teqwuilla w8ress 4 club oasis's blog: "random"

K time to vent for a second. I want to let all the men out their know that a lady really does enjoy a nice guy. The thing is these guys come up all nice and start cting like you are dating when you have only known them a few hours and or have never even met them in person only online. Here's the thing, all the things you say and do are really cute IF WE WERE DATING!!!!!! but we aren't in fact I don't even know your real name yet, and knowing your real name wont change anything ok?????? I mean don't get me wrong its all good you flirting or whatever but sending millions of e-mails saying your waiting for me to get online or as soon as i'm online tellin me how long you waited... c'mon. A girl needs space now and then and she needs privacy. You don't need to know every little thing i do every day. I dont want to have to eplain to you that i was afk so long cuz I had to take a massive shit ok??? And I don't need you stalking me and saying you want to fly out and cuddle with me I DONT KNOW YOU!!!!!!! uh.... so thats my vent if you think someone you know needs to see it feel free to send them a link.

ppl that go around rerating for whatever reason!!! damn haters... what did i not rate you back fast enough?? i alwyas return 10's with 10's but i guess i didnt get back to this guy fast enough or some shit I donno. he rated me a ten then went back a few min later and rerated me a 4 WTF???? anyways jus thought i would vent a bit cuz ppl like this bug me. i mean if you really think i'm only a 4 then fine but don rate me a ten the rerate me a 4!!! my hell. for all my supporters here is his link: http://www.fubar.com/user/1142585

I dont want your number and I dont want you to call me I dont want to see you around and I hope you fall! you can say i'm a bitch or messed up but this is how i deal i hate you then I find someone new then I pretend i'm fine and when I walk past you i dont say hi and I dont want to be your friend I dont want to spend some time I dont want to talk it out or know what your about I jus want you to leave and me to grieve and time to pass and for me to call u an ass and to to prentend you didn't mean anything to me when we know i loved you but I'm want to lie and tell you to die and hope you fall for a bit it's just how I am because when i hurt its my problem and no one needs to know and you dont need to tell me you loved me too because its over and I'm done and I don't need know i dont need you i dont need to see you around i just want you to fall to the ground I eraesed your number and I dont want you to call dont u understand i just want you to fall

it has been too long its like i don't have time to be me anymore, and that's not right! work sucks, having 2 jobs sucks! having 2 baby boys is beautiful, i love my family! whatever happened to my theme? creative minds have no time, no time to be lost hated, or taken for granted, no time to be anything but themselves. Its just amazing to me. Times are changing but I have not changed, only my mindset has changed, prioraties have changed. why does everything have to change.... I'm tired, tired of exspectations and inclings of hope. I WANNA DO IT!!!! I want to be what I said I would be! I WANT TO MAKE IT!!! I want to go where I have always wanted to go! why is there so much sacrifice of ourselves? why does so much feel so inclined to just bust in and get in our way???? I don't think I am even meant to understand, so it does not really matter. things inlifew can not always be stopped, call it fate or our set course, but I'm going to make mine happen, you watch!

when I'm bored I tend to be stupid, and when I'm stupid I tend to tell people what I really think of then, and when that happens they end up not talking to me for a while, unless I told them I want them or think they are hot!!! When I"m bored I make things up, like that time I went to the ghost towne and pretended like I saw a ghost to make things interesting then everyone was freaked out whitch started to freak me out and I fell in that big mud puddle and then he got in trouble for the mud in the car because he wasn't even supposed to have the car... or when I sat with gordon watching fireworks feeling crazy on the 4th and we were with a whole bunch of ppl I dont know and I pretended I was high just to be funny and they al thought that i was but really i was bored out of my mind. When I'm bored I sometimes get to thinking about what Ihave done with my life and why I'm here and who I am and want to be. When I'm bored I'm told that there is this bitch mode that comes out because no one is entertaining me... When I'm bored I miss things, like my dog, and my house and my old car. When I'm bored I write random things that don't mean anything and sometimes people read them and get annoyed because it is a complete waste of time... LIKE NOW!!! CUZ I'M BORED

lost in this life i'm livin can't seem to find my way, like a blind man searchin in unfamiliar tarrain, and it's cold, no light on my soul i'm sinkin deeper in snow, i jus can't get out this hole, i gotta find my way, lets get a grip on things, and make sence of it all, i need somebody there for me that cares for me when i fall lost in this life i live in , i can't seem to find my way, like a blind man searching in unfamiliar tarrain and its cold, no light on my soul, I'm sinking deeper in snow, i jus can't get out this hole, i gotta find my way i'm lost chorus only, by the paper boys

not that it would come as a shock, after getting married and having a child with someone, and loving someone for so long, missing them just gets harder and harder, but what really sucks is that I know he will never change. Thats Just the way it is. I trusted him , I thought he would be the man he promised and when I found out he was worse than the man I feared I had to do something, I went about it the wrong way and for that I'm sorry, but now I know and he has moved on even though we are not yet divorced, and he is working with my brother for lack of being able to hold down any other job, so it just makes it hurt so much more to know that we will never be together again because he will never change, also he has moved on... but I still miss him and I think I always will, even though he isn't the one for me because he was not willing to be the man he should have been, or willing to fight for me... But I am missing him.