Joy the drug you cant resist's blog: "Random Thoughts"

I hate answering all the same, stupid questions over and over, especially since most of your answers can be found in my profile if you'd only take the time to read... So to address some of the things I encounter multiple times on a daily basis: *I will NOT show you my private folder. I don't care if you beg, whine, whatever. The answer is still no. *I will not send you "extra" pictures. What I have posted is all you're gonna see. *I have a son. He is 4 years old and he is my world. *I am NOT gonna have cyber or phone sex with you. Or for that matter, sex in real life. I don't need you to satisfy me. You probably couldn't anyway. *I do not own a web cam and even if I did, I would not be getting on it for you. *I will NOT talk dirty to you in the shoutbox, on a messenger, on the phone, in email, etc. *I will NOT hook up with one of my friends. Go find your own damn girls. *Yes, I am single. That does not mean I want a boyfriend and that does not mean I want to have sex randomly. *I'm in nursing school and will graduate in May. I'm going for my RN and I'm very excited about it. *I work on a medical floor as a nurse extern. I love my job, but its hard and sad and depressing, but its also rewarding. *Just because I have sexy pics with other girls does not mean I want to screw your girlfriend. In fact, I bet you don't even have a girlfriend. Go away. *Just because I have "sexy" pics up does not mean I'm a slut. It just means I like pictures. Big deal. *NOOOOOO, I don't wanna see your dick. I've seen enough. I can have one in real life. I don't wanna see yours. I've seen bigger and better, so don't embarass yourself. Stop showing me!!!! I really am a nice person but I'm getting so sick of men who cannot read. I know ya'll can't be *that* illiterate. So, please, be more respectful and we'll get along just fine.

I just want to vent for a minute. I know this an online thing and I really shouldn't care what people here think. But, that's besides the point. I have a pic of me in a bikini-like top and very short skirt (which was not how I was dressed all night anyhow) and some guy decided to leave me a comment that I won't repeat here, but basically said that I need to lose weight. Ouch. I'm not skinny, nor do I want to be. But I don't think I'm fat! Yeah, I do have a little "excess baggage" thanks to my 4-year-old. No matter what I've tried, my belly doesn't want to change, lol. So I've made peace with it. But for some stranger to come tell me that, yeah... my feelings were hurt. He just said I needed to have a sense of humor about it. So, just, wow. Most everyone here has been so kind, but this one little thing got me feeling kind of bad. Anyways, I just had to get that out. Love you all! Muah! xoxo Joy

My divorce is final but I'm trying to look on the upside of everything. I hope that one day, I will find true love, someone who is just as crazy as me, but still a softie underneath it all, lol. So, I'm a big quote person. I love good quotes. Love doesn't make the world go round. Love is what makes the ride worthwhile. -Franklin P. Jones If you have it [Love], you don't need to have anything else, and if you don't have it, it doesn't matter much what else you have. -Sir James M. Barrie Never look down on anybody unless you're helping him up. -Jesse Jackson Live as if you were to die tomorrow. Learn as if you were to live forever. -M.K. Gandhi Don't walk in front of me, I may not follow; Don't walk behind me, I may not lead; Walk beside me, and just be my friend. -Albert Camus The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched - they must be felt with the heart. -Helen Keller Some love lasts a lifetime. True love lasts forever. -Unknown You don't marry someone you can live with - you marry the person who you cannot live without. -Unknown A Little Boy's Temper There once was a little boy who had a bad temper. His father gave him a bag of nails and told him that every time he lost his temper, he must hammer a nail into the fence. The first day the boy had driven 37 nails into the fence. Over the next few weeks as he learned to control his anger, the number of nails hammered daily, gradually dwindled down. He discovered it was easier to hold his temper than to drive those nails into the fence. Finally the day came when the boy didn't lose his temper at all. He told his father about it and the father suggested that the boy now pull out one nail for each day that he was able to hold his temper. The days passed and the young boy was finally able to tell his father that all the nails were gone. The father took his son by the hand and led him to the fence. He said "you have done well, my son, but look at the holes in the fence. The fence will never be the same. When you say things in anger, they leave a scar just like this one." You can put a knife in a man and draw it out. It won't matter how many times you say I'm sorry, the wound is still there. Make sure you control your temper the next time you are tempted to say something you will regret later. Author Unknown Heaven and Hell A man spoke with the Lord about heaven and hell. The Lord said to the man "come, I will show you hell." They entered a room where a group of hungry people sat around a huge pot of cooking stew. Everyone in the room was starving. Each person held a spoon that reached the pot but each spoon had a handle so much longer than their own arms that it could not be used to get the stew into their own mouths. The suffering was terrible. "Come now, I will show you heaven" the Lord said. They entered a room identical to the first, the big pot of stew, the group of people and the same long-handled spoons. But here everyone was happy and well nourished. "I don't understand" said the man. "Why is everyone happy here and miserable in the other room? Everything is the same." "Here, said the Lord, they have learned to SERVE each other."

Written by a housewife from New Jersey! This is one ticked off lady. "Are we fighting a war on terror or aren't we? Was it or was it not started by Islamic people who brought it to our shores on September 11, 2001? Were people from all over the world, mostly Americans, not brutally murdered that day, in downtown Manhattan , across the Potomac from our nation's capitol and in a field in Pennsylvania ? Did nearly three thousand men, women and children die a horrible, burning or crushing death that day, or didn't they? And I'm supposed to care that a copy of the Koran was "desecrated" when an overworked American soldier kicked it or got it wet?... Well, I don't. I don't care at all. I'll start caring when Osama bin Laden turns himself in and repents for incinerating all those innocent people on 9/11. I'll care about the Koran when the fanatics in the Middle East start caring about the Holy Bible, the mere possession of which is a crime in Saudi Arabia . I'll care when these thugs tell the world they are sorry for hacking off Nick Berg 's head while Berg screamed through his gurgling slashed throat. I'll care when the cowardly so-called "insurgents" in Iraq come out and fight like men instead of disrespecting their own religion by hiding in mosques. I'll care when the mindless zealots who blow themselves up in search of nirvana care about the innocent children within range of their suicide bombs. I'll care when the American media stops pretending that their First Amendment liberties are somehow derived from international law instead of the United States Constitution's Bill of Rights. In the meantime, when I hear a story about a brave marine roughing up an Iraqi terrorist to obtain information, know this: I don't care. When I see a fuzzy photo of a pile of naked Iraqi prisoners who have been humiliated in what amounts to a college-hazing incident, rest assured: I don't care. When I see a wounded terrorist get shot in the head when he is told not to move because he might be booby-trapped, you can take it to the bank: I don't care. When I hear that a prisoner, who was issued a Koran and a prayer mat, and fed "special" food that is paid for by my tax dollars, is complaining that his holy book is being "mishandled," you can absolutely believe in your heart of hearts: I don't care. And oh, by the way, I've noticed that sometimes it's spelled "Koran" and other times "Quran." Well, Jimmy Crack Corn and-you guessed it-I don't care !! If you agree with this viewpoint, re[post for our fubar friends. Sooner or later, it'll get to the people responsible for this ridiculous behavior! If you don't agree, don't read it..... Should you choose the latter, then please don't complain when more atrocities committed by radical Muslims happen here in our great Country! And may I add: "Some people spend an entire lifetime wondering if they made a difference in the world. But, the Marines don't have that problem." -- Ronald Reagan I have another quote that I would like to add AND.......I hope you forward all this. "If we ever forget that we're One Nation Under God, then we will be a nation gone under." Also by.. Ronald Reagan One last thought for the day: In case we find ourselves starting to believe all the Anti-American sentiment and negativity, we should remember England 's Prime Minister Tony Blair 's words during a recent interview. When asked by one of his Parliament members why he believes so much in America , he said: "A simple way to take measure of a country is to look at how many want in... And how many want out." Only two defining forces have ever offered to die for you: 1. Jesus Christ 2. The American G. I. One died for your soul, the other for your freedom.

NOTE TO MEN: I'm feeling atypically romantic right now. My friends know why, so I won't post it on here. ;) So, I came across this website and found some sweet love quotes and whatnot. So, don't read if you don't like sappiness, haha. There is only one happiness in life, to love and be loved. - George Sand You know you are in love when you see the world in her eyes, and her eyes everywhere in the world. - David Levesque To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world. - Bill Wilson Love reminds you that nothing else matters. - Amy Bushell A Friend's Love says: " If you ever need anything, I'll be there." True Love says: " You'll never need anything; I'll be there." - Jimi Hollemans The way to love anything is to realize that it might be lost. - G. K. Chesterton Love is when you look into someone's eyes and see their heart. - Jill Petty You don't marry someone you can live with, you marry the person who you cannot live without. -Author Unknown The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched - they must be felt with the heart. - Helen Keller Real love stories never have endings. - Richard Bach To love is to receive a glimpse of heaven.~ Karen Sunde You come to love not by finding the perfect person, but by seeing an imperfect person perfectly. ~ by Sam Keen And some love song lyrics 'cause I'm in a sappy mood, lol.... Lying here with you, listening to the rain Smiling just to see the smile upon your face These are the moments I thank God that I’m alive These are the moments I’ll remember all my life I found all I’ve waited for and I could not ask for more Looking in your eyes, seeing all I need Everything you are is everything to me These are the moments I know heaven must exist These are the moments I know all I need is this I have all I’ve waited for And I could not ask for more -"I Could Not Ask for More," Edwin McCain I have been blessed And I feel like I've found my way I thank God for all I've been given At the end of every day I have been blessed With so much more than I deserve To be here with the ones That love me To love them so much it hurts I have been blessed -"Blessed," Martina McBride You were born to be my baby And baby, I was made to be your man We got something to believe in Even if we don't know where we stand Only God would know the reasons But I bet he must have had a plan Cause you were born to be my baby And baby, I was made to be your man -"Born to be My Baby," Bon Jovi Like a river flows surely to the sea Darling so it goes some things are meant to be take my hand, take my whole life too for I can't help falling in love with you -"Can't Help Falling in Love," Elvis Presley To really love a woman Let her hold you Do you know how she needs to be touched ? You gotta breath her Really taste her To you can feel her in your blood Then when you can see your unborn children in her eyes You know you really love a woman -"Have You Ever Really Loved a Woman?," Bryan Adams I'll never break your heart I'll never make you cry I'd rather die, then live without you I'll give you all of me, honey that's no lie -"I'll Never Break Your Heart," Backstreet Boys (suck, i know.... haha) I see the questions in your eyes I know what´s weighing on your mind You can be sure I know my heart `Coz I´ll stand beside you through the years you´ll only cry those happy tears And though I make mistakes I´ll never break your heart -"I Swear," All 4 One I tip my hat to the keeper of the stars He sure knew what he was doin' When he joined these two hearts I hold everything When I hold you in my arms I've got all I'll ever need Thanks to the keeper of the stars -"Keeper of the Stars," Tracy Byrd Tell her that you love her Tell her that you need her Tell her that you want her to stay Reassure her with a kiss She may never know unless you Show her what you're feeling Tell her you´re believing Even though it´s hard to say ´Cause she needs to know you´re thinking of her So open up and tell her that you love her -"Tell Her," Lonestar Because of you I forgot the smart ways to lie Because of you I'm running out of reasons to cry When the friends are gone When the party's over We will still belong to each other -"Underneath Your Clothes," Shakira Unforgettable in every way And forever more, that's how you'll stay That's why, darling, it's incredible That someone so unforgettable Thinks that I am unforgettable too -"Unforgettable," Nat King Cole The smile on your face lets me know that you need me There's a truth in your eyes sayin' you'll never leave me The touch of your hand says you'll catch me if ever I fall You say it best when you say nothing at all -"When You Say Nothing At All," Alison Krauss my pain is caused by my pleasure my soul mate lives in your body I can't get you out of my head It never goes away In my life I'll need you here, don't ask why I'll never disappear "Moon Baby," Godsmack Every day lend me your own special way Melt all my heart away with a smile Take time to tell me You really care And we'll share tomorrow together -"Always and Forever," Luther VanDross Buy me a rose, call me from work Open the door for me what would it hurt Show me you love me by the look in your eyes These are the little things I need the most in my life -"Buy Her a Rose," Kenny Rogers On my knees, I'll ask Last chance for one last dance 'Cause with you, I'd withstand All of Hell to hold your hand I'd give it all, I'd give for us Give anything but I won't give up -"Far Away," Nickelback I can love you like that I would make you my world Move heaven and earth if you were my girl I would give you my heart Be all that you need Show you you're everything That's precious to me If you give me a chance I can love you like that -"I Can Love You Like That," All 4 One My mind fails to understand What my heart tells me to do And I'd give up all I have just to be with you And that would do I've always been taught to win And I never thought I'd fail Be at the mercy of a man, I've never been Now I only want to be right where you are -"I Wanna Love You Forever," Jessica Simpson

This is just a vent. Nothing big, just thought I'd "get it out." Okay, I know I'm not the hottest girl around, and that's okay. But out of all the hundreds of rates (all 10s and some 11s), I have had 2 different people rate my 5 public pics as 7s. WHat gives? What did I do to you? If you don't like what you see, you don't have to rate, especially when you aren't even man (or woman) enough to put your name on there. Yeah, "someone" rated me a 7. It's stupid. I'm not a rate whore, but come on. If you're going to do something that is supposed to be insulting, at least show me who the hell you are. Probably not much to look at so you gotta hide like a scared little bitch. Whatever. Okay, enough bitchiness over something trivial. Rant over. ***EDIT: It's not the lower rating that bugs me; to each his own, ya know? It's that they want to be anonymous doing it. Be a man and show me who you are. That's all. After all, you wouldn't rate someone a 10 anonymously.

It's my second Christmas without my mom and I found this poem. I thought it was sweet and touching. I'm Spending Christmas With Jesus Christ This Year by Wanda Bencke I see the countless Christmas trees Around the world below, With tiny lights like heaven's stars Reflecting in the snow. The sight is so spectacular Please wipe away that tear For I'm spending Christmas With Jesus Christ this year. I hear the many Christmas songs That people hold so dear But earthly music can't compare With the Christmas choir up here. I have no words to tell you The joy their voices bring For it's beyond description To hear the angels sing. I know how much you miss me, Trust God and have no fear For I'm spending Christmas With Jesus Christ this year. I can't tell you of the splendor Or the peace here in this place. Can you imagine Christmas With our Savior, face to face? May God uplift your spirit As I tell Him of your love Then pray for one another As you lift your eyes above. So let your hearts be joyful And let your spirits sing For I'm spending Christmas in Heaven And I'm walking with the king!