BrOkEnPaPi's blog: "My Poetry"

At times we're like the best of friends Our personalities alike and so they blend But to our love there's another side It tries to go, but will never hide I fear the times in which we fight To take your abuse takes all my might Your words sting me like a bee And at times I've felt that you don't love me I hear the words from deep in your soul But when you say such things I feel so alone I wish i could make everything so happy and good And if I could change things, you can bet that i would!

As I sit here thinking of my mistakes And all the hearts in which they break I fear my life is closing to an end My heart and my soul may never mend Nobody has been able to explain Why it is that I feel all this pain And it may never be relieved I appologize to all those I've decieved I know now that the things I've done were wrong But then, my kind never did quite belong I miss the life that i once had And now all this pain is driving me mad But out of all this pain I've dealt More than twice in return, I've felt!

Do you see the suffering, the pain? Can you feel the torment in which we're made? If you can, then help me to comprehend Why you all think God is our friend. They say he is good and that he loves all Then why doesn't he catch the souls that fall? He's supposed to know how it all ends Then why does he just sit back and pretend? Why would you make a world you know will fail? Why make all these souls when most end up in hell? I see all these people running on nothing but feeling Can they not see the world's full of hurt, hate, and killing? I believe they can, but believe to survive They try to ignore all but the good things in life From what I can see, God is not there And if he is, I think he's lost all care Because for there to be God, there's too much dispair Tell me, Where is God?

I'm Sinking, I'm Drowning, I can't find my hold! My Mind, A Twisted, And Deformed Mold! I'm Useless, A Failure, I'm many times told! I See, I Hear, I'm so different from you! The Lies, The Hurt, But I See Only Truth! To Live, To Breathe, Sometimes So Hard To Do! I Want, I Need, But Never Do Find! The Pride, The Love, From Me It All Hides! And I'll Be This Way Until The Day I Die! I Am Your Burden!

I've always wanted to be better than this To make you proud was my biggest wish But I do believe that i may never succeed It sometimes seems that nothing can change me Yours is the womb from which i was born Into your heart, a whole I have torn Never did i mean to be this way But you're the reason, I live, I stay And it's just so hard for me to show That without you, my life, would go!

When I woke up this morning, my thoughts turned to you Thinking of all the special things that you do You were always there for me You were always by my side You were the only one with which my true feelings I could never hide I'd push you past your limits But yet, you'd always still be there You couldn't help but to smother me With all your love and care I've made my mistakes and I've done my time But you've always been the perfact mother And I can't believe you're mine!

Innocence lost is knowledge gained But at first learning this, most are pained But then realization finally wins through And then knowing this confirms You life is yours to live as you choose But make your choices wisely Because it may come to pass That the knowledge you come about May be the end of you at last!

Does anybody really care? About all the lost souls hanging around out there? Does anybody really see? Just how cruel this world can be? Does anybody really hear? All the sobs and screams caused by fear? If you say yes, then your word, I'll not believe. If you say yes, then a lie you have just told me. Because all the people that hurt and cry, Seem not to register when looked upon by our eyes. We see so many everyday, But yet we'd rather push these thought away. I see it and I hate it because none of it's right. So many are hurting while we sllep at night. But then there's a thought that hurts worse than this. The thought that we see and we dismiss I try to keep all that i've said in my mind But the fact is: People are Blind!

When I first saw you, I was afraid to meet you! When I first met you, I was afraid to talk to you! When I first talked to you, I was afraid to like you! When I started to like you, I was afraid to hug you! After I hugged you, I was afraid to kiss you! Once I kissed you, I was afraid to love you! But after i loved you, I was afraid to lose you!