Lil Red Vixen's blog: "Poetry"

It was not so long ago when I thought I'd never meet someone like you. Wrong was I, thinking I'm in control Believing I'd never fall. All my life I thought no one would melt a heart like mine, a heart so cold, a heart hardened by the past, protected by shields so vast. Slowly I was falling without even knowing. Only to find out too late I have no choice but to accept my fate. I could dream, I suppose forever, I could hope there will never be any 'us', that's our destiny so I wake up to reality. I lied when I said I didn't love you, that my feelings for you are through. I lied not because I wanted to but because I love you and I still do. I wouldn't do a thing to hurt you but I just have to let go. I can't hold on much longer 'coz for us there's no forever.

How can you ache and crave for someone's touch When you have never felt it? I do this for yours, though, And the yearning grows more each day I have never wanted anything in my life As much as I want you When you whisper such sweet love In my ear when we talk You make me melt into a puddle Of complete helplessness You have become my every waking thought And my every dream at night I breathe in so hard Trying to catch my breath when we can't talk I close my eyes so tight Hoping when I open them you will be there But I know I have to wait Until the time is right It seems so far away That I think I am losing my mind I want to breathe in your scent And keep it with me all day long I want to taste your love for me By kissing your sweet lips I want to feel your body next to me So when you leave for awhile I can hold on I just want you to know That I really do love you When the day comes and we are together You will always know and feel this I will always hug, kiss and love you Every moment of the day and night ...You will never have another touch unfelt

The moment I opened my heart and let you in I saw this great love starting to begin. I opened my eyes to a vision of you I hope, I pray your feelings are true. I have loved and I have paid the cost And I have felt the pain of the love I lost. But, now, I think I have truly found An Angel who walks upon the ground. You go beyond all limits for me Just to show your love endlessly. I could search my whole life through And never find another 'you'. You are so special that I wanted you to know I truly, completely love you so.

You're the first thing I think of Each morning when I rise. You're the last thing I think of Each night when I close my eyes. You're in each thought I have And every breath I take. My feelings are growing stronger With every move I make. I want to prove I love you But that's the hardest part. So, I'm giving all I have to give To you... I give my heart.

When you find yourself on your own, Remember that you are not alone, And when your feeling down and blue, Remember that I'll always love you. When I am not here with you, Remember that our love is pure and true, I think about you every night and day, When Im with you I want to stay. I hope you will always remember me, Coz' I will remember you for eternity I never want to let you go, Coz' I love you more than you could ever know. If there was anything I could do, I would do it just to please you, You know its well and truly true, I would do anything for you. When your looking at the stars, in the eternal blue Remember that each star out there Is a reason why I love you And when you think your alone, and when no one is there at all I'll be right in front of you, to catch you when you fall .

One of these days you'll look back to see... that I was always there but you were never there for me. One of these days your heart will start to ache... then you'll realize there was a risk you needed to take. One of these days you'll look around for me... I will be gone but I am yours eternally. One of these days the thought will be too much to bear... just say you love me and I'll be there.

Cannot go forward, cannot go back, Wishing that I could drop dead in my tracks. I know I am leaving something behind, And it is tearing my spirit inside. Choices have always made me aware Of contradictions in me - so unfair! It seems that it all has to come down to me. I wonder if someone my struggles can see? Self-hatred, self-torment - familiar sight! Alone, be alone, and from it all hide - That's my first impulse that won't get me far. Is that way for many, or is it my star? Maybe I should have simply there stayed, And prevented the so unknown fate That chills me and makes me so scared. Who knows how I would have otherwise faired? But my life has passed in change after change, Now in security I feel too strange, And my restless heart does make me go on. Moving and shifting is ever my song!