aim2gethigh's blog: "Personal Thoughts...."

Just thought I should clarify for those that dont know how fucking retarded i can be when i am bored... sometimes i get so F-ing bored, i will post the craziest, stupidest shit (BLOG) just to see what some one will say and SOMETIMES i get to participate in an arguement with someone over some irrelevant stupid shit meanwhile i am able to sit back and be amused that some people have so little to worry about (stressfree) that they can get wrapped up in some retarded stupid joke that i posted... FUTURE WARNING FOR THOSE WITH THIN SKIN...!!! LMAO! PS: no need to reply just to tell me I am weird...I KNOW this..and my friends remind me constantly...but at least im good fun at parties.. he he he he he h

So I go to work early, before most. I go to the armoury to check out my rifles, praying they are clean and operational. I go to Trans and check out vans, praying they have cruise control. I drive 5 hours to a small town in TX, listening to the radio and laughing with friends. I get to my destination, and we all fight about where to eat lunch. Finally we eat, and leave. I drive to a church, wondering where I will change clothes, praying its not a restroom. I put on a uniform, celebrated by some, hated by others, but praying I havent forgotten anything back home. I carry a soul, fold a flag, shoot my rifle, play a song, salute and leave. I now look back at what I have just accomplished, what is it that i just did and I feel ashamed. How could I be so selfish. I just paid respect to a fallen HERO, a veteran. Yet all I remember is how long the drive was, where I ate, where I changed clothes, how hot it was, and how long it lasted. I could not tell you his name, or what his rank was. I feel like I have played that part of a fool- produced, directed, and staring me. How could I fall into such a self-centered spiral. Looking inward instead of out. I promise here, I swear now, Never will I lay another brother, another veteran, down to rest and not know his name and rank. Never again will I worry about me while serving his family the respect and honor he served his country for his entire life. I may not of known him, but I owe him everything. I found a problem and I am fixing it.

Just wondering? When people say they are going to do something, anything really, start a new job...have a baby...join the military...do they ever really think about what they are doing? What that decision will mean to them? Maybe I am just crazy, but if you are going to devote a part of your life to something...and yes just about every major thing i listed requires some devotion to...you HAVE to know what you are getting into. You have to be prepared to be the best at what every it is. Why does it seem as though countless people are jumping head first into life altering choices just because they think that "it was a good idea at the time" and they end up not having done any research, any reading, no questions asked...just wing it and see what happens? really? Folks that do this...PLEASE... understand that you are someone in the world that affects others and even if you never want to be judged, labeled, or WTF ever else you want to call it..you ARE! If i start a new job and suck at it, then thats my "name" i am dragging through the dirt. if i decide to have a baby with someone, but turn out to be the worse father in the world, thats a life i have ruined (unfairly), if i join the military and choose to not apply myself then thats the country i am letting down and again its my good name, good family name i am tarnishing. If you want to suck at life and be a bum, or a argue/fight/etc with everything that the society that i have choosen to live in, believes, then i have helped narrow the problem with the world...it would be ME. If i choose to get a job, walk around with a "I dont give a F^*# attitude, and get fired...its not their fault, it would be mine. some people need to wake the F up, grow the F up, and take responsibility for their own actions... there is my soap box for the night...PEACE!