ok i thought i would just get on here and vent, today is the one day that i truely hate, today i turn 24, but is it just me or is it that you only have 4 great memberable birthdays in your life your first, 16th 18th and 21st, and after that 21st and you get older and not only do you feel it you realize it too, and you think back to when you was 16 18 21 and you think about then and where you thought you would be by this time, and you realize that you are no where close, like when i was 16 i thought by now i would be working at a nice computer place, and have my own office would have graduated college, and here i am always on the look for the next best job, still not knowing what i want to do for the next 20 years, by this time most people are either in that job or well on their way. i mean yea i am getting ready to go back in the military for at least four years but who know, knees might give on me again, or i might be 6 ft under within those next 4 years because i dont know if its a death wish or wanting to proudly serve my country or what but i wanna go to Iraq or Afganistan . and i know i have a lot i mean heck i got a daughter that loves me, even though i have not always been there, i have a family that has put up with a lot of my shit and yet they are still here and love me, i mean yea i lost my mom 4 years ago but i know she loves me no matter what and i am lucky enough to have a great step mother that even know in my younger years i put that poor woman through hell, fuck i am the reason for most the gray hairs on half my families head, but anyways i know life is what you make it, and it seems no matter how hard i try to make it some what good, some where i fuck things up, and it seems like i go for everything that is miles out of reach, i dunno, any and all comments are welcome. and thanks for letting me vent. and there will prolly be more the more i drink. later
