Sweet Lil Wicked One's blog: "Please feel free to vent..."

I'll be seeing a proper specialist for this vertigo junk. I pray this place can help me, or make things better enough that I'm not totally dependent on my family or stay a burden as they take care of me. Oh yeah...I fell again, I must have the hardest head.. I'm walking to get more crushed ice in my h2o cup, KATHUNK~ I woke up flat on my back on the ceramic tile of the kitchen looking at the ceiling, still holding the newly filled ice cup. Go figure. Peace and Blessings to all~ Sweet Lil Wicked One with a headache to rival that of an axe in the brain.

if he thinks he can talk to me like he does. And fucking blaming me for every illness, every medical bill. FUCK!Q!! Has it ever ooccurred to you that I might be exhausted from being sick and/or injured all the time. And btw, 5 herniated discs, a fractured coccyx, fibromyalgia, and now SEVERE VERTIGO are all my fault (fucktard) and I receive so much pleasure from the concussion I recently sustained because of the Vertigo. It's awesome to be able to see my bottom and top eyelids from where I fell and lay there screaming for help. Yeah, that was a blast. FUCK U AND THE HORSE YOU RODE IN ON, Pal Furthermore, how the fuck can he tell me he was my personal "N" (this word rhymes with bigger), to serve me and basicaly be a martyr for his acts of service. *you may now put on your ear muffs, or plugs because I'm going to scream so loud and high, it'll make Mariah Carey's shrill screams seem like that of a mouse.* UHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU you ignorant asshole. I've taken care of you with no meanness, or bitterness, you Dick

Dear Friends , family and fans--- I have aevere case of vertigo ( for those who don't know what it is, it's like the world is spinning outta control and your eyes can't keep up the pace) Right now, I have blurred vision, dizziness, and faint. I've suffered 4 concussions over the last 3 weeks. I'm under a group of Doctor's care and some meds actually keep me normal for about 15 minutes, or I'm back in orbit again. Maybe some of you will read this, as I'm hoping you will. my visits here will probably be sporadic. Just wanted you all to know that I'm not ignoring you, nor am I blowing anyone off, I'm just trying to get better. Those of you who know the home #, call if ya want--- and my email addy is blonde_reality@yahoo.com xxooo, Ashleigh

She was so kind and so fun to be around. When the news of her suicide, and how her youngest daughter heard a gunshot...the held the dead mother's body, it broke my heart for all 4 of her girls, 2 new grandchildren, and one on the way. She appeared so strong and her husband a stern but friendly man, were talking about divorce. He intimidated her. He said he'd get custody of the girls-- and in one desparate moment, she'd had enough of his rage. I have known that feeling too, but her precious smiles, goofy humor, and genuine love for her friends and family was not enough to keep her from shooting herself in the head. When a person is told they are useless, and all sorts of threats are made, all one can think of is: "Oh my God! what are we going to ? how will the girls and I survive?" I'm sure she believed that she wasn't beautiful, And I don't know what if she thought of anything except that gaping hole of desperation. Since he told her she was nothing, I'm pretty sure that she thought he'd be the better parent. HE KILLED HER---LONG BEFORE SHE KILLED HERSELF. As far as your husband goes, HE'S NOT WORTH THE VOMIT OF THE DEVIL!!! ONEDAY HE'LL MISS HER AND WISH HE Could've been more understanding, supportive loving and kind. I just wish we had that day back, maybe the bullet will have his name written on it. I would've taken pleasure stomping his body deeper than six feet under. This really hurts, but her family is going through it tenfold. RIP Lauren You will be missed, remembered and loved always.