such a mess Then along came the child Who stared at the tree and smiled Grampy I can make the tree grow Watch me now here I go She did make that little tree grow How she did it I’d like to know With lots of love and tender care To argue with her I did not dare For 28 years the tree has grown From the love that the child has shown Dedicated to the memory of Ellery C. Barnes September 16, 1912-May 1, 2001

In My Dreams
Of a dragon’s fire And of a soldier’s funeral pyre Of Dwarves, Fairies and Elves And books of magic on many shelves Heroes of old About whom many stories are told Castles, wizards and magic spells And the things the merchant sells Where all sorts of creatures roam the plains Feeding on the many different grains A place high in the sky Where dragons are free to fly A place full of enchantment and mystery Is where I long to be But the only way to get there it seems Is in my dreams

The Mask
Is it so much to ask To not have to hide behind this mask This mask you see Is not the real me Who am I you want to know I’m something I’d rather not show To the world or anyone so dear You would not like me I fear The anger and pain That is attached to me like a ball and chain Has made me the way I am to be Doomed for all eternity

Anger And Pain
Anger and pain Attached to me like a ball and chain Like this I am doomed to be Is it possible to be set free In this lifetime, I think not So here I sit, I wait to rot What have I done to deserve this All I’ve ever asked for is peaceful bliss

Neglected And Rejected
Feeling neglected Alone and rejected To long for love that is real This is how children should never feel To know a parents loving touch To many means so much But to some they never know That that’s how it’s supposed to go All they know is abuse For which there is no excuse Bruises, broken bones and scars on the face Which they hide in shame and disgrace They hurt from wounds that will never mend Will this cycle ever end It takes only one to break this chain To end the hurting and the pain But everyday is a test For the weary there is no rest For your children will never know feeling rejected They will never be alone or neglected

Love And Flowers
Love is like a flower They both have a special power To bring a smile to your face No matter your age, color or race They can also bring tears to your eyes Because someday everything dies Grab onto that power with all your might No matter the cost hold on tight Take this chance while you can You’ll be glad that you never ran Like the perfect flower After a spring shower True love comes only once in our lives When nurtured, like the flower, it thrives Thriving on the love we give to them Like the flower thrives on water from the stem Love and flowers Truly do have special powers

Death
Death and despair Loon in the air It’s everywhere I look In every cranny and nook Gloom and doom Inside my room Is there light at the end of this tunnel It feels like I’m in a funnel Getting smaller and smaller Maybe in just getting taller Taller or smaller what’s the difference There is no point to resistance Fighting the fight Has drained me of all my might So I lay down to sleep I hope for someone my soul to keep In dying before I wake I hope for someone my soul to take For in death I must release To forever live in peace

Hope And Dreams
Go to hell she’ll say What do you care anyway About my hopes and dreams All you care about is you it seems All you know how to do is take What a wretched person you do make For once in your life take my advice And try to be a little more nice To those around you both friend and foe Only then will you go To that place in your life you want to be So here we are, now do you see That I do care in every way I just don’t show it everyday All those hopes and dreams you have right now Will come true somehow Good luck to you my friend I hope we will meet again, someday in the end

Troubles
You say my troubles are my own creation But this is only your interpretation If you look into my past You will find the answers at last There you will find Troubles of another kind Some will still be my own Others belong to those who have grown Do you understand now trouble breeds trouble Just as a cauldron will burn, boil and bubble Now with this information in hand Attempt to change the future, wouldn’t that be grand Go now take what you’ve learned Maybe someday you’ll get what you’ve earned

True Love
What you seek you will find Even when you think you’re far behind As you travel through thick and thin Some days you wonder will I ever win You know that someday you will So you keep searching still Searching for that special one Hoping to find him while you are young When true love finds you fast You wonder then will this last It’s in your faith that you will trust That this is true love, not just lust Together we will always be Me loving him, him loving me Here we are now growing old But there’s more story to be told The children have grown big and strong We wonder now did we do any wrong Wrong in raising them the way we did There I go acting like a silly kid We must have some something right Even though all we ever did is fight For now they have children of their own Can’t wait to see them when they come home For visits, holidays and such Never realizing you missed them so much Then before you h

Untitled
What you seek you shall find But if you are weak never mind You will travel through thick and think Maybe someday you will win Step a little closer my dear For you’re end will soon be here If you were smart you’d take my advice Not that I’m at all trying to be nice Season’s some and seasons go Of this you should all ready know Leave me now be on your way So that you may live another day

The Weekend Woes
Dear Diary.......wet weekend blehhhhhh......a day so far spent rating 3k+ pics.....i WILLNOT do that again.....cancelled appointment to see flat cause no point i cant raise the cash for estate agent , i have to smile cos where the fukk do these folks think im gonna raise it? if i had cash i wudnt be asking for a landlord who took bond n housin benefit wud i lol, so close but so far......was close to son too which wud have been awesome but heyho.....(kicks wall) maybe tonight i will win lottery....just a share wud do .....i dream of a comfy bed and a kitchen to bake in and front door of my own to shut out the world......ooooooooooooo turn back time, instead of divorcing 2nd hubby kill him off n get insurance ..........id have my home back .....and me cats.......

Im Not A Toy Dammit!
Hi I'm a female, I don't like boys perving me. So I'm going to post sexy pictures of myself. Don't objectify me, I'm not about that. Did I mention I have a naughty folder? Kids these days, wanna be whores without getting treated like whores. Either you are a whore or you are not, but don't expect to behave like one and not get treated accordingly. that is all......

Love
Everyone says that love hurts, but that's not true. Loneliness hurts, rejection hurts. Everyone confuses these with love but in reality- Love is the only thing in this world that covers up all the pain and makes us feel wonderful again. Sometimes it works in love, and sometimes it hurts instead. Do remember, the love that you will have for someone someday when it works out for you; will easily be greater and will easily cover up the pain that you may have felt from heartbreak in the past. So don't give up on love, because there is always someone who loves you. Even if it's not the person you were hoping for.

Some Thoughts Gleaned While In A Hospital
If there's one thing I've realized, it's this: life is full of circumstances that are beyond our immediate control. I'm sure that's nothing new to you, my reader. But when an event takes place that is both unexpected and sobering, you either quickly fight it with every fiber in your being or you take a step back and open yourself up to whatever it is this moment is trying to teach you about yourself. I was in writhing pain last night and so found myself in the ER. After an MRI, a diagnosis that I feared had been made. Though not life-threatening, it is something that has often had me worried (being that it's a genetic predisposition). On the ride home, I couldn't help but think how quickly I was to dismiss someone in my life that didn't deserve it; how quickly I take the people in my life forgranted.People are something we have immediate control over. We can let some into our life while we push others away. And, granted, those who we push away should be for really good reasons. Th

Saddened By What America Has Become
The more I sit back and actually pay attention to what is going on in our world today, the more saddened I become. This country was founded on principals of Freedom. People looked towards America as a place that they could come and be/do anything they wanted to because the Government here wasn't in control of their lives. Unfortunately, that's not what America really is anymore. The original Constitution gave states the final say. Not now. If the states don't follow the laws that the Senate and House up in DC deem are necessary for us, they lose their funding. Who the hell are these people to determine what is best for ME and my Family? Most of them don't know what it is to struggle financially. Most of them don't have enough morality to know what really is the difference between right and wrong. Are some of these laws common sense? Of course... Yes, I am safter in a car accident if I have my seatbelt on. That is a proven fact. But if I CHOSE not to put my own safety at a prio

Me And My Politics....giggles
i know, not all my friends will find this as funny as i do. but, yall know me and my politics! giggles.....if you are a liberal you probably will not giggle as much as i did. altho, if you take it in the humor it was ment with, you may giggle with me! and before anyone says so, i KNOW not all liberals are stupid like the cartoon chick in the video.....but i SWEAR, i have talked to some that sound like 'her'! i just have to look at them and say, 'huh?' anyway.....i hope yall enjoy it as much as i do! here is the link incase the video does not show up....since i am comp retarded! giggles.....http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h6j_BAHaL1M&feature=mfu_in_order&list=UL

Lustful Night.
The night was cool,but yet hot as she walks Into the room.Her eyes glisten as the lights in the room caught them.Her smile had a come here slithery look to them.Her tongue gently sliding across her lips In a suggestive manner,my vocal cords speechless as I looked Into her eyes.my body unable to moved as I was caught In her stunning glare,she softly spoke in a soft voice sees something you like?My lips spoke back to her returning her question to her as my lips said yes.Her arm wrapped around my neck as her lips locked onto my.My tongue parting her lips as It made It's way Into her mouth.My hand gently made it way to the back of her head as It caressed her hair which was soft and silky.My other hand made it way to her neck as softly touched her flesh working It's way down to her shirt unbuttoning It from top to bottom exploring her curves to me and a nice silky red bra underneath that was soak from her passion.I moved my hand upward to her breasts freeing them form their prison that held

The Petals Of My Decadence.
The moment was pure.Like sheets of linen laid between maiden and ecstasy.No word was uttered.No clattering, or rending of garments.No thuds as knees fell to granite.It was there.It was not.Then the terrifying stillness came.The colors rained down a trickle.Sharp ran dull.And the terrifying stillness came.There was no choirno blast of the herald callno golden escalator ride on high oxygen and silky clouds of pastry.He was there.He is not.

Ne033x's Blind Date From Hell!!!
We've all been there - you show up for a blind date and expect Ashton Kutcher to come running out of a shitty looking van, telling you that "YOU GOT PUNKED!" From the minute I showed up at the restaurant, something just felt weird. Kinda like before an earthquake or tornado strikes. Still, a gentleman does not stand a lady up. I told myself to man up. It was just a date. I took my seat at the table, still trying to remember who she was. Evidently we'd met last night, but after about thirty shots of whiskey, I didn't remember shit. So, she calls this morning - sounded like a hottie on the phone, so when she asked me out, I said sure. I mean - come on - I did give her my number. She had to be a babe. But then she shows up, and as she walks toward my table, I am whispering to myself: "Please God don't let this be her! PLEASE!" It was her. Okay, have you ever ran over a deer in your car? Well, as she sat down, I had that whole deer staring at headlights look going on. A

You And Me
You and me, Together forever we will be; As long as there is Heaven and Hell, We will always be well; Every time I look into your eyes, I know my heart never lies; About the way my love for you is true, And for that love of you anything I would do; When I feel the sweet feel of your touch, It just makes me want you so much; Inside my arms, So I may protect you from all harms; Even when the world is over, Only one thing will still hover; And that thing will always be, The love between you and me.

All Of You
The sound of your voice is music to my ear So soft, sweet, and clear The kiss from your lips words can not explain It takes away my worries and my pain The caress of your hand sends shivers down my spine Everyday I thank God that your mine. The sight of your lovely face takes away all my fears You're the one I want to love through out the years For an eternity I want to spend in your arms Everyday graced by your beauty and your charms.

A Gentle Touch
A gentle brush of her fingers, Sending shivers down my spine. In the love I see in her eyes, Is a love that equals mine. She greets me with a smile, And leaves me with a kiss. If she were to ever leave me, I couldn't imagine what I'd miss. Maybe it's her touch, Or the way she makes me feel. But whatever it is, I'm head over heels.

Kerala The Crystal Clear Natural World For Complete Holiday Cruise
Kerala is an amazing natural world of serenity and beauty which makes it a perfect holiday hub for nature seekers across the globe. It is the most love state of enchanting picturesque tourist world nestled on the sea shores of Arabian Sea and Western Ghats. The appealing placid atmosphere entices every escaper to take its breathtaking expedition of this serendipity. You can look forward splendorous tour cruise with its houseboats and animal ride. Kerala tourism promises every single tour trekkers to embark in prestigious style of tour trips. Kerala tour offers numerous wanders of nature with can keep you alert and active. Houseboat cruise and elephant ride are some of the exhilarating mean with which you can always trust for enjoyable fun experience in this nature bounty tourist land of Kerala well rectify site for rejuvenating exile. Water attractions The backwaters and beaches remain the most adorable sites of water attraction. Like other water attracted tourist site it does not

Cherish Your Leisure Time With Andaman Nicobar Tour Packages
As everyone knows, situations and conditions are not always remain same but however they changes according time to time, a time comes when everyone gets stressed down with their hectic schedule of life and wish to go for vacations with their family and friends. Well if you are really pissed off with your hectic schedule of life and looking for an exotic holidaying destination where you can take your family and friends and spend some quality time together then look no further than Andaman and Nicobar a beautiful island populace in the Bay of Bengal tempts tourists from every nook and corner of the world all the year round. This stunning island land is a large group of nearly 600 islands, though they are part of India politically but very closer to Myanmar and Thailand than to the Indian mainland. Tropical greenery, lush green meadows, picturesque landscapes, pristine beaches and ranges of floras and faunas make this place one of the finest destination in the planet. Along with its hear

Dreaming, Thinking
You may be with her,Until death do you part,But that doesn't stop me,From thinking about you,And from dreaming about you.Dreaming of knowing your touch,Dreaming of knowing your kisses,And thinking if you are ever thinking of me,When you are with her,Or when you are not.It may not be fair of me to ask,But I wanna know,Your every thought,And your every dream.Won't you tell me,Even though it is death do you part.

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Welcome To The Magical Land Of Kerala For A Delightful Experience Of Lifetime
Located in the south western part of India, kerala, a wonderful creation of almighty, is the most famous for its fascinating destinations and attractions. This wonderful land is endowed with the sheer wonderments of nature which garbs the hearts of entire tourists who visit this wonderful state. Vacationers remain spell bound while exploring its exceptional natural beauty which easily tempts them to visit this place again and again. Due to its serene and scenic ambience, it has been listed as “One of the ten paradises of the world” and “50 must visit destination of lifetime”. The National Traveler Magazine has appreciated its natural beauty making it world famous and an ideal spot for enjoying an ultimate experience of lifetime. God has gifted this land with the unique geographical features and scintillating beauty which grab tourist’s attention. The astounding state in south India is speck

Not Facebook
This is not Facebook, I'll tell you what book! Slutbook? They need to call this Fuckbook. Picture lookin good, but in person. . . Yuckbook. Hellbook, Tellbook, bitches can't Spellbook. Hate behind your back, but in person wish you Wellbook. Glitchbook, Snitchbook, fake family Listbook. Posting on her page, this is trying to steal your Bitchbook. Rudebook, Feudbook, tell your every Movebook. Don't even need a t.v. this shit is Newsbook

Delhi Movers At Your Door For Secure Shifting
Whenever people plan to move at a new place the whole atmosphere gets tense as the task comes along with many difficulties. For this tough task people have to follow some planned procedure by which they can simplify their task of moving. But as people don’t have much idea about the relocation they can’t able to make their own move successful. If they get the success in planning the things then they surely face difficulty in implementing the proper task. As planning and implementation are two different aspects so it can be get done by experienced people only. To get rid from the stress and entire process one must take the help of removal companies. These companies not only take the accountability of the move but they also give assurance that they make their relocation safe and secure. These professional handle the entire task of relocation in such a way that it make their customers free from all worries. These companies use proper procedure to make the relocation easy and c

You Can't Change The Past - How Can You Call Yourself A Dad?
I love how you see posts that people can not accept the past. I recently read one that my ex husband posted how I can not accept the past. I got news for ya - I accepted the fact that you gave up all rights to your son in court, on paper, infront of a judge, and infront of God. I accepted that long ago. I never asked for a thing from you. I never got a dime from you for anything. I did it all on my own with no input or assistance from you at all. I never walked away - the thought never even crossed my mind. It seems now that you can not accept the past. You made your decision to forever rid yourself of the pleasure of knowing your child. And now that he is nearly a grown man, you can no longer live with yourself knowing that you have no clue who you son is. You want to accept your past already? Leave him be. He does not need your heart ache, your let-down, and any other ill feelings that you tend to cast in his direction. But just like always, I will be there to pick up the pieces onc

My Heartbreak
So, I am here. Writing about recent events that left me heartbroken and a little pissed-off. I met a woman in San Antonio, TX. She will remain anonymous, but has been on my mind since before Christmas. I know it's the new year, but I can't seem to get her off my mind. I recently spent about 5 days with her in her home and we made an instant connection...Hell, I'm not even sure why I'm writing this other than the fact that I need to vent. Most of my old friends are either in prison or dead, so it's a little hard for me to find an outlet for my frustration and such. If this is boring you to tears, then don't continue reading. I am by no means a writer or intellectual. So here's the deal. We actually spent 4 days together and had an amazing time untill the fourth day arrived. I had to go back to work and my job is driving OTR (Over-the-Road) Trucking. I pull a flatbed trailer. I was sent to Laredo, TX to make a pick up going to Kansas. Had to put tarps on it to protect it from the

November Day
From the time you were bornOn that November dayYou have lived in my heartForever there you will stayI have many great memories of youThose will never fadeYour smiles and laughterThe fun times we madeYou are my precious little girlThat i will forever treasureFor having a daugher like youThere is no greater pleasureLove You ShaelynnDaddy-O xoxoxo Written for my daughter Jan 20, 2012

First Time Masterbation
Ive been masturbating since i was 10 but i never really got any pleasure from it. So i went online and searched how to masturbate. I found this one article online that talked if u put your vibrating toothbrush on ur clit you'll get a ton a pleasure. So i waited till my mom left home. Locked my self in the bathroom and started watching some porn. I also found my old dove facial cleanser that was a shape of a penis. i started the toothbrush and put on my clit and stuck the dove cleanser turned it on in my vagina. Oh my god it was the best feeling feeling my pussy pulsate and i started pumping it in out while watching porn i started oragasiming and felt so goood. i cummed like 8 times until i felt numb mmmm the best feeling of my life.

"tunes From The Crypt" Fridays On Darkgiftradio.com
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Look
Rose’s ears twitched. Someone was in her neck of the forest. As soon as she looked back she was ambushed by warriors on firedrakes. She tried to run, but one of the warriors smashed a club against her head and knocked her out. She woke up naked. Chained to a wall. She and another kitsune healer named Yayoi were in the same situation. They were on opposite sides of the small room. There was a table between them about five feet from each of them. There were unmentionable objects on the table. “Are you ok?” Rose asked. “As long as he doesn’t come near me with that thing.” Yayoi said as she guided Rose’s glance down to a long, curved, metal shaft with small spikes at the top. It was about as tall as she was. “Do you think we can get out of here?” Rose asked struggling. “Only if someone unlocks us.” “Maybe we should ask nicely.” “That’s going to happen.” The door creaked open. They must h

Plz Chk Make Sure Ur Still In Fam - I Removed Most My Fam , Feel Free To Remove Me Im Not Into Ranking For Now
plz chk make sure ur still in fam - i removed most my fam , feel free to remove me im not into ranking for now

"" Look At This Shit Happen To Me On Yearbook And What I Did Back Funny Stuff :)
Becky Q: you ghastly ignorant and quite pathetic troll, get deleted again and stay off here! The Management! asked by Anonymous A: look """" 1 hour ago · Comment · Like · View Becky Leuallen /... 1 hour ago yearbook Management would you really be the kind to really write something like this ? Becky Leuallen /... 1 hour ago and then say "" Anonymous """ I don`t really think so "" they would`t have said Anonymous "" after saying management you dumb Ass ! they would have said Management again you dumb Ass !

Love
Just a moment ago I read a mumm about love. Interesting ideal behind it but not thought out well in my mind's eye. I think the word love is just said to be said cause its what we think our significant other wants to hear. Is love just a word these days or an actual true bona fide feeling that radiates deep down inside. Personally I sometimes love can be over rated and definitely unappreciated. I think love has been taken for granted for far too long. I challenge you to evaluate how you truly use the word love. Do you truly mean it or just saying it? The things that makes you go hhmm... Here I quote RedRose a dear friend from across the ways: "said too much ... for me, Love is when you cant fall asleep because your reality is finally better than your dreams ... and when I say it, I mean it with every essence of my being ..." I would have to agree with her in that concept and ideal but still just saying "I love you" just to be saying it becomes shallow and not significant afte

With Out You
I miss you when im without you. Without you i can't breathe because you take my heart with you. Being without you scares me. I cry at the thought of ever being without you. Without you the sun wouldnt shine The moon and the stars would all fade away. I never want to be without you because you are the first voice i wanna wake up to you are the last voice i want to fall asleep to every night. I just want to hold you in my arms and protect you. Every minute i have to go without you is like a minute if breathing you dont want to but you have to. I appreciate you and without you i dont know what else i would do. without you id be lost and trying to find my way into your arms so you could keep me safe.

Beware Of The Cheap Hustler!!!
Friends have warned me against using names in this blog saying fubar may delete me for telling the truth. Well if that happens then so be it!! But someone has to expose this fraud and con artist for being just what she is!! And you ladies on here need to read carefully too, because she is after you as well by pretending to be men on here!! I blogged on this about a month ago and nobody seemed to care about what this woman was doing to people on fubar. So I deleted the blog and decided to leave it alone. So todays subject will once again be 'Shannon Shaw Green' aka 'NotYoCherry' http://fubar.com/7199222 aka 'SouthrnQTee' http://fubar.com/6895379 aka 'Emmalee' aka 'Bellissima' aka 'Jennatillia' aka 'Jenakaye' aka 'Jaysonfear' & now calling it Maverick' http://fubar.com/djsmack aka 'itz jus me' http://www.fubar.com/3861454 .... and this list could go on and on!!!! For those who didn't see my previous blog on this woman, here is how I came to know what she does on fubar.I met

[the 90's]
So I'm still working on an all 90's mix.Shit that meant something to me when I was a teenagerPixies- Where is my mind (obvious anthem)Mazzy Star- Fade into you, Into dust (This is about nothing)Butthole Surfers- Pepper (this is about HIV)Toadies- Possum Kingdom (my sex life)Local H- Bound for the floor (my social life) Everclear- Santa Monica (a breakup or two)Poe- Angry Johnny (for blowjobs)STP- Interstate love song, Crackerman (this is about gravel, and because purple isn't blue)Beck- Got no mind, True love will find you, Some things last a long time (Beck has done some remixes, redux that no one hears, and they're fucking amazing)The Flys- Got you where I want you (because I never change the station when this comes on)Primus- John the fisherman (Primus sucks!)Cake- Friend is a four letter word, I will survive, Satan is my motor (assholes)Oasis- Wonderwall, Champagne Supernova (the drugs I should've done), Don't look back in anger (frenemies)Gomez- Get myself arrested, Get Miles, De

Poop Styles...
have you ever pooped and wondered why it looks like that or how did it get there? Well, I am here to inform you that you can no longer be confused! Here is the list of the types of dodo that you might find informative: Ghost Poopie The kind where you feel the Poopie come out, but there's no poopie in the toilet. Clean Poopie The kind where you poopie it out, see it in the toilet, but there is nothing on the toilet paper. Wet Poopie The kind where you wipe your butt fifty times and it still feels unwiped, so you have to put some toilet paper between your butt and your underwear so you don't runie them with a stain. Second Wave Poopie The kind that happens when you're done poopie-ing and you've pulled your pants up to your knees, and you realize you have to poopie some more. Turtle Poopie The kind of poopie that pops out a little and goes back in a few times before it finallly comes out Pop-a-Vein-in-your-Forehead-Poopie The kind where you strain so much to get it out, you pr

Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
fuckfuckfuckfuck...................i musta been an evil person in a former life to be have this shit thrown at me.......day in day out jesus fukkin wept when do i get a bit of good luck?????????...............

Broken And Used
Broken and used.... I have trusted and been abused. Kindness and love I showed and all I asked was for honesty and love in return. I am broken, how to trust again......... Friend? What you are doing is not a friend but Foe. Shank me in the back twist the knife in deep. Keep me remembering the pain, the lies of love and how they cut and ever so deep. Your family wins you sit there with a grin, I played the fool and with just cause. Playing games that need not be played if you did not want me all you had to do is say. I am use to open rejection, flat out no's but this dealy game you have played with my heart for now I am bitter this day. Did you have fun with this sport? Where you amused to find all my suffering the highlight of your days. What the hell did I do to bring the darkness out of you. All the days you were ill, the heart attack you were to of had, were they true? Did I waste prayers and energies on helping the healing process on you? What the hell did I do to cau

Ugh..
This is enough to make me feel like shit. I have it on my profile that I won't accept friend requests from people without a salute. Doesn't matter who it is. What do I get? A request from someone with no salute. What does it say???? "I can't buy you bling, but I'd make a great friend". Denying that made me feel like shit. Like I'm only here for the bling =/

To Honour The Self Is....
To live authentically,to speak and act from our innermost convictions and feeling. To refuse to accept unearned guilt and to do our best to correct such guilt as we may have earned. To be commited to our right to exist,which proceeds from the knowledge that our life does not belong to others and that we are not here on earth to live up to someone else's expectations. To be in love with our own life, in love with our possibilities for growth and for experiencing joy, in love with the process of discovery and with exploring our distinctively human potentialities.

Explore The Unending Glorious Snow Cap Beauties Of Himachal Pradesh
Himachal Pradesh is one and the only state which offer numerous striking siblings which are now listed as the most fascinating tourist destinations of India. The places like Kullu, Manali and Shimla have even earned international popularity for its outstanding tourist appealing nature of the site. Shimla is the capital city which is recorded to be one of the most frequented tourist sites of Himachal Pradesh. The state offers unending natural beauty and appealing climate quite favorable for holiday escape and leisure spending. The places like the Rohtang Pass, Chamba, Kangra, Munnar, Shimla and Kullu are some of the most frequented tourist fan sites of the state. Himachal tour packages give you an opportunity to experience the fascinating sites in a unique and fulfilling manner. Book for it and plan for an exhilarating holiday trip in its amazing snow caped wonders. Rohtang Pass You must have heard of it quite often about this famous pass in different tour packages related to Himacha

If You Like Spicy
Recipie from 6titilate9 from Evony age 1 game tears of joy roast chicken:base sauce is southcaorlina bbq sauce. 1 cup add to that 2 tbsp chilli powder.1tbsp cyanne peppertsp rosmary (fresh is best.)3 cloves garliclotsa peppersome cajun spiceroll half onion in the sauce and stuff it in the birdand douse the bird in the rest of the saucewrap in foil and roat the b1tch on 350 for 1.5hrs

Cat Sitting Is What Makes Your Kitty Happy
Pets in general can’t take care of themselves independently for an extended time. This is why you need to think of alternative arrangements when you are away for a long time. You can’t really leave your precious kitty on their own nor is it feasible for you to take them with you wherever you go. Not only is it going to be expensive but it is also going to be very traumatic for your pet. Reasons to Select a Cat Sitter for Your Kitty 1. In a different environment, cats can get a bit tense and stressed out when they are not comfortable. If they are in a different place it will take them a long time to adjust to a new scenario. 2. Even though you are away, familiar sights, sounds and even the same routine is going to make your cat feel secure and happy. 3. Only a cat sitter can give your sweet babies the best service there is to find. These are professional people who will do everything they should to give your cat a healthy and happy time when you are away. 4. In cas

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Free
The Idea of the internet was suppose to be an exchange of information.which is a major playing card for wars and politics.If they are allowed to censor the internet or stop online piracy as it were; would just make others figure out away to get around and close there speech from being heard. The same thing can be said with water, food, or fuel which is a major playing card for wars and politics.For example If the most advanced technological scientists in the world decided to make cold fusion mainstream ANY and ALL corrupt government would try they hardest to either buy out shut down or destroy this. Why would "our" leaders want to destroy something that would make this world easier safer and a peaceful place to live and thrive? Its the Idea of control, everything I have learned about any type of entity is if you give it the chance to control you it will.There is no such thing as control, there is only the illusion of control. I would back you knowing that you thrive on the common knowl

My Most Famous Adventure Story
I wrote this story during the Iranian hostage crisis. We were heading home after eight months at sea. But when they took the hostages we went five months at sea without a single port visit. We had the longest peace time sea duty in US history. And then President Jimmy Carter flew beer out to us to say thanks. Since there are not a hell of a lot of recreational facilities at sea, I wrote this story to keep my sanity. As a result, this just may be the most unusual adventure story ever written. Anyway, you can read it for free on Yahoo Voices, where it is now published by clicking here.

Youtube User Stealing Pics
so as im browsing youtube tonight at the bottom of a nicki minaj video i see this link with a familiar face on it and click it. Welll this person has taken quite a few pics off of fubar to solicite porn sites. so far who i've seen are Hard2Handle DoukaWhore Misfit Bebe EuphoriaJade Juicy (not sure what she goes by now) Lola (also unsure what name she is now) here is the link...not sure what you can do about it but just a heads up. http://www.youtube.com/user/ForNiceFunClickMePlz#p/u

This Annoys Me
Ok...so this has been bothering me for a few days..ive had someone freak out on me cuz of a married guy being my number one...and he wasnt..so ive had to delete and block him cuz he was allo jealous..does it really matter whos number 1 or number 40...if you make it into a family on fu then be thankful...right? FFS what does it matter whos where? I dont get it...and then i call him out on it and then he says well since you put it that way its fine...WTF tardo you made it a big deal and freaked out about it for a couple weeks and now all of a sudden its not an issue??? seriously some people people have issues....damn

The Beauty Of A Bbw!
THE BEAUTY OF A BBW by Adham El Kbear Adham She’s a Big Beautiful Woman, Blessed with a pretty smile and full lips. She wears sexy attire, Fully aware how men admire her full hips. She doesn’t need to purchase push up bras, To enhance her cleavage and bust size. She doesn’t aspire to be thin, Because men secretly desire her plus-size. She may not have the shape of a figure eight, But she has a positive mind state. She’s a bountiful and confident BBW, And her beauty is not defined by her weight. She’s a beautiful, bodacious BBW, Notice the confidence she exudes. She doesn’t need to undergo liposuction or weight reduction to have a positive attitude She realizes that BBWs are the quintessence of feminine pulchritude! There is a feminine quality that big beautiful women possess Men quickly become obsessedwith her ample booty and breast Her seductive smile Sense of style Leaves all who meet her impressed the contour of her curves underneath her dress re

This Is Me!
I'm not hot or gorgeous. I don't have an amazing figure or a flat stomach. I'm far from being considered a model but I'm me. I eat food, I have curves, I have more fat than I should. I have scars, inside and out, I have a history. Some people love me, some like me, some hate me. I have done good and I have done bad. I love my pjs, I go without makeup and don't always get my hair or nails done. I'm random and crazy. I don't pretend to be someone I'm not. I am who I am, you can love me or not. I won't change!! And if I love you, I do it with ALL my heart!! I make no apologies for the way I am!

Totally In Love
For so long I looked and searched for that special someone, Always ending up hurt, lost and confused. I learned to not regret anything, So I take it all and learn from my mistakes. Well at least I thought I was learning. Only to find out that I was making the same mistake over and over again. Its when I've decided to just stop looking and almost give up That I find the one that can brighten up my day, Can put a smile on my face when I am feeling down. That doesnt want anything from me but to love them, Just as much as they love me. That one that makes me feel like the Queen that my Heavenly Father said I am. That one that makes all problems seem to disappear whenever I hear their voice. Always encouraging me to be a better mom, a better woman and overall A BETTER PERSON! Love can be a tricky thing and can come at totally unexpected times,

Raise Your Weapon
Rippin' my heart was so easy, so easy, launch your assault now, take it easy. Raise your weapon, raise your weapon, one word and it's over. rippin' through like a missile, rippin' through my heart, rob me of this love. Raise your weapon, raise your weapon... And it's over. Love your ego, you won't feel a thing, always number one, the pen with a bent wrist crooked king, sign away our peace, for your war, one word and it's over. Dropping your bombs now, on all we've built, how does it feel now to watch it burn, burn, burn? Raise your weapons, raise your weapons... And it's over. Rippin' my heart was so easy, so easy, launch your assault now, take it easy. Raise your weapon, raise your weapon, one word and it's over. Rippin' through like a missile, rippin' through my heart, rob me of this love. Raise your weapon, raise your weapon... And it's over. How does it feel now to watch it burn, burn, burn?

Update
Things are at a stand still, fighting to stay out of the hospital each day.. My blood pressure is very low and we get it slightly up one day then back down again :( Hopefully next week will go better.. on a good note my hair is coming back slowly, I hav a few stubs but it looks like the new hair is blonde hmmm... I will be back stronger then ever and take this place by storm.

Janey Godley’s Podcast Episode 80
(Please be aware that this Podcast Contains strong language) In episode 80 of Janey Godley’s podcast the chatty duo talk about old family photographs they found and the ever changing look of Janey’s bushy hair throughout the decades. Ashley gives us her opinion on breast implants, shoplifting celebrities and broke toe bones. Janey and Ashley laugh their way through memories of funerals past and present and Janey asks the podcast questions. Celebrity Big Brother gets a roundup and the ladies give their opinions on the latest episode. Mother and Daughter comedy team get to natter and the world gets to hear it on Janey Godley’s podcasts, expect some bawdy language and home truths, as Janey Godley and Ashley Storrie lead you down the roads less taken in their fantastic weekly podcast. Listen as mother and daughter banter, bait and burst with laughter. Janey Godley Podcast at: Episode 80 You can check out all our videos on YouTube. Order “

1-19-12
Yesterday turned out pretty shitty. I don’t really want to go into details, and in the big picture it’s all sort of unimportant. It’s just one of those “Why can’t things be simple?” kind of things. I just could use a hug. I don’t like feeling vulnerable. I refuse to show it most of the time…and then it twists to anger. And then you get to the point where you just want to tell everyone everything that is wrong with them. And you just need to get away from all that is fucked up in life. And you can’t. It’s life. So I write this. And I ask the only people I don’t mind being vulnerable in front of for a hug…the people that sometimes read this stuff. The faces on the other side of the screen that I’ve grown to know and trust and isn’t that just so fucked up that I can’t express that to the people around me. And isn’t it fucked up that if I tried I doubt they’d understand, because

Darn It!
Well, I'm not going to be able to get Blake {my grandson} this weekend. *MAJOR sad face*. He is fine, but as most of you know my mother lives with me and she has pneumonia with a fever. We don't want to take a chance with Blake. So far we have been EXTREMELY lucky in avoiding hospital stays with him. I have to admit that I am feeling guilty because secretly I am greedy and want him here. It's been a few weeks, which is a few weeks too long. Bad daughter, I know. *another MAJOR sad face* /end vent

Patriots ( A Special Memory With My Son)
Ok This is my first Blog and have to tell you about my passion for the beloved Patriots. The first game I ever took my son to was the AFC championship Vs. the Colts. The look on my sons face when he first walked through the archways to Gilette Stadium was priceles. The tickets were gifted to me from a client that chose not to attend because of the bitter cold, so of course I'd take them as a gratuity. That day was rough, I threw a birthday party for my ex the night before and rented a restraunt for her and her daughter turning 21 on that day. I drove 2 hours to my ex wifes house at 5:30 AM, drove another two hours to Gilette Stadium for the game of a lifetime. I thank the Patriots that year for making my memory special with my son! Please bring that moment back on Sunday and win the AFC Championship! My son is now 20, and he has his own life now....but I will never forget that day................Never

Top 20 Ways To Annoy People
1. Sing the Batman theme incessantly. 2. In the memo field of all your checks, write "for sensual massage." 3. Specify that your drive-through order is "to go." 4. Leave the copy machine set to reduce 200%, extra dark, 17 inch paper, 98 copies. 5. Sniffle incessantly. 6. Name your dog "Dog. 7. Reply to everything someone says with "that's what YOU think." 8. Declare your apartment an independent nation, and sue your neighbors upstairs for "violating your airspace". 9. Forget the punchline to a long joke, but assure the listener it was a "real hoot." 10. Follow a few paces behind someone, spraying everything they touch with Lysol 11.Erect an elaborate network of ropes in your backyard, and tell the neighbors you are a "spider person." 12. Finish all your sentences with the words "in accordance with the prophesy." 13. Drum on every available surface. 14. Staple papers in the middle of the page. 15. Ask 1-800 operators for dates. 16. Set alarms for random ti

Not Just A Pretty Face
So tired of all these people (guys and girls alike) who don't appreciate a truly good woman... They see a pretty face and smile and a body that makes them drool, and they never stop to think or realize that underneath that surface image there exists a person who has feelings and emotions... a person who is real and true and not hiding behind a facade like the rest of the world. I find my looks to be a gift... not to be exploited as though I were just another Whore or Slut or Tramp or whatver else yu feel the need to think of me. I am not here to be admired or wanted for my looks... If someone can't accept me for who I am and is only out there looking for their next lay, they are definitely looking in the wrong place!!! So if all yu see is a pretty face and it gets yur little dick hard or yur pussy wet... Get to stepp'n and kick rocks!!

Lucidity
Someday I'll shed this layer of my past Giving in to what life could be Instead of facing the regret it never was Our existence is so short lived So lets start living for today My shameful secrets I cannot control But I've acknowledged they are here Watch me push them down Back into the darkness of deceit And even though it happened It doesn't make me who I am What defines you? For me it's the struggles Cause through them I've learned lessons and without them I'd be lost Consumed by my deviations I refuse to give in So we press on in this reality called life Is it a sweet dream or nightmare? Only you can decide

Some Facts About Me.
I'm not the kind of girl that does things with strangers. I don't share photos on Yahoo because I have way too many photos and to find them would take a long time, lol. I do not have a webcam. I use Yahoo nearly every night. I do not meet people in real life. I don't do the whole "long distance" relationship thing. I'm not on here to find a boyfriend/girlfriend. I'm stubborn so good luck changing my mind. It'll never happen. I'm adorable so get over it :P I love drawing and yes some of my artwork is online on DeviantArt. More to come later.

Fuck You Female Emotional Attachment
My heart, head, and lady parts are all at war. My FWB situation is becoming more complicated and i fear a messy end. He tells me not to become too attached but I tell him it's too late. If I no longer were able to see him I would be extremely sad. He tells me not to fall in love with him but my heart belongs to my husband still so that danger isn't as high...but it's the pillow talk that has me at war....in the warm delicious afterglow of the beautifully filthy things we do, he holds me close and tells me what a good girl I am and how much he enjoys me. This affection of course is like a sweet drug to my already endorphin filled brain as he holds me close, his warm flesh pressed against mine, an idiot smile plastered across my face as I swim in his every seductive word....then when it's time for him to go he does so so abruptly...and short hug and kiss and out the door he goes leaving me feeling confused and slightly silly for investing too much stock in the pillow talk....I am very mu

Some Bs
The end of the Internet as we know it may be right around the corner — but not if the Mozilla Foundation has anything to say about it. The maker of Firefox, a non-profit organization, haslaunched a campaign to help block the passage of both the ‘Stop Online Piracy Act’ (SOPA) and the ‘Protect IP Act’ (PIPA), each of which may soon go up for a vote in Congress. Those who join the campaign are asked to call their senators and representatives and express their ardent opposition to these bills by this Tuesday. why is the music and entertainment industry complaining, theres maybe one movie out of how many thats good, one song our of 20 tracks that you can listen to and then they charger so much money to go see a movie in a theater or buy their music even if you downloded. They should be happy that we are fans enough to listen and watch...its just not enough money for these ppl. when is enough money enough for them? Now they are taking it out on us and

Don`t Mean To Sound Crul But Want Someone To Care More Then Sex & Go " ! "
if i`m not worth meeting in person, and taken to a nice dinner or some place nice out of my apt, because i`m already stuck here 24/7 , then it`s not worth it to me ! to be more then just friends on here, don`t mean to sound crul but want someone to care more then just sex & go.

Twelve Benefits Of Tantric Sex Practices
Devoting yourself to any practice has to have payoffs. There are many dividends from investing time and energy into tantric sex. Tantric sex practices can help you achieve the following: 1. Expand your possibilities for love. Tantric sex shows you how to deepen the physical and spiritual connection with your partner, and nurture and love yourself. 2. Rejuvenate your health. Practicing tantric sex has physiological and psychological effects that maintain—and regain—health. For example, breathing techniques bring more air into the body, nourishing the tissues and muscles. Research has shown a link between the effects of relaxation, meditation, and spirituality and better physical and emotional health. People who are spiritual have lower blood pressure, lower levels of anxiety and depression, more stable hormone levels, and better functioning immune systems. 3. Tap into the fountain of youth. For all the health benefits mentioned pre

Romantic
I'm not a romantic; you say it seems; Let me tell you a little about me; I ride center line on my Harley Queen; chase the sun down through Heaven's gleam; I wear my hair out long, my face grown mean; Cowhide boots and boot cut jeans; Don two layers of leather in any type of weather; My chains weigh me down but they keep me together; So now you tell me what romantic means; I'd ride to Hell and back just to keep my dreams

Vampire Love
A sexy story Lustful Vampyr Night I am on the hunt tonight not for my hunger for blood. I am hunger for passion and lustfulment this night. I spot my prey for the evening an extremely gorgeous woman fair skinned hair as black as night and eyes or emerald green.I a spot her from across the room in a large crowd in a ballroom. I glid smoothly through the crowd on my way to introduce myself. AS I approach her I begin to grow slighty faint. I have seen gorgeous women before but no mortal woman has ever done that to me before. I introduce myself to this woman of magnificent beauty. I am Dredric and your name my lady as I kiss her hand. She looks deep into my eyes almost paralizing me with her beauty. She said my lord my name is Litith. Amost amazing name for an amazing beauty. She smiles and blushes and bows her head as if she was trying to hide something. We continue the cnversation to the wee hours of the the costume to ball. As the festives end I ask her if she would like to stay

Mumms
Why is it some people get so rude and nasty with their comments on your Mumms, Because they Think they are stupid and then they post the same kind of Mumms Am I the only one that is thinking people need to grow up and act their age.. It you don't like the Mumm don't answer it..

Fukkit
Dear Diary......i hate life......so close to havin my own flat then discover i need £230 to apply for it.....so close yet so far away dammit......tomorrow ill go stand with the druggies n lowlifes n see what help i can get cos if i dont get sumwhere soon im gonna go insane......chin up ....no crying.....shit failed........

Easier Than Writing It A Thousand Times...
Please..no sympathy...I am not like that...but imma need a few moments to collect myself and gather my thoughts. Lost one of my closest rl friends...a great man..whom did everything he could for anyone.... http://www.wtov9.com/news/news/man-collapses-police-station-hours-dying-reported-/nGThY/

Piece Of Trash #1
This blog has been sitting in the back of my mind for a while. I normally do not call people out on their bullshit directly, but I just really can't hold back anymore. Honestly sick and tired of this persons bullshit antics on here. I truly do not understand how any of you are friends, crush or like her everyday. She simply uses people for their money, bling or to get her sleazy ass ahead and then when finished tosses them in the dirt. When people figure out her little bullshit schemes and toss her first..she cry’s poor me. Fuck that noise. You do this to yourself. You go through friends, family and fu-hubbys like people do toilet paper..except even shit is better then you are. I do not like people who use others. I fucking hate liars and game players. Not long ago she felt the need to tell a 12 year old girl that she was a fucking whore to the world on face book. I called her on this bullshit..right here on Fubar. Showed everyone her true colors. I found it amusing how she tol

Sb
I know some of you guys have been sending me SB messages, but now is not a good time. My sister was in a car accident, and I'm spending a lot of time at the hospital. I have read all your messages though. If you don't get a reply, it's not because I'm ignoring you, I'm just busy with real life. If you get pissed off because I didn't answer your SB, well then maybe you need to get a real life. I know that probably sounded a little harsh, but I am going to be at the hospital some, and I hate hospitals.

Your Quest To Purchase Turquoise Jewelry –
Turquoise happens to be one of the most lovely and enticing gems in the market. The color and the texture of the stone is indeed mind blowing, making this a must have for so many people. To look elegant, timeless, classy and sophisticated, nothing is going to work as well as Turquoise Jewelry, as this stone itself is a timeless piece of beauty that is the best as far as semi precious stones go. This happens to be one piece of jewelry that doesn’t just look great but it is pretty affordable too. Think about it nothing could scream romance more than a turquoise ring for your loved one. As you are on your quest to select the best jewelry for your loved one, we have some tips to purchase and find that perfect turquoise jewelry for your better half. Handy tips to buy your favorite jewel – The first thing you can do is to make sure that you select your budget. This is surely going to narrow down your search whether it is on the web or in your jewelry store. Next keep in mind

Valentine's Kisses
VALENTINE'S KISSES HOW TO PLAY: members purchase "kisses" for other members. Each kiss is 1 credit. The man and woman with the most kisses will receive prizes. 1st Place (male & female): God Mode, Rockstar, HappyHour **These may or may not be the prizes given. There must be a significant amount of credits to accommodate the prizes** RULES: members may NOT buy kisses for themselves do NOT buy kisses for me. I can't win. all kisses are anonymous. I'm not going to tell you who sent your kiss any drama or attempts to cheat will result in disqualification updated kisses will be sent once a day (midnight PST) HOW TO ORDER: go into the bling shop and BUY CREDITS FOR SOMEONE ELSE. Select my profile and send credits. In the big white box (where you leave a comment) please paste a link to the person you are buying for along with their USER ID number. I will send confirmation of receipt in the order I receive them. Kisses will be delivered via message, comment, or friend reque

Kerala Tour Packages – Affordable And Surprises Carefully Packed
Kerala resplendent beauty magnetizes thousands and hundreds of tourists round the year. It is no doubt a beautiful state with so many picturesque sightseeing spots, tranquil atmosphere, fascinating sightseeing and more importantly the weather conditions is favourable that allows tourists to enjoy and visit any tourists place with much ease and joy. Kerala has good number of picturesque sightseeing spots and destinations. All are enigmatically blessed by the nature among which the most sought after are Munnar the Kashmir of the South, Alleppey the Venice of the East, Cochin the Queen of the Arabian Sea, Kumarakom, Kasargod, Kollam, Kuttanad, etc are some of the few places that you will love to visit during Kerala tours. Well in order to make the travel and tours in Kerala much more enjoyable and delightful, several travel and tour operators have come into the picture. They are trying hard to provide all the facilities as well as to let the tourist

Global Accelerated Growth With .net Development
Today the one thing that we do know about computer and technology is that software is really as important as hardware. Across different platforms this is the one framework that has been consistent and has improvised a lot over time. .net development was designed originally to resemble JavaScript as was suppose to handle data integration, security, programming, and other things in the same way. This is why many people often compare and the features are sometime confused between the .net web development and Java. However, overtime it has been proved that Microsoft has indeed bought about a magnificent framework that has a ton of advantages and it is fully equipped for handling sophisticated requirements and needs. How .net proves to be better than the others? The basic purpose of such a device is to make sure that they are used in order to make sure that when it comes to creating dynamic web pages, application, graphic design, services, etc, developers don’t have to use cumbersom

Love Is Pretty Much What Makes Life More Meaningful :)
Im Dorky and Corny by the way. I like it that way! 1-18-12 "I do my thing, and you do your thing. I am not in this world to live up to your expectations, and you are not in this world to live up to mine. You are you, and I am I, and if by chance we find each other, it's beautiful." It's difficult to find someone like you; it's like opening a hundred shells under the sea to find one pearl. But finding you makes the dive worth it. Your eyes aren't just beautiful, they are a gateway to a world that I want to be part of. 1-22-12 Love is a state of mind. Once its in your mind, it can drive you crazy over the person who does not care about you. Must regain your sanity or else you will suffer. (didnt write it, but good one for today haha)

Thoughts For Resolutions In The New Year
Do not undermine your worth by comparing yourself with others. It is because we are different that each of us is special. Do not set goals by what other people deem are important. Only you know what is best for you. Do not take for granted the things closest to your heart. Cling to tghem as you would life, for without them, life is meaningless. Do not let life slip through your fingers by living in the past or for the future. By living life one day at a time, you live all the days of your life. Do not give up when you still have something to give. Nothing is really over until the moment you stop trying. It is a fragile thread that binds us to each other. Do not be afraid to encounter risks. It is by taking chances that we learn to be brave. Do not shut love out of your life by saying it is impossible to find. The quickest way to receive love is to give it. The fastest way to lose love is to hold it too tightly. Do not dismiss your dreams. To be without dreams is to be without

The Real Entity Case From Ghost Theory
The following is a two part article in which Dr. Barry Taff and myself wrote with fresh insight from his original investigation of the case in 1974 and some new information that will be available in my upcoming book. This is an update to the Doris Bither story , or as it’s more commonly known, “The Entity” case.Part IWritten By Dr. Barry TaffContrary to what many people believe, the case of Doris Bither, that later became the novel and motion picture The Entity, was not, in my professional opinion, the result of spectral rape, .a.k.a. spectrophilia, but a rather disturbingly real poltergeist outbreak. Unfortunately, the amassed data on the case does not in any way support ghostly sex, but back in the mid-1970′s in my mid-20′s, such a notion was intriguing to say the least.The passage of almost four decades and the experience of thousands of more cases, have provided this author with a rather unique perspective regarding such experiences and claims. Remembe

Family
I spend my time in my room. My computer is there, as is a tv, the only things I dont have are a refridgerator and microwave. T says forget it. For that matter, so does G. We dont have face to face conversations. Each of us has a computer and we Yahoo each other, rather than walk to another room. It makes things easier. Kinda. We do eat dinner together, which is nice, and we usually smoke a cig together before we do clean up and what ever else needs done. Here is the problem. They complain about me isolating. The truth of the matter is that we all isolate. G and M shut their door most of the day, T DJ's on fubar any chance she gets. The dogs even isoolate, although they are usually at least two of them together, they still prefer their own company than us, UNLESS it is feeding time, or bed time. Four of the dogs sleep sleep with t, and buddy sometimes sleeps with me, which means he gets most of my pillows. It really isnt that bad. I come out of my room wh

Wednesday Update
Had my weekly Wednesday visit with Trish today. She looked tired to me, but good. I watched them as they did therapy with her it all seems to being good. When she gets up out of the wheel chair you can see the pain on her face, but she is determine to start using the crouches more so she can get out of there. These blogs will be getting less and less, will only write if there is something new to report. I think everyone is getting tired it seems forever she been in the hospital, a few months now at least. She wants to come hone, her daughter wants her mom back, and I oh so want my own bed back lol Congratulation to Trish and Dave on their Fu- marriage Beth

My Wonderful Friends
I've seen a bunch of comments lately about friends not having many fubucks. I know several people helped me out when I was gunning for spotlight, but now that I leveled when the took the requirement away it seems I'll never be allowed to bid for it. If anyone needs or wants, or know someone who deserves some, let me know about how many you'd like. I have lots.

1-18-12
Coffee. Need moar coffee. Why’s the coffee all gone? You drank it. That’s no excuse. Go get moar. It’s cold out there. Pansy. Coming into work early is interesting. There is NOTHING to do. Except try and stay awake. And failing…which is why I’m here typing. This is going to be one of those whatever pops into my head things. I should listen to the iPod, but I think that just may make me sleepier. Chivalry is dead…at least on cruise ships. It’s amazing what you can make people believe if you know what they’re afraid of. Just think of what you’re afraid of…and what you’d be willing to do if someone could make that go away. What you’d be willing to take away from someone else to make the scary go away. That should be the definition of religion. Speaking of which, I think people should question their sexuality more often. It really shouldn’t matter. Love is love, sex is sex, and they are not mutual

Death
why is it that i cant seem to get over my bfs brothers death? i keep having dreams that hes not dead it wasnt him in the house i just cant quit thinking that hes not dead. i see his pictures and i get really sad i see all his certificates from classes hes finished and i cry and wonder why he had to do what he did i mean he was such a good guy everyone loved him he was like my big brother thats how he treated me like a little sister i miss him so much he didnt deserve to die he really didnt he thought his life was crap but he didnt see past the point that he has family that loved him i want to call him he was my buddy my texting buddy id always do stuff to cheer him up if he was down and he always did the same for me i miss him so much he wasnt even my family but i guess i was that close to him that it hurts bad when i see pics of him and his stuff.

Loved Ones
I'm not sure how many of you will remember Jeremy. http://fubar.com/4950734 (His first profile was deleted) He use to hang out in the MuMMs a couple of years ago, which is how I met him. We became fast friends and after just a little while, we exchanged phone numbers. The first night that we talked on the phone, hours had gone by and we didn't even realize it. He was such an easy person to talk to. We never had that awkward silence feeling. He was a great artist, an excellent guitar player and very intelligent. I felt such a great connection with him. We could talk to each other about anything, which we did often. I was able to confide in him about things I was dealing with and I could trust that he would always be upfront with me, even when that meant saying something to me that I didn't hear. He was always there for me when I needed to cry, to vent or to just yell at someone. He always managed to make me smile or laugh. He shared so much with me about his life and th

Why Do I Delete?
People always ask my why I always delete my profile...you always come back. The answer is never as simple as the question. The most honest response I can give is that after awhile FUBAR makes me sick, it makes me hate myself, it takes all my worst qualities and amplifies them to a point where I cannot ignore them. I believe it is that point when I realize my ego (ego does not exist but it is a good descriptive term) is growing out of control, or my lust is consuming me, I just delete my profile thinking that will solve the problem. Well if I have learned anything about addiction (and yes fubar is an addiction for many even if you are addicted to yourself) running away does not solve the problem. Fubar does bring out the worst in most people for a variety of reasons. The entire game is made to bring out the worst in people, envy, lust, jealousy and the hilarity of it all is the harder you play the more you lose, money, real relationships and friendships. Obviously this is not the cas

Falling
Falling is all around me I can not stop it dark alone Falling is all around me I can not see you want you need you Falling is all around me I cry no one is here to find my tears Falling is all around me in the dark... I hold you dear to me so you are my only friend Falling Falling... is all around me

Help Save The Oompa Loompas!
Ok, So, Baby Roxan is in Pre School! For those of you who know the story realize exactly what kind of accomplishment this is! So her first school Fundraiser is HUGE for us as a family. For a child that was never supposed to make it to be IN SCHOOL and thriving makes the thought of chocolate from her oh so much sweeter :-) If any of you don't know about my daughter, feel free to ask. It is an amazing story! With that said... GO BUY SOME CHOCOLATE!!! Contact me if you place an order so I can give you details on delivery etc.etc. Thanks! AJ aka PEZ aka Unique Dream Hi, We're getting ready for our George Robinson Center Fundraiser and we are looking for your support! We’ve just kicked off our fundraiser through Gertrude Hawk Chocolates and we are offering a variety of delicious chocolates and gifts! A website has been setup specifically for George Robinson Center fundraising campaign. All purchases made on that site will be credited toward me and all proceeds wil

What Makes A Good Tune?
i hear make and am send alot of music some great some bad.but i think there is alot of confusion of what actually makes a good tune.for me its when u can feel someone in a tune what does it for u?

Made In America/jobs
You want JOBS ... Buy American ... simple as that !!!! eg. i bought a hammer (made in China) it broke before i could pound one Nail ....Qantity I Got a Hammer I've had for 20 plus years(made in America) ......Quality Imports =polution /garbage .... Exports =Jobs=Quality We're wasting money on Shit that ends up in landfills and takes jobs away!!!

Questions No One Has The Answer To
Okay, here are questions that nobody has given me a good answer to. For instance, a pair of jeans or pants is ONE clothing item, not two, so why is it a pair? The same is true for glasses, panties, panty hose, jocky shorts and boxer shorts A pair of socks are two items, which is the definition of pair. So, why the hell is a bra considered a single item? It holds two tits.

In Your Arms
THERE's A PLACE FAR FROM ME FOR THE MOMENT BUT COMMING CLOSE IN SOME DAYS IT's CALLED HEAVEN FOR ME IT IS A LIVING PLACE SOMEWHERE UNDER THE EQUALING RING WHEN I WALK TO THAT PLACE AT THAT SPECIAL DAY I WALK INTO YOUR ARMS MY HEAVEN THAT's WHERE I ALWAYS WANT TO BE TO FEEL YOU SO CLOSE TO HAVE YOU FOR ME I KNOW YOU WILL BE ON HIGH HEELS AS YOU WANT TO REACH MY LIPS SO EASY AND YOU GET A REAL NICE ONE A KISS WE HAVE BEEN LONGING FAR SO MUCH AND NOT ONLY THAT THE PRESENCE OF EACH SO CLOSE IT's FOOLING DAY TODAY 01 OF APRIL BUT NOT FOR ME I'm NOT IN THE MOOD TO FOOL SOMEBODY NOW THAT's WHY NO JOKES MY HEART FEELS SO WARMTH WHEN I SEE YOU SO HAPPY LATELY AND I KNOW WHY MY LOVE YOU ARE ALSO COUNTING DOWN TILL THE DAY I LEAVE HERE ON MY WAY TO YOU GONNA BE A LONG TRIP BUT I WILL DO IT WITH SO MUCH JOY AS I KNOW AT THE END THE ONE I LOVE SO MUCH WILL BE WAITING FOR ME I CAN't TELL YOU HOW MANY TIMES I WILL LOOK OUT OF THE WINDOW AND AT MY WATCH TO SEE

There's No Minute
THERE's NO MINUTE YOU DON't THINK AT ME THERE's NO SECOND YOU'll GET OUT OF MY MIND THERE's NO MOMENT IN THE FUTURE THEY WILL SEPERATED US THERE's NO TIME I WILL LEAVE YA SIDE AS THERE WILL BE ALWAYS A MINUTE WE THINK AT THE PAST THERE WILL BE ALWAYS A MOMENT WE TALK ABOUT THE FUTURE THERE WILL BE ALL DAYS WE WILL SHARE ALL AS THERE's NO MINUTE WE CAN't THINK ABOUT A LIVE WITHOUT EACH OTHER THERE's NO SECOND WE EVER THINK ABOUT BEING APART BECAUSE WE BELONG TO EACH OTHER WE ARE ONE EVEN IN TWO BODIES BUT YOU HAVE MY HEART AND I HAVE YOURS SO WE ARE TOGETHER FOR THE REST OF OUR LIVES AND ONLY THAT ONE CLICK CHANGED OUR LIVES SO MUCH I STILL HEAR YOU SAYING I WON't COME HERE EACH DAY BUT WHO SHOWED UP NEXT EVENING YOU AS AN UNKOWN FORCE WAS PULLING YOU TO ME AND ME THE FOOL FIRST I DIDN't WANTED TO BELIEVE IT I THOUGHT IT WAS WRONG WHEN I SAW AT OUR AGE BUT ALSO THAT UNKOWN FORCE PULLED ME LATER TO YOU AND I COULDN't DENY IT NO MORE I FALL IN

$bittersweet$
A step away from the abyss, How could I know the end was this?Happiness in face of pain, Mad slowly becoming sane. Of all the blackest nightsAnd possible strong frights;I can still find a blissIn a moment like this.A step away from the abyss,I didn’t know the end was this. Heaven in the midst of Hell.The ocean trapped within a shell. Locked in your strong armsKept from all my harmsBut still I am not saved, My soul’s been fire paved. An end so keenly sweet, At last, bowing defeat. A step away from the abyss,I am so glad the end was this.

The Greatest Divorse Letters Ever....lmfao
Dear Wife,I'm writing you this letter to tell you that I'm leaving you for good. I've been a good man to you for seven years and I have nothing to show for it. These last two weeks have been hell. Your boss called to tell me that you had quit your job today and that was the last straw.Last week, you came home and didn't even notice that I had gotten a new hair cut, cooked your favorite meal, and even wore a brand new pair of silk boxers later that night.You came home, nibbled at your food for two minutes, and went straight to sleep after watching all of your soaps. You don't tell me you love me anymore, you don't want sex anymore or anything. Either you're cheating on me or you don't love me. Whichever is the case,,,,I'm gone.Signed,Your EX-HusbandP.S. Don't try to find me. Your sister and I are moving away to West Virginia together. Have a great life!-----------------------------------Dear Ex-Husband,Nothing has made my day more enjoyable than receiving your letter. It's true that you

Homeland Security Shreds Constitutional Right To Anonymous Political Speech
Homeland Security Shreds Constitutional Right to Anonymous Political Speech – Not to Protect Our Security – But to Monitor Dissent DHS Attacks Constitutional Right to Anonymity Anonymous political speech has a special place in American history. As leading economic blogger Tyler Durden points out: Anonymity is a shield from the tyranny of the majority. it thus exemplifies the purpose behind the bill of rights, and of the first amendment in particular: to protect unpopular individuals from retaliation– and their ideas from suppression– at the hand of an intolerant society. *** Though often maligned (typically by those frustrated by an inability to engage in ad hominem attacks) anonymous speech has a long and storied history in the United States. Used by the likes of Mark Twain (aka Samuel Langhorne Clemens) [and the founding fathers in the Federalist Papers], we think ourselves in good company in using one or another nom de plume. Particularly in light o

Us Gov't Censoring The Web For Starters?
Since fuBar won't let me copy and paste certain html. Click the link HERE to go to the Free Uncensored version of a blog entry made by Washington's Blog to catch up and read about PIPA and SOPA.

2012 Elections Vs. Ibotade Phase 4
2012 Elections vs. IBOTADE Phase 4 by Henry Massingale January 18,2012 I am going to show you all a truth at Fubar, of how you have become a slave to a Matrix that would of seemed to be just a movie. The days of Girls Want To Have Fun has become a Political Dollar for Government Officials. And you all my friends are nothing to them. I do not know if a Political Statement is allowed here, but if Government Officials knew of what was to be shared here, they would have a fit because it would mean that I have reached into the streets and not only the Net. To become as one with the Net is a concept that they now see I have done. Why do I fight so hard ? It is because of the American Military who was shoot and killed protecting the Poppy Plants, so they can sell their dope to you and if you sell, you go to jail. The following bellow is in part of my damage to them. Welcome to the Matrix of The Net where a truth can be seen and a lie is as simple as There Is No Spoon. I am not Neo... A

What's Sopa/pipa?..
Ok enough about snatch for 20 credit people...lol...Wondering what that SOPA/PIPA stuff is on top of the site is today? Maybe this video will help you get a better idea about what our lovely Socialist President and his cronies have in mind for the internet...it might just blow you away... Thank you Jess for the link....Word to the wise don't sell your junk for cheap or you will be mocked incessantly. If you get good $$ go for it.. haha have a good day ---> Peace.

New Ffts
Good read for those who use FFTs in signal processing applications...peace, jd The faster-than-fast Fourier transform January 18, 2012 by Larry Hardesty Enlarge The Fourier transform is one of the most fundamental concepts in the information sciences. It’s a method for representing an irregular signal — such as the voltage fluctuations in the wire that connects an MP3 player to a loudspeaker — as a combination of pure frequencies. It’s universal in signal processing, but it can also be used to compress image and audio files, solve differential equations and price stock options, among other things. The reason the Fourier transform is so prevalent is an algorithm called the fast Fourier transform (FFT), devised in the mid-1960s, which made it practical to calculate Fourier transforms on the fly. Ever since the FFT was proposed, however, people have wondered whether an even faster algorithm could be found. At the Association for Computing Machinery&rsquo

I'll Kick Racism In The Ass
So of late racism has come running at my door, strong and bold telling who I can't love society will not approve. Well racism good thing I don't listen to you! Try as you may to break he and I apart you only make us stronger and love thicker with each passing day. I did nothing to make you welcome in my life so don't get your asses comfortable you have not even seem me begin to fight! Sure everyone has fault and weakness and KINDNESS is mine. I tried to be polite when I called and understand your hateful tones. Racism you have me faces, no of which are beautiful and only bring shame and harm one's character. Shadowed by a smile and some fake ass hugs, I'm hear to tell you racism I can't stand your behind, I'm being straight up and honest. What the hell do you think you are doing trying to ruin my happiness with low down dirty tricks and games. You blocked me off his profile and you think that will keep me away! Poor little racist people go somewhere else and play, my playground

Lady Love
You're a shining star, an ever lasting light, The fire in the forest burning wild and bright, You're an angel flying high and free, You're a beautiful spirit to whom only I can see, Your mind is as deep as the ocean floor, Full of life to which I adore, I would love to swim deep within your mind, And explore the secrets that I may find, Your face holds the beauty of a rare black pearl, You're a heavenly creature, one hell of a girl, Your lips are as sweet as grapes on the vine, Mellow to the taste, as an expensive wine, Your heart is as a lock and bolt on a door, To which I and only I have the key for, So when you're down and lonely and need a close friend, Just call on me and I shall let myself in, You're a bird of paradise, a fish in the sea, You're a dream within a dream, you're everything to me, You're a Goddess floating in the heavens above, You're my girl, my woman, My Lady Love.

Distant Star
little beloved, the poet says dear great soul, I say plant of your distant island fruit of pain and fragility immortal flower in my memory my heart is bleeding by your thorns by the fragments of your mirror pounding heart loving heart until I turn into dust little beloved, the poet says dear great soul, I say I have lost you I have kept the longing

Love Gone Bad.....lost Love
Love Gone Bad Poems One last kiss no more tears to shedI think about thisWhile watching you leave my bedNo more nights of long awaited passionNo more searching for The latest lingerie fashionsNo more nights of crying and painNot ever will I feel the sameNo longer will I live a lieNo more wondering whoseThe latest spyNo more creeping in the midnight hourNo more love making in the hot steamy showerFrom now on I will be walking aloneNo longer will my houseBe considered our happy home

*loveless Suicide*
All Alone In The WorldNo One Heared Her Crys Of PainShe Was Alone In Her CornerAs She Called Out His NameThey Walked By With Out A Single CareThey Never Wanter Her Here,AliveSo She Took To Her Wrist,Her Salvation,The Knife.Her Tears Dried As She Cut Her Arm,It Cut Deep And Dripped Her Percious Blood As She Leand Against The Wall And Slid To The Ground, She Watched The Blood Dripp Down It's All Their Fault That She Used That Retched Knife To End Her Pain And Suffering And Her Fucked Up Life. The Day Came And Passed By, No One Went To See Her Poor Soul On And So Ends This Sad Tale, Shes Forever Dead And Gone.

Girl Loves It When Her Boyfriend Plays With Her Boobs, But, He Often Stops There
http://www.naturescorner.com/ ADVICE COLUMN Clyde's Corner Q: I absolutely love it when ny boyfriend plays with my boobs - he often dry humps me - it ends there, leaving me wanting more - I get so horny, without satisfaction. What can I do? - Cynthia Fox Fort Worth, TX

Just Cause
Steven Reynolds jeez that's all you people wanna talk about.... borrrrrrrrrrrrrrring 35 minutes ago · Like Ainsley Walker it wont be boring when its censoring your ass left right and centre! :P 33 minutes ago · Like Steven Reynolds hmmmm well i've been barred from facebook twice already... banned from fubar probably upwards of 20... ummm... myspace a few.... hmmm come to think of it... pretty much everywhere... ah the joys of being a troll 31 minutes ago · Like · 1

Soggy Wednesday
Dear Diary.....its wet n thank fook its not freezing.....havin a lazy day job huntin online n if i was a brain surgeon id have no probs lol gets frustrating at times but u just keep on trying.....start bookeeping n payroll course tomoz so summat to look forward to i spose, was given an odd gift this morning, a dribuddy.....dries ur wet laundry with hot air, sorta like a tumble dryer but not lol, but im grateful for all i receive so its in the cupboard with all other offerings....now i just need a home to use them in lol.........and a bed......id give right arm for me own bed to sleep in.....and a kitchen to cook in......at the rate im saving maybe next century lol, (bangs head against wall.....have faith) leg hurts today too much walking i guess, so good thing im resting it.....spoke to eldest n he always cheers me up, he has faith in me..... u just dont expect to be on the scrapheap at my age ....actually morelike down stream without a paddle lol......but cud be worse.....chin

Ramble, Ramble.
I am starting to feel old chains sneaking around in the darkest recesses of my mind. The same chains that weighed me down so much what feels like so long ago. I can not say I know what is making this happen. Hell, I do suppose it would be me. I seem to have this tendency to give out far more than I take in. I spend all of my energy and willingly give it to everyone and everything around me. This such as focusing and retaining my energy levels are becoming much more of a hassle as of late. My mood began to dip and I decided that writing may be an answer, or at least a way to vent whatever it is that is weighing me down. In a way I feel as if this veil that has been preventing me from reaching myself has thicking and gone from translucent to opaque. Blocking off everything rather than simply hindering me. Yet it is simply this moment. I know I have plenty to be happy for, or even grateful for. I mean, I am safe and will be warm for the winter. Although, I do feel the road calling t m

Lingering Breathless Kisses
It’s your lips,So rich, so sensual in form,The way they move over each word andPull me into that space where nothing existsBut you and I, nothing but the moment,Only that moment and the anticipation of those lipsMoving ever closer to mine…sweet torture;Sweeter still, the memories we share,Those long-lingering breathless kissesFeeding our Souls, diving in so deeply I couldn’t moveWithout your coming with me,And I couldn’t breathe without your breath joining mine -So many nights…so many days of your lipsTeasing and nourishing, dancing and laughing,Caressing and tempting until I surrendered,Until I was a willing slave to your mouth,Yours and yours again,Captured by kisses, oh, those stolen kisses!It’s your lips calling to me in my dreams,Promising we’ll feed again…

My Familys Suffering
family separated by a secret we found each other again years later and loved each other like we always did .. i feel thier hurt i feel their pain and i wish i could make it go away i wish it could make it end ... but i have no power to do that no power at all .. i have to sit by and watchthem suffer greatly in thier loss.. i had to look into my cousin deep brown eyes tonight ... and feel it so strongly it shook me to my core ... the tears are just below the surface .. underneath all my pretty eye make up the rainbow eyeshadow ... i smile and yet cry at the same ... im happy but sad .. gentle but mad .. mad they took her away .

Aunty Betsy
A kind soul a heart whole A big heart She will be missed . held onto by memories of her loved ones .. held onto in the hearts of her children . she took care of so many of us .. some of us that no family other family of thier own .. so of us .. who she her just like thier mum as i read her eulogy i read she took care of up to 500 kids in her lifetime .. how impressive is that .. i wonder how many kids she stopped from going to jail /prison .. i wonder how many kids she gave hope to ... a modest soul .. a heart full of humanity a strong woman, a good woman ... a tough woman a woman that wouldn't shit from anyone she defied the odds Aunty Besty in a word was just aunty betsy noone quite like her noone to take her place .. i haven't been abel to cry for her yet and i hope i do .. soon theres another star up there shining brightly tonight .. as she watches from a distance i like to think my mum and her are drinking coffee/ tead toge

Grow Up
It has come to my attention that yet another "person" is running her mouth about me. You go to Randy and run your mouth about shit you know nothing about. Here are the facts....... (1) I was involved in a wreck before Christmas that almost took my life (2) The wreck couldnt have been avoided. Now you have BITCH in your name on here but your not woman enough to come to me and run your mouth you put the word Bitch to shame You know who you are. Grow the fuck up and come to me if you have a problem with me. Dont go calling, texting, or sending messages on here to Randy. Ask him or me for my number, hell I will even give you my address and we will talk. My 12 year old is more of a woman than you will ever be because if she has a problem she goes to the source not behind the sources back. Again Grow up get a life and stay the fuck out of mine. I have told you this before Im really getting tired of this shit

Diary Of An Angry Protester
Here’s my take on some of the recent protests. * This is the hour of our discontent A defining moment for our generation It is a time to stand and demand our rights A time to shout from every street corner * Where is our piece of the American Pie? Who will pursue our happiness? This is supposed to be the greatest nation on earth Where is the prosperity we were promised? * We believe that every generation should do better than the last And that our kids shouldn’t have to work as hard as we did We believe that education is the most important thing And that teachers ought to do a better job of motivating our kids to learn * We believe that the government should do more for the people And that it shouldn’t cost us more in taxes We believe that corporate America should provide good, high-paying, non-polluting, jobs

Pay Attention Boys Listen To Ya Girl
Alright these are facts men should supposedly know about us : 1. We love guys who can play the guitar2. If you serenade us you'll instantly grab our hearts (even if your not good)3. We love guys who smell good4. No players!5. Don't lead us on, it hurts a lot more than you think it does6. Cuddling is good, don't be afraid to just hold us7. If we tell you a guy is harrasing us, that means we want you to defend us. We're not trying to make you jealous8. DON'T talk about other girls with us. Whether it be past or present. Girls we know are just your friends are okay, but if you talk about a girl you like, once liked or ex, it makes us feel like we don't matter because your hung up on another girl9. Sometimes, the simpler the better10. MAJOR bonus points if you kiss us or something of that sort around your friends. We love knowing that your not afraid to be with us11. If you make us laugh, that's always a good sign12. DO NOT, I repeat, DO NOT break a promise or your word. It hurts a whole h

Work
okay so i found out today that my company is getting tax credits for each employee they train... and while some look at this and say it's encouragement to hire new employees and therefore helpful... i'd like to go into detail as to why it's not... they are and have been going through tons of new hires... turns out they get $10,000 for each... so they purposely hire people they know won't stay... the job is heavy industrial labor i noticed when i was getting hired in and they had guys who worked as cashiers and receptionist in our group.. kinda odd huh? basically this is how it works... they train them... which is generally a one to two month affair during which they produce slightly less than average amounts but then they let them go... in 2 months time said employee makes less than 10k so once they are gone... not only is all the work they did basically free but there is a surplus of money... that's right... your tax dollars are paying my fortune 500 company to sponge free labo

The Spiders Lullaby
I watched spiders crawl out from her mouth, their legs twitching and jerking about in random spasms. They made way for her eyelids, gnawing away like parasitic rats sheltered behind cold walls echoing tainted memories only moths could recall. The spiders were the bane of sight, the logic and reason for blindness, to bind darkness to those who were already lost without the light. I watched the spiders spit venom into her eyes, their legs twitching and jerking about in random spasms. She was unable to blink, unable to think, unable to stop the poison from corroding morality perceived through her mind’s third eye. The venom seeped through and damaged her porcelain soul, little by little vacant spaces replaced what amnesia sought as she started to sing deadly lullabies the spiders had forgot. I watched the spiders creep down into her head, their legs twitching and jerking about in random spasms. They weaved a special web to catch and save th

Voidwalking
Somewhere amongst the debris of scattered minds Where lost memories wander through dark labyrinths of a worn-out kind I pull and stretch out the tattered spire that once romanticized twilight skies Before reaching in shallow violet-colored waters pale faces litter with blackened eyes. Metallic voices drone in the abysmal quagmire as hollowed dreams form inside my head Twisting Life’s stigmas into shapeless identities that silhouette against banal formalities; The Unknown weaves a silver cord spiraling through the glitches of a fixed reality ahead As marmalade souls, so tantalizing at their seam, drip pass hidden crevices of nostalgic frailties. Idle thoughts writhe beautifully against floating parabolic realities of shape-shifting desires As the voids of phantasmal eyes tweak the fabric of unborn ideas mankind inspires, I gather recycled remnants of multiple personalities resonating a strange familiarity Though cannot begin to fathom its meaning due to the Veil d

Girl Loves Sex 2 - 3 Times A Day - Boyfriend Doesn't Keep Up With Her
http://www.naturescorner.com/ ADVICE COLUMN Clyde's Corner Q: I love having sex 2 - 3 times a day. I am always horny. Guys always want sex with me, but I am true to my boyfriend. The trouble is, he doesn't keep up with me. What can I do? - Tyra Coleman - Dallas, Texas

Possible Actions On Us From Them?!?
The Internet blacklist legislation—known as PROTECT IP Act (PIPA) in the Senate and Stop Online Piracy Act (SOPA) in the House—invites Internet security risks, threatens online speech, and hampers Internet innovation. Urge your members of Congress to reject this Internet blacklist campaign in both its forms! To make the most impact, we're asking YOU to do two things. Today, use our handy tool to send an email to your representatives, letting them know you oppose these bills and they should too. Then, on January 23, when the Senate is back in session (and scheduled to vote on PIPA on January 24), call your Senator and tell him or her that it's time to stand with the Internet and against the Internet blacklists! Big media and its allies in Congress are billing the Internet blacklist legislation as a new way to battle online infringement. But innovation and free speech advocates know that this initiative will do little to stop infringement online. What it will do is compromise Inter

Hello 2012
So the year has started off a bit stressful...yesterday I found out my current position has been posted on Craigslist by my employer..this coming after a co-worker called me to give me a heads up..that someone was out to get rid of me..well long story short..I stressed last night, then today found some relief..I am not going anywhere for a while, they want to shift me out to a different area to better utilize me. Well in my panic, I updated my Careerbuilder.com profile..and BLAM got 11 emails today from potential new employers back in the previous career arena :) And in addition to the 11 emails, I received a call and await the 2nd call to set up an interview.. Maybe the Universe has plans for me.. I sure hope so, I miss being a "suit" and being financially stable.. In short a miserable hopelss night turned into a uplifting and empowering day with a renewed sense of career viability..

Nutrition Classes
I had my second nutrition class..out of 5. I learned that I am doing everything right...save for one small thing :/ that post surgery will be a HUGE thing. I HAVE to stop drinking with meals. I lost 9.2 this month making my total 25.2 since Nov 18 Still not smokin, still exercisin my ass off (literally) I gotta say, I really feel good. The nutritionist was impressed!

Kerala - Will Inspire The Poet In You
Kerala will inspire the poet in you. Kerala in itself can be termed visual poetry. It is like poetry begets poetry. Such are the immense blessings of nature to this coastal state. Kerala is situated in the Malabar Coast of southwestern India. This emerald piece of gem is nestled between Western Ghats and Arabian Sea. With its scintillating beaches, lovely hill stations, placid backwaters, enchanting wildlife, breathtaking landscape and classical art forms, Kerala attracts millions to its lap. The travel you have to and fro while on a Kerala tour in itself is a remarkable affair. You will be treated to predominantly verdant landscape interspersed with diverse geographical terrains by the two sides. You will be inebriated with the charming beauty. Backwater is an inevitable part of Kerala tourism . No Kerala tour is considered complete without savoring backwaters. Backwater is a unique Kerala phenomenon. It is difficult to find a similar occurrence a

I Want To Be Perfect!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I like who I amBut I guess you don"tI think that I can But you think I won'tAmount to anything at allIf you love me,You sure show it strangeIs there anything that you would want to change?I can't be your paper doll. I wanna be perfect,But I'm meI wanna be flawless,But you seeEvery little crackEvery chip,Every dentEvery little mistake,I wanna be perfectJust like you,But there's only so much that a girl can doWhen I look in the mirror,It makes sense to me,PerfectlyPerfectlyI like worn out shoesYou like high heels, and fantasiesBut I'm what's realI guess you could sayThe shoe don't fitMaybe I'm from Venus You're from marsMy imperfections are what they areI guess one of us must deal, with itI wanna be perfect,But I'm meI wanna be flawless,But you seeEvery little crack,Every chip,Every dent,Every little mistake, yeahI wanna be perfect,Just like youBut there's only so much,That a girl can doWhen I look, In the mirror,What I see,Makes sense to me, yeahPerfectlyOh, perfectlyI try to fitIn the

The Bills
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General Manager
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Reasonable Proximity
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The Actual
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The Seventh
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Ownership Group
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The Show Tonight
Houston Rockets player Yao Ming will be absent from a Chinese squad which will compete at a tournament in Las Vegas next month, the event will also feature some NBA sides. Mike Iupati Super Bowl Jersey . An official from the Chinese Basketball Association (CBA), Hu Jinshi, said on Monday that the possibility of Yaos participation in the event is close to zero. Yaos absence is a result of his long-term injury, said a report on the website Sina.com. Sources with the Rockets say it may take the small giant about half a year for treatment and recovery from his shoulder injury. However, no source has yet confirmed whether the star player will require surgery. Director of the CBA, Li Yunwei, revealed Yao is still undergoing training in the US as arranged by his US club. He further declined to give a time-frame for Yaos return to the Chinese national team. Yaos absence also leaves a lingering shadow over Chinas mens basketball teams preparations for the Beijing Olympics next year. The nationa

Two Minutes
San Francisco, CA (Sports Network) - Mike Hampton was solid on the mound to pick up his first win since August 14, 2005, and added an RBI double, as the Atlanta Braves pounded the San Francisco Giants, 11-4, in the second contest of a three-game set. 49ers Steve Young Jersey . Hampton (1-0), who has been sidelined by two elbow surgeries, a strained chest muscle and an injured groin, tossed seven frames and was touched for just two runs on four hits to move to 14-4 lifetime against the Giants. "It can put me on my way and I do feel like that," Hampton said of the win. "Im a believer that winning builds confidence and doing things right and doing things well builds confidence." Yunel Escobar and Omar Infante had a hit and two RBI apiece for the Braves, who still only have three wins over their last 11 games. Kelly Johnson went 3- for-3 with an RBI and scored three times. Jonathan Sanchez (8-8) took the loss as he yielded three runs on seven hits while striking out five. Sanchez is 0-4 ov

Holding You - Holding Me
YOU ASKED ME TO HOLD YOU WHILE WE SLEEP BUT I WANT TO HOLD YOU FIRST WHEN WE MEET I WILL HOLD YOU IN THE CAB AND ALSO HOLD YOU WHEN WE GO INSIDE I LOVE TO HOLD YA HAND I NEED TO HOLD YOU IN MY ARMS TO FEEL YOUR HEARTBEATS NICELY AGAINST MY CHEST THAT's WHY I KEEP HOLDING ON YOU YOU HOLD ME ALREADY FOR SO LONG IN YA MIND UNTILL I REALISED IT THEN AFTER A TIME LONGER YOUR NAME WAS HOLD INTO MY BRAIN LIKE LAST NIGHT WHEN I COULDN't SLEEP AS YOUR NAME WAS SPINNING THROUGH MY MIND BUT BACK TO THE HOLDING I KNOW YOU LIKE TO HOLD ME EVEN IT's HAND IN HAND OR IN A HUG OR FOR LIVE I SAY YES ON ALL MY LOVE HOLD ME TIDE AS I COME FROM WIDE TO SEE YA AND STAY WITH YOU SO WE CAN HOLD EACH OTHER AS WE HOLD ALREADY FOR SO LONG EACH NAME IN OUR HEAD .... YOU ARE THE ONE THAT's WHAT IS SPINNING IN OUR BRAINS AND YOU MAY KNOW IT I L O V E I T !!!! SO.... HOLDING YOU - HOLDING ME WE GONNA HOLD ON EACH OTHER FOR THE REST OF OUR LIVES AS WE ARE MADE TO BE TOGETHE

£ Innocent Lies£
I'm just me I don't care what others think of me. I still got my friends and there all I need to have my fun. I hope you like my writings and comment My life is worthless, My heart is cold, My mind is dying, My hope has gone. . So many mistakes in my life, No trust by my side, I'm so sorry for being me, It's my face I don't want to see. . Full of nothing, Now seeing the truth, Facing the hurting, Forgive me, my faults, and my sins, I tried to love, to feel, to be,

+blinded+
creeping and crawling I feel the taste of him withinI dream of being the good girl,the saint among saintsI tasted him and knew I was wrongthe one at home, happily waitingI'm intwined within a strangerI'm enthralled in his scent and kisses and this undeniable lustmy demon my devil of devilsI run from you only to find myself closera mistake? oh yesI love it andI hate it and I just cant help myself...here I am mouth open taste of hate and bitternessI'm only who I amand I feel itcreeping and crawling

I - You - We
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The Game
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Eventual Winner
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Stupid Chicks
Holy effing frustration. Ok. I am technically still married to my ex. We've been going over the details of how we want things to work out in regards to our daughter. Since the day she was born we promised eachother that no matter what neither of us would ever deny the other contact with her if things between us ended up not working out. So right now, at this very moment I am sitting in the living room of my ex's new place. For the last...5 days I've been listening to him argue with his now girlfriend about me being here. For whatever reason she can't seem to fathom the idea that him and I are still very good friends and that no matter who else enters our lives, they need to come into knowing that him and I will always be very big parts of eachother's new lives because we are STILL our daughter's parents. This "woman" has the nerve to tell him that me being here is a problem because she's jealous of the time he's spending with me and his daughter. I understand that our situation is

Girl Gets So Very Horny When Her Boyfriend Kisses, Licks, And, Sucks On Her Tummy, And, Bellybutton
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Girl Gets Very Horny When Her Boyfriend Caresses/massages/ Rubs Her Boobs While Laying On Top Of Her
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Hmmm
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1-17-12
Tired. So tired of being tired. I get my machine to fix my sleep apnea tomorrow. I hope my desire to get a real night’s sleep for the first time in over a year overcomes the claustrophobia I get with that thing on my head. Seriously, it looks like 70’s technology. Modernize this shit…it shouldn’t be so noticeable. I can work on my Dennis Hopper in Blue Velvet impersonation though…any volunteers to help me work on one scene in particular? I like getting things for people I like. And when you do it without expecting anything in return, you’re usually rewarded in ways you never thought of. And if anything, the smiles are worth it. This weather is getting ridiculous. I do not like ice. And with the temperature going up and down like a yo-yo, that’s what we’ll consistently get. I’d rather it just get cold and stay cold until it’s time to get warm and stay warm. When the snow if light and fluffy, it is so much easier to dea

First Kiss 2
Stephen smiled at her request and removed his left hand and grabbed onto the back of her panties, pulling them up and making them wedge deep into her crotch before they ripped in his hand. Sarah's dripping thighs were exposed to him now and she began to wiggle her ass a bit as she tried to look back at him, only to have him make her look forward by the hand in her hair. she hissed a bit at the pain, but secretly it turned her on. she heard the dull zip of his zipper before feeling the warmth of his shaft rub beween her thighs, pressing against her wetness. she squeezed her thighs aronud the massive member, wishing that he would just shove it in her and fuck her until she cried. as loud slap echoed through the room as his hand clapped against her ass. her round full ass jiggled at the contact and a soft huff escaped her throat as she pressed her chest harder against the desk, lifting her ass for him. "Fuck me." she repeated, this time a soft, begging was in her tone. her pussy stre

First Kiss
She was called into the back office. The hallway was long and poorly lit with sconces that flickered sporadically. she wondered silently what he could want with her, being as that she hasn't heard from him in a week. she slowly pulled her hand up to knock on the door, but before her knuckles could make a sound she heard his low, drawn out voice call to her. "Come in Sarah." he said in his thick Georgian accent. She pushed the door open and looked into the dark office, straining her eyes to catch his silhouetted face. She closed the door behind her and he flicked the lamp on that was on his desk. his deep blue eyes seemed to pull her in like whirlpools in a shallow pool. as his smile spread across his face she felt her heart flutter and her face become red and hot. "Y-you called me Stephen?" She asked, looking away from him and down to her shoes. "I haven't seen you since-" "I know." he said, cutting her off and standing up. He glared at her as she looked back into his eyes. he c

Dont Realize What You Have Until Its Gone
When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I’ ve got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn’t know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly. She didn’t seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn’t talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn’t love her anymore. I just pitied her! With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me

Domestic Violence And Mental Abuse
I always see this posted While you scream at your beloved, there's a man wishing he could whisper in her ear. While you humiliate her, offend and insult her, there's a man flirting with her and reminding her how beautiful she is. While you hurt her, there's a man wishing he could take her pain away. While you make her cry, there's a man stealing smiles from her. Post this on your wall if you are against Domestic Violence and Mental Abuse What about men they hurt too? So... While you scream at your beloved, there is a women wishing she could whisper in his ear. While you humilate him, offend and insult him, there's a women flirting with him and reminding him how handsome he is. While you hurt him, there is a women wishing she could take his pain away. While you make him cry, there is a women wiping his tears away. Domestic Violence and Mental Abuse goes both way's and men is much as a victim as a women.

What Is Your Favorite Word
"used most often... probably cunt... favorite hmmm... bound sounds lovely or perhaps decapitated... but that makes me sound like a serial killer :)" and this is how i pick up chicks on facebook :D

And I Ramble
All of my life I've had a pretty simple way of looking at things. My heart is generous and kind. So hurting people and being dishonest never made much sense to me. I think that if your actions are going to hurt people than don't do it. Granted...I'm not completely free of making mistakes and I have made decisions based solely on the fact that its what I wanted at the time...therein hurting people or disappointing them. I am a genuinely good person. A little naive at times and even more often, way too trusting. I just feel that if someone tells you something, its true. Around here, that rule doesn't apply, then again, that rule rarely applies anywhere in life. People are ALWAYS looking out for number one. I suppose, in some sense, that's how it should be. You should always be your first priority. Never letting others determine what you do or how you feel or think. I let people's opinion of me pull too much weight in my life because I never want to be someone that others don'

Poem
I used to think it was a genie bottle, whose contents lifted my head into a dreamy world of clouds, buzz is a good word for the tingling lack of sensation, my head falls back on its own, it flutters, like my head was in love, this would have been my first wish. I could not remember to make the other two. This was the deceptive ecstasy of ambrosia, and we did not know words yet like dry heaves, rotgut, and brown bottle flu, black-outs were entertaining, not accountable for anything forgotten, forgetting my second wish was not to feel shame. I then did not know the devil's trickery, that demons look like genies and can make you feel good, but possession is the whole of the law, and the bad will always follow once they have you, when there are no excuses, just a disease. Black-outs mean that you are alone, and loneliness means that you are the drink, and drinking means the demons have you, yet you are compelled to possess their possession, because you still remember

My Shopping Excursion
So today I went in search of bra's. Bra's that didn't gap on the side or give me quadro-boob. So I got to several different places, Victoria Secrets included and ended up spending more money than I should have. I bought the cutest tank PJ and PJ Tee shirt at VS and some sexier items. Went to this place called Torrid and bought two pairs of the cutest heelsI think I have ever seen and some other sexier items. I hate my bra size!!! I'm in a funky size according to the lady at VS...I'm a 48c and she said they get very few of that size and soon as they come in they are gone. Guess I'm hittin' VS on line. I also went to Walgreens and bought make up and some Red Vines. Starting my diet tomorrow. Having had to go out today, I'm starting my diet full throttle tomorrow. I'm down 20 pounds, if I really work at it I can be just as sexy as the models on TV, if ya hide my face. LOL

*feel Me *
When morning light will come to riseand another year's gone by;just listen for the whispered windgently rolling through the sky.And on the clouds, once grey and darka new dawn begins to form.The precious thoughts I wish for youcome by a gentle storm.The rains you feel, my subtle tears;I only shed a few.Sent as a soft reminderI am lost without you.The lightning strikes will penetratedeep into your mind.A spark to bring a start again;renewed and well defined.Then hear the thunder closing intnis drumming melodic sound.It's just the beats of my heartof this love that I have found.And as each storm passes by,each closer than before;every day, I think of youthen love you more and more.

Tear Stained Devastation
Time; a constant reminder Embedding evil hatred in mind. Another moment simply slips away, Reaffirming scars of unforgotten times. Silence echoes in thundering wails, Teasing hell-fire in stone cold veins. A purgatory of thoughts cursing life Inflicting only continuous pains. Nary a minute escapes the clutches, Eroding away at the heart; Dreams becoming the quickest of sands; Death painted as master's art. Expunge the spell held over salvation; Vindication- the truest of friends. Animosity reigns in a bottomless pit; Sheltering soul till all time ends. Tread his river of coppery venom; Angst spewing at every degree, Telling of tales of casted fates; Ironically aimed at me. Orphaned within, held captive in fears; Now devastation takes hold, stained by tears

The Photograph
He told me I was beautiful, he told me I walked in innocence and that I left a path of devastation in my wake. He believed in me, yet I couldn’t see the beauty in me that he talked about. He took a photograph, showed me my soul, and through his eyes I saw love. Through his eyes I saw me for the first time. I looked into his eyes and saw my destiny; he looked into mine and saw my heart. Is it true that you only really know love when you look into your partners eyes and see yourself looking back? I could feel him, I sensed his aura even when we were apart, I could smell him, and I knew instantly this is someone I could love forever. We meet people for a reason. I look at the photograph and I remember. My heart did something it had never done before ....... nor ever will again Love; trust & Angels still walk beside me

Let Go
I let you free, This heart o’ mine; Withdraw yourself From my chest I’m no longer comforted By the feelings You’ve created within. Beguiled with illusions Of grander, A deep love, honesty And monogamy; On the precipice I stand. Yet another man Unready for the, ‘One of a kind’ Me! I will not allow you To control my actions Or reactions; The things I’ll not repeat For another lie. Perception is a bitch Now that its’ matured From all the lessons learned. So, Disconnect yourself from me, Unpredictable heart o’ mine; By force Or Your own choosing, But choose you must! Do not let the masterpiece Whom stands by in wait, Fool you like he once did me. The beauty and charm That oozes from him Like cold molasses, Is bitter sweet To the senses; Drawing you in Like a moth to a flame. Do not call out for his Arms to catch you For he will indeed let you fall.

Spitting
spitting in my face,this rock bottom unforgivingly starts to swallow my body whole.Freedom is may only be a rumor they made up ages agojust to give us hope.But I'll push this brick wall forever,just to prove to you pity is not an optionand I'll take whatever I am deserving for,because sometimes it's a matter of self control.this is my home as well as yours,you made this clear and I'm ready to be more than they all bargained forso shackle my ankles, lay misery in front of me,i am not weak.

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Why Men Are Seldom Depressed
WHY MEN ARE SELDOM DEPRESSED: Men Are Just Happier People -- What do you expect from such simple creatures? Your last name stays put. The garage is all yours. Wedding plans take care of themselves. Chocolate is just another snack. You can be President. You can never be pregnant. You can wear a white T-shirt to a water park. You can wear NO shirt to a water park. Car mechanics tell you the truth. The world is your urinal. You never have to drive to another gas station restroom because this one is just too icky. You don't have to stop and think of which way to turn a nut on a bolt. Same work, more pay. Wrinkles add character. Wedding dress $5000. Tux rental-$100. People never stare at your chest when you're talking to them. New shoes don't cut, blister, or mangle your feet. One mood all the time. Phone conversations are over in 30 seconds flat. You know stuff about tanks. A five-day vacation requires only one suitcase. You can open all your own jars.

Sick
Last night I slept really hard and woke up in pain on my entire left side of my body. I don't know if it's also because I've been having problems with my left ear. My left ear has been bothering me since last week. It hurts just to stick my finger in my ear. I finally caved in and called the doctor and called off work and hand bell choir practice. The doctor is supposed to call in a prescription for me. I haven't been sick in a very long time. I'm just going to relax and spend some time with my hubby since Tuesdays are his days off.

Belkin Wireless Router
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Blah B.s Blah
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A Symphony Inspired By A Hangover And The Desire To Never Get Up And My Ex Girlfriend In A Minor
What can you do when I am sleeping next to you and you lay there in the dark waiting for a spark? Nothing new to see when you turn and look at me and nothing stirs your soul just a body you can hold. You stare into the walls and your eyes say it all but mine are closed in dream I don't know a thing. I sleep alone these days while you sleep next to him upon the blankets a street light falls as he stares into the walls....

Most Ridiculous Item Of The Day...
Yes my friends this is getting to a new low and I think we just might have it. This picture below was taken from an auction that is currently in progress. This is just for 20 BLING CREDITS. That's right 20 stinking credits. Check out what's being offered: I figure at the rate this is going, someone will be giving head for 20 credits next. God forbid it was a FuPony. Think about it... Also I'm working on another wild faker blog, this one with a twist. Just more proof you never know what or who you're dealing with sometimes...but that's the later. Have a good week! Peace.

Dead On Arrival: Sopa Shelved Indefinitely, Obama Succumbs To Pressure, Issues Official Veto Threat (repost)
Amid significant pressure from tens of thousands of internet users and major web behemoths like Google, Facebook, and Reddit, the Stop Online Piracy Act (SOPA) is, in its current form, Dead on Arrival: Misguided efforts to combat online privacy have been threatening to stifle innovation, suppress free speech, and even, in some cases, undermine national security. As of yesterday, though, there’s a lot less to worry about. The first sign that the bills’ prospects were dwindling came Friday, when SOPA sponsors agreed to drop a key provision that would have required service providers to block access to international sites accused of piracy. The legislation ran into an even more significant problem yesterday when the White House announced its opposition to the bills. Though the administration’s chief technology officials officials acknowledged the problem of online privacy, the White House statement presented a fairly detailed critique of the measures and

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Dont Drink And Drive
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The Lonely Battery
In 2006 I was an EMT in Los Angeles, my partner and I drove by a store called “Battery City” for whatever reason that night the store was disheartening, it was really dark and just seemed dead. My partner and I started going on and on about a lonely battery that lived in the store. After we got to the station while I was laying on the couch (I slept at the stations sometimes when I worked consecutive days), I took out my notebook and wrote a poem, song or rhyme about a lonely battery. Without further ado, The Lonely Battery

Hard Time With Max Hardcore
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