Kate Marie's blog: "randomness"

i've had this song running through my head all day. . for no apparent reason So, this is the sound of forty hearts pounding along To music that's blasting through the room. So, let's put on a show in our weekend's best clothes I hope you find what you're looking for. Cause I meant what I said how I'll never love again. But you'll never understand. This black and white formal's got all that she wants. It's got boys, side to side boys by her side And I'm thinking of her, she's not thinking of me. And now all that she wants is the touch of a warm body. I'm begging you to consciously turn your eyes in my direction. Connection is made. I meant what I said, I will never love again. But you'll never understand. This black and white formal's got all that she wants. It's got boys, side to side boys by her side. And I'm thinking of her, she's not thinking of me. And now all that she wants is the touch of a warm body. makes me miss my Four Letter Lie boys :[

yay! The Spill Canvas Yeah he's a looker, but I really think it's guts that matter most. I displayed them for you, strewn out about from coast to coast. I am easily make believe, just dress me up in what you want me to be. I'll take back what I've been saying for quite some time now. I gotta feel you in my bones again, I'm all over you. I'm not over you. I wanna taste you one more time again, I'm all over you. I'm not over you. In my daydreams, in my sleep, infatuation turning into disease. You could cure me, see all you have to do now is please try. Give it your best shot and try. All I'm asking for is love, but you never seem to have enough. I gotta feel you in my bones again, I'm all over you. I'm not over you. I wanna taste you one more time again, I'm all over you. I'm not over you. This life is way too short to get caught up in all this stuff when I just want you to love me back, why can't you just love me back? Why can't you just love me back? (why can't you, why can't you) Why can't you just love me back? (why can't you, why can't you) Why can't you just love me back? (why can't you, why can't you just love) I gotta feel you in my bones again, I'm all over you. I'm not over you. I wanna taste you one more time again, I'm all over you. I'm not over you. This life is way too short to get caught up and all mixed up when I just want you to love me back, why can't you just love me back? Why won't you just love me back? Why can't you just love me back?

"All Messed Up" by Breaking Point I hope I never wake up I dream about you all the time now And I don't wanna face Another night without you here Someday, someway, somehow We will be together again You know I've always wanted Just to feel the touch of your love You know I've always hated Knowing how far apart we are Someday, someway, somehow We will be together again I just want you to know [CHORUS:] Baby I'm all messed up in you You're far away But you're here with me Baby I'm all messed up in you You're all I need My everything Every night i wake up Hoping that I'll find you here and There's not a day that goes by I don't think about your smile Someday, someway, somehow We will be together again I just want you to know [CHORUS] And I know that we will find a way To be together someday And I promise you that I won't leave I'll be here forever [CHORUS] I want you I need you I'm lost here without you I'm all messed up in you I hope i never wake up I dream about you all the time now. maybe he'll read this. this song is deticated to him. i love him.. i miss him. he'll always have my heart, always have me. <3 you know who you are.. i love you, always and forever, eturnity and beyond.

i never thought i would have to write something like this, but its become quite apparent that i do. why, you may ask. because people are insane. and for some, that's probably a great understatment. so, backtracking.. this all started many, many months ago, on another website. but soon traveled to others. i have a journal on another website, which i won't name for privacy's sake. a girl from here, someone i do not actually know in real life. someone i've never talked to, even online, found my journal. for what reasons i don't know, but she found it none the less. she then started leaving me harrassing comments. which at first i tried to defend myself. but it did no good. i gave up and started deleting them without giving her a response. for a while she gave up. but always came back with some other wild accusation against me. i got so fed up, that i put my journal on password protection for a few months. i figured by then she'd have forgotten about me and i could take it off and be safe. WRONG!! she came back again, almost right away. insisting that my girlfriend, Brittay was 14. it wasn't true and i have no idea how she got that idea in her head. i again deleted the comments and went about my busniess like usual. until one day i get a text message from a friend saying something about my Myspace page and Brittany being 14. i was like wtf. we got into a huge fight about it. and i came to find out this girl who's been harrassing me hacked into my Myspace & Fubar accounts. she changed my profiles on both accounts. unblocked herself from my Fubar account and stole messages from my Myspace. she then took those messages from Myspace and used Photoshop to edit them to her liking. and posted them all over the previously meantioned journal website. at that point i couldn't take it any more, so i reported her to the website, who got her account banned. i hadn't heard anything from her since. at least so i had thought. i met my current boyfriend, Eric on here. some how this girl, found my boyfriend. this is where things get a bit complicated. my best friend also has Fubar. and also has the same name as the crazy girl. and they both have blonde hair. my boyfriend meantioned that my best friend had left him some picture comments. i didn't think anything of it. because i had no reason to think it was anyone else. so i was on my boyfriend's page just yesterday and come to find out that the crazy girl is on his friend's list. i started to panic, and that's when i looked at his picture comments. this is when i found out that it was never my best friend that left them. it was this crazy girl. not only has she left him picture comments, but she's added him as her crush on Fubar. (side note, this girl has a boyfriend that she lives with) needless to say i'm concerned. because i don't know what else she is capable of. if you see anything odd on my page, please let me know. if you're that curious about who she is, i can direct you to her profile. but be warned, she's crazy. i didn't do anything to her. and she's done all of this to me. sorry for this being so long. and much thanks if you read it all. peace out!

When the streetlights come on, the pooling light is leveed aside And pressed in twilight against our two rooms. I'll see you tonight. The pavement is aching, cicadas are crying, the wine-colored air breathing thoughts through your hair, breezing to me, leading me there... I come alive as the shadows parade. My hot summer blood comes in floods and in waves. Curbside confessions, no longer afraid of what you'll say. And I find you, twilit beyond all the cars. In driveways they sleep, but streetlights will keep watch over me. They flickers like stars. And now the secrets carefully kept inside run the streets red, Our chemicals spread, washing us through, making you mine... I come alive as the shadows parade. My hot summer blood comes in floods and in waves. Curbside confessions, no longer afraid of what you'll say. Now there are no words, only the glow in our wires. And so we will be, you turn slow to me... Our lips set the sun... (I'll never leave you...) The hills are on fire... Oh... I come alive as the shadows parade. My hot summer blood comes in floods and in waves. Curbside confessions, no longer afraid of what you'll say. my favorite love song

so.. its time for another blog. why? i actually have a reason this time.. unlike most the pointless random ones i usually post. i have good news, threefold. oh yes! 1. as some of you know, and most of you don't.. my boyfriend proposed to me. it was a few months ago. back in April. April 15th to be exact. anyway.. that's not the good news. this past Sunday we stayed up all night talking. and i mean ALL night. (i didn't go to sleep before i went to work.) we were talking about the future, our future together. one thing led to another and we set our wedding date! September 10, 2010. in reality we might change it to something sooner. because Zack is seriously thinking about moving here by the end of the summer. i'm not holding my breath, but its a possiblity. 2. its my birthday on Monday. i'm turing 24.. ew. but something still worth celebrating, i guess. haha 3. i got a promotion at work. no raise yet.. i'll get that when my 90-day probation period is over. i still help in the finishing department. but now am training in the kitting department, as well as working on pulling orders for the finishing department and ordering parts for stock and orders. its overwhelming and stressful. but eventually i'll get the hang of it. i sure like it better than working in finishing. okay.. i'm done now.