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What are you waiting for?
Did I tell you I had an 8x10 Glossy of you...
and have it on my desk? I get to see you all the time. So when things aren't going well or my candle not glowing bright I just come look at you and things are alright.
As you've said so many times before no one knows where all of this may lead and that's for sure. All I know is that you are my friend and that's all that counts in the end.
Some one that always brings you up not down, someone that makes your day better even when they're not around.
Some one that you can always say I love you to and not have to worry that your heart will be broken, torn or abused.
Some one that just happened by fate to come into your life and not by mistake become a part of you and make you feel that it's never too late.
I want to smell your hair and run my fingers through it and look into your eyes and be lost in love's grasp and tell you how much I need you at last.
I want to hold you in my arms and squeeze you so tight that you'll feel yourself that's implanted your spirit so fully in my heart.
Even if none of this will ever come true for the joy that you've brought to me I'll forever thank you for just being my friend and saying I love you.
I Love You
This letter was written to one of my beautiful girl friends here. Like me she's survived cancer for over 15 years now. You wouldn't know it by looking at her or me but we are here and have to deal with it and all the other bs that goes with long term cancer survival. Her first and only husband left her with two children and cancer to tend to and she asked for some advise as he is leading her on still. Like I always said, "Life is a bitch.... and then you LIVE." Onward.
I've been divorced 3 times and not one was easy to get through, but, in the long run I've managed to stay friends with all my exes to this day except for one that died of cancer. It's not easy, like I said, but you have to let go and love the most painful thing completely, ie., losing a very close relationship. It doesn't happen over night and it's best to stay as busy as you can doing something you enjoy to take your mind off of it.
Your mind. That's where the secret lies and you controlling your emos not your loneliness controlling you. Your are never alone in this world today. I meditate and clear my mind as much as needed everyday and pray if more clearing is needed.
There is an Infinite Healing Presence within you, the godhead, that lifts you up, heals, restores and directs you. This Presence frees you from bondage and limitations and sets you on the HIGH road to freedom and peace of mind. Divine Law and Order are always operating in your life, and whatever you set your mind to will prosper. There is no under action or over action, only right action.
Forgiveness means that you must wish the other person well. You must forgive hurts and injuries sincerely in your heart so that when you think about them, there is no longer any sting in your mind. Forgiveness does not mean to make a 'doormat' of yourself. Resentment and a desire to see someone punished rots your soul and fastens your troubles to you like rivets. Forgive yourself for harboring negative thoughts, and as you release the other person or persons you make way for the river of life, love, truth and abundance to flow into your experience.
I alone will practice all that is wholesome. Those who are powerless and under the control of karma and delusion are unable to benefit themselves or attain their own purposes. Worldly people are completely unable to make their lives meaningful. Therefore, I shall practice what is wholesome for the benefit of all sentient beings. While others are engaged in inferior and menial tasks in which they encounter many difficulties, how can I sit here at peace and do nothing? I must and shall benefit them, but without ever succumbing to the poison of self-importance.
Santideva, "Bodhicaryavatara"
Namaste
ALL THINGS HAVE A PURPOSE IN LIFE EITHER AS A JOY OR A PAIN.... BUT IT'S YOU THAT MAKES THE DECISION AS TO WHAT THE EXPERIENCE MAY BRING. THERE IS NO HEAVEN.... THERE IS NO HELL. ALL THERE IS IS RIGHT HERE...RIGHT NOW!!! SO ALWAYS, WHEN LIFE PRESENTS YOU WITH CHALLENGES KNOW THAT THIS IS FOR A PURPOSE AND GROW WITH IT! THAT'S WHAT HAS KEPT HOMO SAPIENS SAPIENS (US) AT THE TOP OF THE FOOD CHAIN FOR ALL THESE YEARS! ADAPTABILITY IS THE MOST HUMAN TRAIT OF ALL. BE AWARE OF IT. USE IT!
I never sleep, never! I can?t. It?s endless. It?s ceaseless. On and on and on I go. Making my way throught the infinite void looking for those that meet my requirements, those that are willing to come forward and recieve that which only I can reveal in this time. The secrets of The Wanderer. Since the beginning I, and those that wandered before me, have walked this earth and no matter how many I came to know or meet.... I always knew that I would always be alone, that no one else could do what I, and those before me, had been chosen to do. It was to me to impart the knowledge to show the way from one side to the other. And so here I am passing through this temporal existence waiting, watching for those that are willing, those that have the sign that I can see in their faces and feel in their presence. I will know you and you will know who you are and what you are to do when your time has come to take your place with the many that have passed before you and you will know that your time has come to Wander!
I AM A CYNIC
MY EX IS SCHIZOPHRENIC
DOG SHIT'S ON THE FLOOR
When things in your life seem almost too much to handle, when 24 hours in a day are not enough, remember the mayonnaise jar and the 2 cups of coffee.
A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in
front of him. When the class began, he wordlessly picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls. He then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed that it was.
The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls. He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed that it was.
The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up everything else. He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with a unanimous "yes!"
Th e professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar effectively filling the empty space between the sand. The students laughed.
"Now," said the professor as the laughter subsided, "I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life. The golf balls are the important things--your family, your children, your health, your
friends and your favorite passions--and if everything else was lost and
only they remained, your life would still be full. The pebbles are the
other things that matter like your job, your house and your car. The
sand is everything else--the small stuff."
"If you put the sand into the jar first," he continued, "there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls. The same goes for life. If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff you will never have room for the things that are important to you.
"Pay attention to the things that are cri tical to your happiness! Play with your children or grandchildren. Take time to get medical checkups. Take your spouse out to dinner. Play another 18. There will always be time to clean the house and fix the disposal. Take care of the golf balls first--the things that really matter. Set your priorities. The rest is just sand."
One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the coffee represented.
The professor smiled. "I'm glad you asked. It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem, there's always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend."
LIFE TAKES THE THOUGHTFUL PERSON ON A PATH OF MANY WINDINGS
NOW THE COURSE IS CHECKED, NOW IT RUNS STRAIGHT AGAIN.
HERE WINGED THOUGHTS MAY POUR FREELY FORTH IN WORDS,
THERE THE HEAVY BURDEN OF KNOWLEDGE MUST BE SHUT AWAY IN SILENCE.
BUT WHEN TWO PEOPLE ARE AT ONE IN THEIR HEARTS,
THEY SHATTER EVEN THE STRENGTH OF IRON OR OF BRONZE.
AND WHEN TWO PEOPLE UNDERSTAND EACH OTHER IN THEIR INMOST HEARTS,
THEIR WORDS ARE SWEET AND STRONG, LIKE THE FRAGRANCE OF ORCHIDS.
