First off.. I want to say I am sorry that I am not the strong girl you all think I am. I am not as strong as you give me credit for.

Secondly, I am trying really REALLY hard to be postive, but it's hard since negative is all I have ever known. My jealousy over the women here gets stuck in my head. When I do get talked to here, it's only one, two, MAYBE three lines of conversation...they say they are busy, but they forget the Live Feed..they are busy commenting back and forth with the other women. Having fun with them. And I don't get that here anymore.

And reciently, a few men have come to me and tell me how great ANOTHER woman is over and over and over for days until I had to tell them to leave me alone about her... If you hear this all the time.. it plays with your head.. I mean.. HELLO!!!! Am I not a woman too? Or do the men here think of me as "Just one of the guys"? Gods I really HATE that saying. I can't stand it. Am I not worth the fun conversations, the fun comments, a simple HELLO? If I'm not, tell me now so I can remove you from my list..

I know I am not her, I know I am not like the other women.. all I can be is me. I am going to go through all my pictures and weed through them and delete most of the pictures of ME. I don't need the crap on here anymore. One or two pictures of me is enough. Hell, I really dont know how many I will keep. But i do know one thing.... I am working my ass off to be the woman you all want me to be.. aka.. more positive. But i can't do it alone.. Friendships work both ways. Don't forget that. I won't sit here and watch all the fun anymore. I will either be spoken to more or I just won't be here. Its just that simple. I am worth a hell of a lot more than i am getting here.

Thank you for reading this...Cassie-aka-Vampy!