A Man Is No One's blog: "Rants"

Why am I such a bad person? I figure I must be some real piece of shit for women to treat me the way they do. All I’ve ever done is be polite, kind, RESPECTFUL….and to what end? I give my heart to someone, truly feel a deep affection for them, and what does it get me? Not even the courtesy to say “Hey, I know we had a thing for a little while but now I’m interested in someone else”. Not even a word at all. Instead I’m left to find it out for myself and get met with only silence when I ask about it. So someone please explain to me why I’m such an asshole that I deserve for this to keep happening to me.

I see a lot of bitching and whining from some people about reposting bulletins. Of course, these are also the same people that couldn't be bothered to repost someone else's bulletins unless there was something in it for them. To sit there and tell people "YOU'RE OFF MY LIST IF YOU DON'T REPOST THIS" if just fucking childish. So I think that in the future, when I see bulletins like that, i will save them the trouble of deleting me and just delete them myself. Maybe not the most popular thing I could say, but I'm tired of people thinking they have to put conditions on my friendship. Don't like it that I didn't repost your bulletin? You know where the door is, and don't let it hit you in the ass on the way out. ~nuff said~ ps, go read my poetry or you're off my list....lol, jk :P

I don't feel CherryTap staff is trying to censor people, but to spare us the annoyance of spammers who find multiple ways of getting through to users. I am an oper on a network that caters to music lovers and chatters, and spammers always find ways to run rampant and cause havoc. Why should a website be any different, especially a popular one such as this? Without the checks Cherry is implimenting it would be very easy for malicious users to take down this site for periods of time, depriving us all of that which we enjoy. So try and think beyond your own inconveniences before you go and criticize the staff for actions they take which you might not understand. And feel free to disagree with me....

wow, guess even I get the down rater now and then. I blocked the ho faster that Rosie O'Donnel scarfin down a jelly donut tho.

Its a sad thing to see, when people become so jealous of what another person has accomplished that they need to try and tear that person down rather than work to raise themselves up. I have always been one to hope that people could grow beyond the petty things that can be found on the school yard. So it is frustrating to see the equivalent of hair pulling and name calling among adults who should know better. So what if someone is higher in rank than you on this site? So what if they have more friends and fans? So what that they won't show their naughty pics (assuming they even have any) to just anyone who wants to see them? If you don't like your rank on Cherry, work to raise it. If you feel that you don't have enough friends and fans, get out there and make some more (this is easier if you aren't being an asshole to people, btw). And if someone doesn't want you to see all of their pics, so what. That is their right to choose who sees them. This is an adult site, so why do some people find it so hard to behave like adults. Its time for all the haters , 40 year old adolecents, and whiners to grow up and act their ages. Let's keep Cherry the awesome community we all know it can be.

How many times have we seen this or other bulletins like this: Hey guys you have to check out my new freind she is one nasty girl. Please go rate her pics and add her as a friend to see her really nasty pics and i must say she is smokin hot and a cutie to boot. Please enjoy her like i did PLEASE REPOST THIS BULLETIN!!! I guess these people who post these would have us believe the only people worthy of being rated and commented have to post dirty pics. No mention whatsoever about this person's personality. Must make them feel kind of cheap, I would think,

Ok, so things have taken a right angle turn since my blog entry earlier anbout moving on. I decided I'd go and try meditation. I've tried it in the past with mixed results, but today for some reason it seemed really appropriate. So I turned everything off, stripped naked (don't ask me why, it just felt right for some reason) and sat in the center of my bed with my legs crossed and arms draped outstretched across my knees. I closed my eyes and almost imediately felt the world just go away, a very welcome feeling. All the thoughts that had been spinning in my head just fell silent un till all I heard or felt was the steady beat of my heart. This lasted for about 20 minutes, and then I had the urge to just get up and go walking. So I got dressed (no intension of going for a walk through the city naked) and just walked. I took a route I'd taken dozens of times in the past, but today it felt different. My perspective had changed, I guess. I was seeing the beauty in the things around me in a way I hadn't before, at least not consciously. I could barely contain the big stupid smile that wanted to break out on my face from time to time. I even watched the sunset over the trees, which was really cool tonight. I don't really understand everything that has happened in the past few hours, as I'm still processing it all. I did come to one realization today, though. If home is where the heart is, then I must leave this place someday. This may have once been it, but no longer. Where that place may be, I don't know, but this isn't it anymore. This has become the place that is comfortable, but comfortable can slowly kill you in time if you choose to live without growing and loving and "living".

I've never really liked New York. The weather sucks in the winter, the state taxes you to death, and the job market has always been kinda shitty. The only reason I'm here at all is because this is where my family is. More and more lately this doesn't seem enough to keep me here. But I feel guilty anytime I think about leaving. I wish I knew what to do...

Life sure has a way of coming along and kicking you in the nuts when you least expect it. Seems like lately things have finally been going my way for once. Money saved in the bank, a nice vehicle, bills getting caught up, plus all the good things that make life worthwhile like family and friends. And then, just as I settle back and begin to enjoy my life, KER-POW!!! Life takes a shot at my nuts and hits dead center. For that nice vehicle I was speaking of needs new steering parts now to the tune of $700 parts and labor, money I don't have even with what I've been saving. So now I have to hope my truck doesn't tear itself apart in the time it takes for me to save up that money, which would mean needing even more money. Anyone want to make a donation? lol, jk