Midnight Rose's blog: "poems written for my kids"

From a child's eyes i have seen the pain I have wiped away the tears that fell from your eyes. But i cant change what has happened. From a child's eyes i see that they are hurting and i cant stop the pain. I cant stop the tears from falling. Your little heart has been broken from someone that was dear to you someone who you looked up to. Some one mommy thought she could trust. From a child's eyes i wonder what i could have done to prevent you lives from being turned inside out. From a child's eyes. I wonder why. The angels are guiding you tonight while you sleep keeping those painful memories away. From my eyes I see the most precious children, but i see the anger the hurt, i see the way things use to be, and wonder will it ever be that way again. From a child's eyes.

For every heartbeat i think of you my son. For every candle lit i say a prayer for you my son. I cant hold you in you in my arms or wipe away your tears, but i can wish for you the best. You did something that hurt us, but i dont love you any less. I love you and i brought you into this world i will love you to the day i die. I may never see you again, but i will never stop thinking about the days we did have together, although it was short the memories were built and they will always be treasured forever. You were special from the start, the day I brought you into this world. For every heartbeat i think of you cause that is why my heart beats. If i had to give up my life to save yours i would do it cause i know my heart still beats. I live for you my son and though you have had a pretty rough life i did what i could for you and i would do it all over again if i had to. For you my heartbeats and for you i go on. Even though you arent here my son, you will never be that far away. Cause my heart still beats for you. I love you my son

This time, this place doesnt seem the same anymore, you know i love you, and i always will love you. We've all made mistakes, i wont give up on you. This time, this place, and if i never see you again i will always keep you close in my heart. My son i love you, even though you are far away in my heart you are close, and in this time and in this place the memories will always be here to remind me that in this time and in this place there was some good times. Even though the tears fell the day we took you away to stay with someone else. I will always remember the last hug the last i love you. i love you my son. This time this place will never be the same.

No more tucking you in at night, no more bed time prayers, no more playing ball, no more cheering you on when you make a home run. no more I love you mommy, no more hugs saying i care. no more picking you up when you fall. It all seemed so easy then, but now I only pray that you will someday take me back in your arms, and say mom I understand. I miss you son. I miss all the times we did share together. I look at pictures of you and I together when we were a family. I miss it all so very much. The tears are falling, and I only wish you were here.

I wiped away your tears, fed you when you were hungry, played ball when you were old enough. Times have changed since then, now only memories of the days gone by. You grew up and I watched it all in the pictures i got. There's no more playing ball I love you mom I miss so much. It tears me apart that i didnt see the pain that were feeling deep inside. I looked away for just a moment turned around and you were gone. I cant be there this time to wipe away your tears. I love you my son, there's no turning back the pages of time. I wish there was though cause you'd be back in my arms again. I love you my son.

Like a bird with broken wings, they have to learn how to fly. Like a child taken there first steps, they fall and get up again. This time my son you have fallen, and i can't help you. Broken Wings you must learn on your own. Although it hurts and I can't stop the tears from falling, I can only hope and pray that you'll understand, and someday love me again. Like a bird with broken wings you have to learn how to fight. I love you my son, I will always remember the days we did have together, the memories will never be forgot. Broken wings someday they will be fixed, and someday we will be together again, I love you my son.

I watched you grow up in pictures. Everyday i always wondered what i could have done differently. I remember holding you in my arms, at times I wondered if I could raise you on my own, but I knew there would be along hard road ahead of me. I choose to walk away, not because I didnt love you, but because i loved you very much. I wanted so bad to stay and raise you. With tears in my eyes I turned and walked away. You deserved so much more then I could have given you. I left you in good hands, but the hardest part was watching you grow up in pictures.

From the day you were born, i held you close, counted your fingers and your toes. i hugged you told you that i loved you. You grew up so fast, before i knew it you were chasing girls down, don't think i was quite prepared for it all. Now that you arent here it breaks my heart. I never saw the signs, the signs that you were hurting. I may never see you again, but in my heart i will always keep you close. Your my son, and i love you. I stair at your picture, and wonder why with tears in my eyes. Where it all went wrong I sure wish i knew. From the day you were born I knew i would love you till the day i died, you were special from the start, and you will always be special in my eyes. I miss you.