sexiluv's blog: "My Poetry"

Broken now, she looks to the ground as she walks... Silent now, she remembers all the talks... She spots a feline, quivering the rodent it stalks... Broken now, she looks to the ground as she walks... Deep pools of anguish, her eyes show her pain... Her tears are hidden, blending with the drops of rain... She looks to the night sky, her harrowing screams reign... Deep pools of anguish, her eyes show her pain... In a puddle on the ground, she sits in contemplation... Her eyes are poisoned by her tears, horrid anticipation... Her world is shattered, forlorn damnation... In a puddle on the ground, she sits in contemplation... Forsaken she goes, returns to her somber, foreboding tomorrow. She sits alone, her soaked clothes, drowning in her sorrow... She looks to the outside, pleading for a drop of hope to borrow. Forsaken she goes, returns to her somber, foreboding tomorrow

Sometimes i don't want to live, I just want to die. I take a blade to my wrist, Slice and then i cry. I want to see myself bleed, And prove that i am real. If it means i have to die, then my life i will steal. People call me crazy, and say that i'm a nut. But if they saw through my eyes, they'd keep their damn mouths shut. I don't want to feel like this, I don't want the pain. I wanna be like everybody, i wish that i were sane. and now my wrists are bleeding, i made the cuts way too deep. i reflect on all the things i've done, and then i start to weep. i know that i am dying, the bleeding i can't stop. darkness starts closing in, and my ears begin to pop. i wish i hadn't done this, i wish i went for help. but now there is no turning back, look what i've done to myself. i wanted to commit suicide, so i guess i just gave in. but i know if i had really tried, my thoughts could never win. i try to call out for help, from my family and my friends. but i know it will do no good, 'cuz my life's about to end. so i decide to lay back, and wait for my soul to leave. i think of all my loved one's tears, i wish they wouldn't grieve. i just want to take it back, but there's nothing i can do. my mother walks into the room, and i mouth the words, " i love you" i hear her start crying, asking what i did. asking how i could take my life. saying i'm only a kid. i didn't think she loved me, i didn't think she'd care. but now that i am dying, i realize she's always there. she takes my hand into hers, then i start going numb. she brushes hair from my face. how could i be so dumb? i hear sirens in the distance, i know they're coming for me. but by the time they get here, my soul will finally be free. almost as if she read my mind. my mother gave me a kiss. she says," honey you know i love you, and you know that you'll be missed". after hearing her say those words, i let my mind slip away. i wish that i could go back, i wish that i could stay. now i know she loves me, my body is at ease. my soul has now slipped away, and the pain has finally ceased.