thoughts of you and me linger in the air
i know your there i can feel you
i hear you calling out to me
i try to reach for you but ur not here.
you know all i wanna do is be with you
i know you feel that way too
my heart is bleeding and i feel crushed
cuz i can't feel ur sweet loving touch
i count the hours till you wake
cuz i don't know how much loneliness i can take
i am ur wife and you are my life
the beat of my heart and the air that i breathe
you are my everything
my world, my life
my body, my soul
i am reaching for you
will u take my hand to the deepest end??
will yiu stay and drown with me??
you are my gaurdian angel and for that i am so grateful.
there's no question i love you forever baby
with all that i am i give my self to you
for now and forever
comments plz
i know you don't feel good today
i know your love is miles and miles away
i know u are bleeding inside
longing and yearning to be with him
you would do anything to make it happen
crying and weaping all the time
not able to breathe it feels so cold and lonely
like theres nothing left
i am sorry you feel this way
i know you are broken
i know you are shattered
i know you are torn to pieces
and it feels like no one cares
once again i am sorry you feel this way
listen well and you will hear him calling out
close ur eyes and you will see him
look inside and you will feel the love he has
that will stand the test of time and be true
that's one thing for certain he loves you.
**just had to get it out and this is the result hope you guys can understand that i was talking to my heart** comments welcome
THIS PAST SUNDAY STARTED OUT AS A NORMAL DAY
I LEFT MY HOUSE WITH MY BEST FRIEND MARINA AND WE DID MORNING ERRANDS BEFORE WE PICKED UP HER OLDEST DAUGHTER.
WE HAD A GREAT TIME AS ALWAYS. BUT THAT DAY WAS SPECIAL CUZ IT WAS MY ROOMMATES BIRTHDAY. WE PLANNED A SURPRISE PARTY AND EVERYTHIN. I ONLY HAD LIKE 2 AND A HALF HOURS OF SLEEP BUT I WASN'T DRIVING SO IT WAS ALL COOLCUZ I COULD SLEEP. (I NEVER DRIVE LOL)
SO WE PICKED UP HER DAUGHTER AND CONTINUED ON WITH OUR THINGS WE HAD TO DO. BY THE TIME WE GOT TO THE PARTY IT WAS ALMOST GONNA START AND WE HAD A GREAT TIME WITH LOTS OF FOOD AND EVEN HULA (TRADITIONAL HAWAIIAN DANCE) IT WAS REALLY NICE AND MY ROOMMATE WAS SO SHOCKED I'LL NEVER FORGET THE LOOK ON HIS FACE LOL...(U KINDA HAD TO BE THERE)
WHO KNEW THAT ON OUR WAY BACK LIVES WOULD CHANGE FOREVER?? I WAS SUPPOSE TO LEAVE THE PARTY WITH MY ROOMMATE BUT I DECIDED TO GO WITH MARINA CUZ I WANTED TO KEEP HER COMPANY FOR THE RIDE TO DROP OFF HER DAUGHTER (WHO DANCED AT THE PARTY) SO WE DROP OFF HER DAUGHTER AT MARINA'S SISTERS HOUSE.AND WHAT HAPPEND NEXT CHANGED MY LIFE FOREVER.....
WE BACKED UP IN THE DRIVE WAY THEN HALFWAY STICKING OUT IN THE ROAD AS WE WERE MAKING THE TURN TO LEAVE A BLUE TRUCK WAS COMING STRAIGHT FOR US. THEY HIT US HARD ON THE PASSENGER SIDE (WHERE I WAS SITTING) AND THE PASSENGER BACK DOOR
RIGHT AT THE MOMENT I LOOKED OUT THE WINDOW AND CHECKED IF MARINA WAS OK THANK GOODNESS WE ARE FINE WITH MINOR INJURIES BUT ALSO AT THAT MOMENT I SAW THE FACES OF ALL THE PEOPLE I LOVE AND CARE ABOUT
MY 2 YEAR OLD BABY
MY LOVE JAMES ECT (YOU GUYS GET THE POINT)
I AM SO THANKFUL TO BE ALIVE FOR MY LIFE FOR MY LOVE, FOR MY DAUGHTER AND FOR ALL OF MY FRIENDS. IF THERE IS ONE THING I HAVE LEARNED FROM ALL OF THIS IT IS NEVER TAKE YOUR LIFE FOR GRANTED VCUZ IT COULD BE TAKEN AWAY IN ONE SINGLE INSTANT.
NOW IT'S TIME FOR ME TO HEAL MENTALLY FROM ALL THIS. I GET NIGHTMARES AND EVERYTHING, WE FOUND OUT THAT THE DRIVER THAT HIT US WAS HIGH. I NEED TO HEAL MENTALLY AND PHYSICALLY FROM ALL THIS. I HARDLY SLEEP NOW CUZ EVERYTIME I CLOSE MY EYES I SEE THE TRUCK HITTING US. IT IS SCARY TO KNOW THAT I CAME SO CLOSE TO LOSING MY LIFE. SAPPHIRE ALMOST LOST HER MOTHER JAMES ALMOST LOST HIS FUTURE WIFE.
AND MARINA'S FAMILY WOULD HAVE BEEN DEVASTATED IF ANYTHING HAPPEND TO TO HER,
THERE IS DEFINATELY A GOD AND HE WAS WATCHING OUT FOR US THAT DAY
I LOVE YOU ALL . COMMENTS PLZ
OKAY SO I'VE BEEN UP ALL NIGHT LONG TRYING TO MAKE SENSE OF THINGS I'VE BEEN THRU RECENTLYPERSONALLY WITH THE RELATIONSHIP BETWEEN MOM AND ME. THOUGH IT IS SAD I KNOW NOW THAT I JUST NEED TO LET HER GO AND MOVE ON. I AM LEARNING THAT LETTING GO IS MUCH MORE DIFFICULT WHEN I KNOW DEEP DOWN IT IS THE RIGHT THING TO DO TO KEEP MY SANITY. BUT THE HARD THING FOR ME IS THAT SHE IS MY MOM. I KNOW THAT LATELY I'VE BEEN POSTING REALLY DEEP EMOTIONALLY STRONG BLOGS I'M SORRY FOR THAT BUT PLEASE UNDERSTAND THAT THESE ARE MY TRUE FEELINGS AND IT HELPS ME TO LET THEM GO AND FREE MY HEART IF I WRITE.I'M A WRITER IT'S JUST WHAT I DO. SO WITH THAT BEING SAID LET ME CONTINUE.
TONIGHT I DID MY NORMAL ROUTINE BY CALLING JAMES AT 6AM HIS TIME AND MIDNIGHT HERE, THE ONLY THING DIFFERENT WAS THAT FOR THE FIRST HALK OF OUR CONVO I JUST CRIED AND CRIED CUZ OF ALL THIS. HE WAS GREAT AND JUST STAYED ON THE PHONE WHILE I CRIED, HE REASSURED ME IT WAS OK TO CRY AND THAT THINGS WILL BE OK, I KNEW I LOVED HIM BEFORE BUT TONIGHT I REALLY FELL IN LOVE WITH HIME EVEN MORE, IT'S FUNNY HOW SILENCE CAN BRING 2 PEOPLE CLOSER TOGETHER, ANYWAY I WAS AND AM TRYING TO HEAL MYSELF THRU WHAT I LIKE TO CALL MUSIC THERAPY. SND HAVE BEEN BLOGGING SPECIAL SONGS ALONG THE WAY. WHILE DOING SO I CAME ACROSS THIS ONE SONG CALLED LOVE WILL ALWAYS WIN PART OF IT GOES **NO WAY OVER IT, NO WAY AROUND IT IF WE WANT IT WE HAVE TO GO THROUGH IT* THAT IS SO TRUE AND IT ALSO REMINDED ME THAT THINGS HAPPEN FOR A REASON. SO EVEN THOUGH THIS HURTS ME LIKE HELL IT IS ALSO TEAVHING ME TO BE A STRONGER WOMAN AND A BETTER MOTHER TO MY CHILD. AND I'M SURE MOM IS LEARNING A LESSON FROM THIS ASWELL. TY TO ALL OF YOU FOR UR UNCONDITIONAL LOVE AND SUPPORT TTHRU SUCH A ROUGH TIME. I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH.
U ALL KNOW WHO YOU ARE COMMENT PLZ
U TOLD ME SO MANY TIMES IT WASN'T OKAY TO CRY
SO MUCH SO THAT I WANTED TO DIE
U TREAT ME MEAN U TREAT ME CRUEL
WHY IS ALL I ASK OF U
THERE IS NOTHING LEFT INSIDE
CUZ U KNOW MY SOUL HAS DIED
YOU PUT ME DOWN
HOPING I'LL STAY
ALL I WANT TO DO IS RUN AWAY
THESE TEARS I SHED ARE REAL
SO WHY CAN'T YOU JUST LET ME DEAL
I DIDN'T MEAN TO CRY
BUT ALL I WANNA DO IS DIE
THIS IS HOW YOU MAKE ME FEEL
MY HEART BROKEN SPIRIT GONE
LOOK AT THE DAMAGE U HAVE DONE
U TELL PEOPLE I MAKE U PROUD
BUT REALLY U ARE IN THE CLOUDS
U SCARRED ME FOR LIFE
KNOWING SOMEDAY I WOULD BE SOMEONES WIFE
BUT YOU DON'T CARE
WHY WOULD YOU DARE
YOU KEEP HURTING ME
NOT HEARING MY PLEA
I CRIED TEARS FOR THE FIST TIME
CUZ YOU ARE ON MY MIND
WISH I COULD SAY I LOVE YOU
WISH I COULD FORGIVE YOU
DAMMIT MOM I JUST WISH YOU CARED ENUFF TO HEAR ME
I WANT TO END IT WITH YOU AND SAY I LOVE YOU
BUT I JUST CAN'T
I'M SORRY FOR EVERYTHING
IT'S OK CUZ IT'S ALL ON ME I SHOULD HAVE KNOWN BETTER
BUT THESE TEARS I CRIED FOR THE FIRST TIME ARE RAW AND REAL
AND IN THE END THEY ARE CAUSED BY U
THESE TEARS ARE REALONE LAST THING NOW U HAVE TO DEAL
COMMENTS PLZ
I AM SUPPOSE TO BE YOUR DAUGHTER
I'M SUPPOSE TO BE UR PRIDE YOUR JOY
SO WHY DO U HURT ME I'LL NEVER KNOW
YOU SAID U LOVED ME
IS IT TRUE??
IF YOU LOVE ME WHY DO I FEEL SO BLUE??
I AM SUPPOSE TO BE YOUR DAUGHTER
I'M SUPPOSE TO BE UR PRIDE UR JOY
SO WHY DO YOU HURT ME I'LL NEVER KNOW
IT'S NOT UR FAULT
IT'S ALL ON ME
SO WHY DON'T YOU LEAVE
AND JUST LET ME BE.
SOMEONE LOVES ME
THIS I KNOW
BUT I AM BROKEN
I AM NOT WHOLE
I AM SUPPODSE TO BE YOUR DAUGHTER
I AM SUPPOSE TO BE UR PRIDE UR JOY
SO WHY DO YOU HURT ME I'LL NEVER KNOW
SO MUCH ANGER SO MUCH PAIN
IS WHAT I FEEL
SO MUCH SORROW
IT FEELS LIKE IT WILL RAIN
I AM USUALLY SO STONG
SO WHERE OH WHERE
DID I GO WRONG
I AM SUPOOSE TO BE UR DAUGHTER
1 AM SUPPOSE TO BE UR PRIDE UR JOY
SO WHY DO U HURT ME THIS I'LL NEVER EVER KNOW
I SEARCH FOR A WAY OUT
BUT ALL I HAVE IS SELF DOUBT
WHY U HURT ME SO
I WILL NEVER KNOW
DO U FEEL MY HURT DO YOU FEEL MY PAIN??
YOU ARE SELFISH AND THINK
IT'S ALL IN VAIN
I STILL LOVE YOU THOUGH I DON'T KNOW WHY
YOU'VE ONLY CAUSED ME PAIN ALL MY LIFE
WHAT DID I DO?? WHY DOU HURT ME SO
THIS IS THE ONE THING I GUESS I'LL NEVER KNOW
SHE IZ REALLY A SWEETHEARTGO ADD HER AND RATE AND FAN TOO PLZ TY
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@ fubar
Hello There Nice Person
Did Anyone Ever Tell You,
Just How Special You Are
The Lig ht that You Emit
Might even Light a Star
Did Anyone Ever Tell You
How Important You Make Others Feel
Somebody out here is Smiling
About Love that is so Real
Did Anyone Ever Tell You that
Many Times When They were Sad
Your E-mail made Them Smile a bit
In Fact It made Them Glad
For the Time You Spend Sending Things
And Sharing whatever You Find
There are No Words to Thank You
But Somebody, Thinks You're Fine
Did Anyone Ever Tell You
Just How Much They Like You
Well, My Dearest Friend
Today I am Telling You
I believe that without a
friend you are missing out on a lot!!!
Have a nice day, and I'm glad we are friends!!!
Theres been a few time durning my days that if when things go great you always have a great feeling that something best will happen to you. But then something gets in your way and it all turns to dust. Then you just give up hope!
I always have times when I just want to give up and just not care at all. Like noone cares, noone gives a hell about what you think. Thats why I dont bother with some people. I never depend on them. Because to me right now...
If I worry about the people who is just going to bring me down then I wont get no where ahead to make things happen. So I dont bother with anyone who dont understand of what im trying to do for my self to make things happen.
Well anyway... Even tho I feel like giving up! And even tho I feel worried about whats going to happen for me as I get older? Still yet I try to push my self to move on and get ahead to where I want to be.
I just wish tho I have never messed up in the pass. Then I could of get somewhere along time ago.
But its never too late for me. Im still young and I trust my self that I can get to the things I dream of having.
Now I love it here in hawaii and Hawaii is just wonderful, and full of life and beauty. But to tell you something. I really just wanna leave. I really just wanna get alway from everything that is just making me unhappy. I know you may say... im running alway from my prob. And its not like that or im I trying to sound it like that. Its just to calm down for awhile and get things started in my living. Then when I have things in order. I should fly back to hawaii and fine my own pad.
Doing that would be a nice start. And seeing the world is another as well. One of my first place out of the U.S. would be Paris! I love to see whats like over there. Or disney land would be another great site lol. I wanna meet mickey mouse haha =P
And later when things are good for me and I saw everything and done everything I need it to do. I want to one day get married and have a family +_+
Her dad was a drunk
Her mom was an addict
Her parents kept her
Locked in an attic
Her only friend
was a little toy bear
It was old and worn out
And had patches of hair
She always talked to it
When no one's around
She lays there and hugs it
Not a peep of sound
Until her parents
unlock the door
Some more and more pain
She'll have to endure
A bruise on her leg
A scar on her face
Why would she be
In such a horrible place?
But she grabs her bear
And softly cries
she loves her parents
But they want her to die
she sits in the corner
Quiet but thinking,
"Please God, why is
my life always sinking? "
Such a bad life
For a sad little kid
She'd get beaten and beaten
For anything she did
Then one night
Her mom came home high
And the poor child was beaten
As hours went by
Then her mom suddenly
Grabbed for a blade
It was sharp and pointy
One that she made
She thrusted the blade
Right in her chest,
"Youeserve to die
You worthless piece of s&*t!
The mom walked out
Leaving the girl slowly dyeing
She grabbed her bear
And again started crying
Police showed up
At the small little house
Then quickly barged in
Everything quiet as a mouse
One officer slowly
Opened a door
To find the little girl
Lying dead on the floor
It must have been bad
To go through so much harm
But at least she died
With her best friend in her arms
A child dies every day from child abuse.
And if you have an ounce of pity in you for Auroura (the little girl),
and you hate child abuse with a passion,
you will repost this and help out those abused children,
and let them know that someone cares for them.
It doesn't take that long only about 10 seconds
so please just do it.
She was only 5 and never loved
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