I feel my soul inside, feel it torn in two.
Its a mockery unto life itself, not even a shadow of what it could be.
I lost the love I should have had.
You were there like no others, showing you cared in a subtle manner.
When the world didn't care, you had.
When I didn't have the power to go on, you shared yours.
Strength was never a problem for you,
You had strength I've never before seen in a man.
I've lost you and can't find you.
You live in a different place than me,
A place I cant visit when I want.
And even if I could, would you even want me to?
It's hard not knowing, but I try to work past it.
I've tried to think of you as moved on, but I still have hope that you still want me.
I tell myself that you're dead, in hopes that I could move on.
If only I could forget.
Forgetting the past would make it easier,
But forgetting the past also means erasing the memories.
It's funny, but my favorite memories are the ones where I was mad at you.
The enduring love I had for you, still have for you, Allowed me to always forgive you.
I still need you, for you helped me to live.
My soul was whole and as one with you in my life.
I can never be whole again without you.
I've tried, but I've failed, and cried myself to sleep each night.
Even though we no longer talk, I still feel that I belong to you.
That even by talking to another guy, I'm going against your trust.
I know I need to go on, but I need your help.
Tell me you no longer love me, that you're better off without me.
Break my heart if you must.
But if you still care, If you still want me, then come rescue me.
I'm yours forever, just help my soul to heal.
