it isnt like neone reads these things and if they do it isnt like they do to really give input it is usually to insult someone or put someone down ust like on the mumms right now i feel like a failier in life i have been getting this way often for some reason it is weird nothing has changed in my life i am still single and pathetic cause i wont do nething about it to change it so i am at the fault of my own demise it has been getting worse lately with my roomate flaunting her new man in front of me all the time and how happy she is and going out everynite as i stay hme and babysit her daughter and the sad part when i do go out which isnt often i dont go out of my way to talk to neone cause i almost feel like i dont deserve to be happy because i have been miserable for so long i dont know nething else i am sure that i am going to get some rude comments but to be honest i could care less i am my own worst enemy you cant say nething to me i havent said to my self it is like i am afraid to feel nething for neone now dont get me wrong i think the world of my roommatew she is like my sister and best friend and her daughter means the world to me i dont know what i would do with out them i dont know what to do i really aint looking for advice it is just better for me when i type it out but feel free if you have the answer let me know cause i am lost in my own thoughts like i said this is just therepy for me by for now
