Innocence Lost's blog: "My Thoughts"

Forever by your side is where I wanna be Your soul and mine intertwined for all eternity Laying in your arms so safe and content Sleeping to the sound of your heartbeat, my head laid upon your chest Never knowing fear cause you chase it all away In my dreams with thoughts of you is with thoughts of you is where I wanna stay Say you'll never leave, in me you'll find a home I'll give you faith and make you see True love, once unknown

Death I seek, but will I find Something free me from my mind Insane again; going crazy Thoughts seem clear, but are they hazy Asking for help, but no one's there No one for my feelings to share Missing you more each day For loving you, this price I pay... Hearing your voice in my sleep Visions of you in my dreams Haunting me with no disguise Your expressions, your face, your evil eyes The sound of your laugh driving me mad Searing for something I never had Free my soul; set my mind at ease Save me from this fucking disease I'm pleading now, with nothing left Rescue me Beautiful Death

A bloody massacare within my heart Pain inevitable from the start Feelings grown but never sewn And so I walk The Oblivion unknown The words you speak... are they true? The feelings you claim inside of you I believe so much in your soul Lost no longer I wanna make you whole Just gimme a chance to fix your heart... Cause Drew I've loved you from the start

In my sleep I dream of you Picturing the dirty things we do... Wanting more and nothing less In my head... it's you I undress Wanting SO BAD to come home Praying that we're actually ALONE But, the phone ring's off the hook; text coming in... You're some girls crook Lying to them, while you lay in bed with me Your actions seem pretty silly... Why the lies I'll never know You lead them on, and give a good show TO ALL MY MAN'S TOYS, just have you know I'm sucking his dick while YOU'RE on the phone It's me he sleeps with every night though in you he may seem to confide... I brought him here and THAT'S where he's gonna stay... So FUCK YOU BITCHES... GO AWAY

You dream about your daughter Disturbed in your sleep Your body starts to tremble Painfully you weep Your soul lost forever Roaming endlessly Memories kept in your heart for all eternity You fell asleep when I got here; now I'm looking down on you Pain scarred in your mind life's deepest tattoo's Cover up your tortured self with all the ink you want just know I see right through that " Superman " front Daddy, be careful in life In eveything you do And know that in my eyes... No one's as perfect as you !

I don't fucking get you The way your mind works It's like you get a thrill Feeling like dirt Do you like playing games? Diving me insane I think you DO !! Well guess what ? Fuck you too !! :) As your grinning Just know I'm winning Playing with you like you play with me I'm having fun, I must admit Teaching myself how to not feel like shit True feelings I'll never know 'cause one day... You'll up and go...

i need shelter a place to hide form myself Pain overwhelms me wanting so bad to bleed end my suffering this lost child make it go away my mind's in overdrive torturing thoughts broken mind song's over alone i sit thinking... no benefit morbid thoughts recuse me finding ways to become free Only quiestion now... pills or the blade ??? which is the quickest way to my grave?

Darkness comes as the light fades away Bringing an end to this shitty day Tomorrows sun may bring a better one or maybe I won't see the light... at least that's my wish tonight I'm hurting inside but don't know why I knew this was coming the second our relationgship begun I stuck it out and enjoyed the ride to often getting lost in your eyes

Laying with you Indescribeable feeling Hanging onto every second Hoping it never ends Such joy inside you make me feel Looking in your eyes makes everything seem real Reminising now on the night we had Silently feeling every breath Falling asleep in your arms Safe from harm Everything bad you take away My love for you growing everyday

Waiting for the day I can see your face; climb on top and put you in your place! That's right Daddy take control flip me over and let me know! Pull my hair and smack my ass. Make me suck your dick just like white trash! Dirty and rotten is the only way Nut on my face and make me BEG I've been a bad girl MASTER so tie me up tight Torture me DON'T BE NICE! Fuck me like never before that's right baby I'll be your whore