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Be mine we cannot bear the only thing i ever really loved was hate i never wanted any body more than i wanted you your mine your mine mine ill die on the ground before i let my love burn away obsession take another look anybody i wont let you go be honest be precious be mine feed from the hand you bite take all thats left away you are something less you deserve it i cant make you real so make me real i never wanted anbody more than you pathetic happy servant be mine you sufered than now sufer under me our future seems like the past we cannot kill what we did not create i got say what i gotta say i cant promise youll enjoy the pain be mine inside a twisted little fantasy ill be there for you until my heart is black and blue then ill die your mind in mine set loose let it out be mine or move on cause right now you dont care for me at all be my deception concurr all my thouhgts i loved you your all i need to survive relive memories be mine dont be wanted you was hate... if you wanna be free observant i want you i need you i love you desert me die if you want obssession be mine... be free from this bessession or give in resession stab me i like it more than you break the bones and peel the skin seperate me this way how i taste is what you feel be mine obssession you were nothing more nothing less obsession you deserve it you dont deserve me until you know whats the image in the mirror

burn away our memories this is you this is me im begging now probly pleading i never have before or at least not this way this is what youve done you have come to clean it up you are the only way out my only escape i wish you felt the same all this pain it lives in me all the vein is in the mirror why do you judge when you do not know look a little harder maybe then youll see the true me i have no one now its getting dark i hope you know you were the day i hope you die swallowed alive consumed with regret taking all my sorrow all my pain if you had stayed maybe then youd see inside of me i dont know why i never told you but its too late now we arent going back and if you wanted too then take my hand ill take you there where we can be together there i have one wish on my list that you never filled you never gave never tried maybe you knew but i was the fool to say you wouldve taken it away but now its far too late to put a band aid on the cuts you made on my heart on my soul in my skin deep within you left me no choice im too scared back me into a corner like you always do but this time i hope it works i wont fight let go of your hate as you leave another victim deserted say it one more time so i can go happy maybe then i wont die we lived but you stopped it i cant spit back in your face not for the first time but i will if i need i never have and i never will we have died as you made sure of this put the last bullet in taped our thoughts together put it in its place as i start to fall and shatter its not remakable this time we cant be as it was as we were i wont let it now realizing whats under my tongue i can make it far enough to your face maybe then youll shut the **** up i hope you let go so i can too maybe lose all control leave you as a whole person for the hundreth time i will crawl back like a leech like a lizard i love you you hate me poison the words ive known to a making of your own when i lost it all you were there to throw me down ill try to build a wall around you in my thoughts but some how you find a way out like you always do i always help you over i think i like the pain you put me through like i hope you make it out make me mad make me sad enraged i wont fight not on the outside ill battle my feelings of you until the real me goes away fades into all the darkness i once loved until you came bright as the sun my skin is white like snow now ill stay alone until you come back never will i feel this way again crazy and pathetic stretching to your will bending to your every whim what i ask of you is that you stay with me dont leave me i wnt make it this time or i will simply admire you from a distance like i once did act like i didnt know you feel like i shouldnt like i wouldnt be deserving to feel your words in my mind ever again i cant spit back i cant piece it all together again we will never be the same we will never be again this is how i hope the story doesnt end for then we would end the end.

today i died again this day we died though nothing was mine we had fallen in love but things never like to go my way now we are sitting here not talking at all we couldnt care either we are scared or pretending to be or were shy cause we might fall wipe the tears off hurt so many times failed to find what we found in eachother some one to trust so we have we have now what we had before (nothing) i am sad and you hate me take me take it all away before i take it from you but you never cared i cried not at all not for you but for the pain you caused me i can barely walk this is your disease gave it to me you gave me all though i never wanted it if i have to ill push you out of my mind this was my only reason to cry wed fallen in love but these good things never last now im here depressed and decaying for you today we died like we always do but this time we buried ourselfves alive never to be seen again

this is my time were have i been all this time fatal attraction drew a line the things i told to you no body knew the things i wanted from you was less than i gave now im sitting here wondering how i wasted my time i thought for a while and realized i had found myself looking for a way to you i never knew this happened i had my own time to think why i hadent before i worked on it for a while then i knew why never again would i waste my time with something i was i never realized this was my reality for i lived in it all the time this was my time i picked up the pieces cried for a while this time was different every sin i ever made but the biggest one was wasting my time on you

People look at me, They say, 'You're beautiful, girl. Has a pretty face like you ever had to feel pain just like the rest of us?' They don't believe me, nodding quietly and subdued. 'Who breaks a heart like yours, beautiful?' They ask me I scream inside, I do Break your own heart You will realize how lost inside you truly are. How empty, how sad, how horrid... To break your own heart 'Pretty girl Why do you cause yourself such strife, such pain?' they chant, they shout 'Pretty girl why rip yourself in two? Broken hearts don't mend as well as they used to.' Break your own heart You will realize how confused you truly are. How empty, how sad, how horrid... To break your own heart

Whats next? My mind is confused, I no longer know what to say. My heart is breaking, It breaks a little more each day. My spirit is dying, Theres no joy left to be found. My soul is empty, I feel as could as the winters ground. My body is aching, I feel myself growing so weak. My eyes are drying, There are no tears rolling down my cheek. Whats next? Im afraid to know. Do i have the strength to keep fighting, Or should i just let go? Shelly Platt

Perfect Little House On the corner, theres a perfect little white house with blue trim. In the yard, a big tree stands, with a swing hanging from a limb. Surrounding the house, a picket fence shines brightly in the sunlight. Out front, a flower garden grows, what a beautiful sight! The man who leaves the house, always has a smile on his face. The woman who waters the flowers never has a hair out of place. The girl who lives there, she leads the perfect teenage life. The family picture shows such love between child, husband, and wife. In the kitchen. theres broken glass on the floor. In the hall, a closet with secret memories locked behind the door. In the den, the man drinks until he cant lift his head. In the bedroom,the woman takes her drugs and crawls back in bed. In the bathroom,the girl presses a razor to her wrists, waiting for life to grow dim. On the corner, theres a perfect little white house with blue trim. Unknown

Why? I cant't believe you said that You looked pretty shocked too. Sure, we had a little fight But now you say we're through. After all this time together You just leave me in the dust. Now i stand here all alone Not knowing who to trust. I feel the tears start as they slowly run down my face. Do you have any love left for me? It seems theres not a trace. I don't know what to do now I'll just sit here and cry. Just wish i knew what went wrong I can't help but wonder why. What made you finally do it? What pushed you to the brink? I really wish you'd tell me As i sit alone and think. I feel so all alone now I don'y know what to do. I really do still love you And i wanna be back with you

I'll learn You couldnt keep your promise, I guess it was to much to ask. If only you really loved me It wouldnt be such a hard task. Its so hard to talk to you Without feeling this sharp pain. It feels as though a storms brewing in me Like clouds needing to burst their rain. That rain is my tears Its a hard thing to admit. Im still not over you, But i guess we just didnt fit. My load was very heavy But you helped me give some away. It wasnt hard to carry then As i walked with you each day. But now that you have left me Alone on this darkened road, Everythings become heavier I now struggle with my load. Im sure that i'll be fine In the days yet to come. I'll show you that i can forgive you, And i'll learn to have some fun. Lindsey Johnson

My Dream I thought i'd lost you forever Then you came to me in my dream I wish i never woke up You don't know how real it seemed We held each other close So tight we could not breathe No one else was there It was only you and me Now i stand here thinking Wishing you were here To see the world you left behind And all you friends so dear. I cannot help but miss you For my heart is about to bust You left me all alone here With no one i can trust I wish my dream were real We were standing by a lake Then i let you slip away And that was my worst mistake But one day i will get there Though it may take me a while When i finally reach the heavens I will know you by your smile. Lindsey Johnson