okay so here it is this is going to be a long drawn out blog so if you dont care then just go back and stop reading. Now i am not going to use any names because this place is too public and I dont want to upset the person this is about. Anyway so lets start from the begining last october I met this girl she had just been hired at my job and I saw her walking around the store so I said hello tried to make friends.
I learned very quick that she was special and we quickly became good friends. we watched football games together went to dennys even took her daughter to see santa during christmas time. Every second spent with her made me look at her in a different light she started to mean more to me then just a friend but she also was always with someone so I spent my time writing about how I felt and getting things off my chest to my other friend brian.
so I became that very close friend that she needed because I just wanted her to be happy and things stayed like this for a while. she was not stupid in the slightest though and figured out how I felt. Yet still we didnt confront each other about it. fast forward to this june she comes up to me and tells me chris I am moving to south carolina and all I can remember is my heart literally breaking and just the feeling that I was losing someone who meant more to me then anyone before.
So I go out and buy these american Idol tickets because she is crazy about one of them. I figured hey if she was going to leave I am going to send her off right and it was a great time one of the best nights in my life.
Then morning came and I remember being so sad that she left that before work I drove by her house just hoping that something stalled her long enough for me to see her one last time but it was too late. I was late to work that day.
Now I walk around vineland and millvile just trying to remember what it was like with her here and how much I wish that she never left but she did and I have to deal with that. She is the one girl in my life that I can truly say I loved and still do. I will do anything for her even if I had to walk to SC just to make it happen she is more important then anything here in jersey which is why I am taking my vacation to go see her.
I have since now told her how I feel even though it didnt change a thing. Even with all the people telling me that going down there is rediculous I dont care there could be a million reasons not to but the fact that i love her would still remain and that is the most important thing of all.
Just remember I love you now and always. waiting an eternity would still be well worth it.
