you know when ya just have to write about something cuz the light is brighter in your world and you can't do much of anything but express how ya feel.
Now that the dark cloud of stupidness and lies and deceit and someone not being totally loyal to me has passed, i've come to this bright light.. i have been brought to what i call a new breath of fresh air.. i'm not clouded with all the pain or crying tears of a person who just didn't want to be real.. Being real to me is coming right to me and being upfront and honest.. about their life, wants and desires . knowing of the risks that person takes and is willing to take a journey with me in this life together.
My heart yeah its big, n do i care about the left of the remains of someone that could lie to anyone just by looking at you .. yes i do.. but thats cuz it was 3 years of alot of conversations, either good or bad.. i'm guessing i had a lot of false promises given to me, hearing and seeing for myself that it was more of a game to her than wanting to have a relationship with someone who would be real through all the bullshit that has happened in life..
My new life well lets just say i'm happy that someone is looking at me for me.. yes i'm an asshole but i have my many reasons to be that way, but i am happy that i can stand on my own 2 feet and not let my thoughts get to me.. Communication and truth is what is always beautiful.. everything is always on the table and no hidden agendas or lies. Im happy that i am able to step forward into this new light and be free from fake ass people .. a saying i have said before.. COME REAL OR DONT COME AT ALL