ghost1369's blog: "my words"

Hopes and dreams are empty promises you make yourself Only reality can set your soul at ease when it's gone Pushing forward going backwards in the eyes of confusion Instinctively letting go of your own thoughts and cares Never gets you anywhere except falling alone and empty Gathering all the truth behind all the darkest lies of humanity Together with your emptiness in a world which dont care However unspoken words can paint a much bigger picture Everyday you wake brings you closer to the ultimate endding Each moment of clarity brings you to the breaking point Not even a single care of one's own life will begin to help Doesn't matter what you do you'll never gain true serenity Watching time go by in an inferno of disgust and animosity Inches you closer to the true meaning of internal hatred Loathing your exsistance believing that it can't be real Living in a dream of someone else's own rotten mind Consequence deadly savagely beaten into a pool of blood Original you fades into the bright darkness of forgotten days Mesmerized by the meaningless words in which everyone speaks Enoughs enough the truth will set your soul free from my grasp Singing your lullaby into an empty crowd of gathered flesh Opens the gates for all to throw stones, noone is without sin Order your meals filled with maggots on top of bloody lies Noone will ever take the effort to make a stand in empathy Either gone is your soul or just a rotting corpse of death Remember there is no truth just words which you speak Truth is inevitable death is what we are all here to finish Halted by the days from which you wake in a groggy fog Asking will it be that just for one second a single clear thought None the less the bottle which shall be your only true friend Lets you be without harrasing your every move when your still And the only relative thought you can speak in actual word Trying to live wanting to die and you can't even say why that is Every action has a reaction every reaction has a consequence Regardless of which This means alot to me and noone will ever understand it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I never got to say goodbye it happened just to fast With this I speak my final words here and now at last I invisioned a world, a life which the two of us would share Forever and a day, a very long time thought our love would take us there Your beauty amazed me everyday, and more deeply my love would grow I took pleasure in knowing that you were mine and how such happiness I could know Everytime you touched me I lost my breath a feeling I never wanted to lose I could get lost in your eyes for days at a time, my favorite of all the views When we kissed it sent shivers right through my spine I knew you were the one Who I could give my whole heart my life and my soul, but now that all is done We've been through this before time and again but never with this much pain From this day fourth and years to come, our memories will leave my crying in the rain You'll never know just how much you meant or how much love I have for you I'm sorry for everything that I have said or may have done to hurt you to I wish in the end we can still be friends I would hate to lose that too I'll love you until the day I die and I hope you find happiness in whatever you do I wish you the best my beautiful angel, spread your wings and fly From the bottom of my heart with all of my love this is my last goodbye! "I will always love you beautiful forever and a day"

God damn it. I left the house without my phone and fucked up a good opertunity. Well depending on what you call opertunity. It was to me anyway.. There's no excuse I went and fucked up. I was where I said I would be but unfortunately no way of getting in contact. I'm sorry yet again I'm an asshole. My fault.