Fantum's blog: "Lovin'"

Is it love or infacuation? When feeling close to someone, you find yourself longing to be with them. When you feel empty inside? When you have only met the person a few time? One of my good friends thinks she's in love but i think it's infacuation. She's only met the guy a few times but they plan on seeing each other more. She's going head-long into a full on relationship and i just dont want to see her get her heart broken again.

We all have people in our lives that come and go. Some have become so special that when they are gone, it feels as though part of yourself is missing. Yet for others, one can hardly wait for them to leave again. This is a question i have often wondered: What really motivates people to stay in one's lives; to continue on in the pursuit of happiness and love? There are days when the reality of being alone rears it's ugly head and all i want to do is sit in darkness and seclusion. What can one do when they feel so empty and lost? But there are also days when i feel so alive that nothing can touch me. Everyone has or had those special people in their lives that have so touched them, that they are permanatly transformed and they find themselves longing for that touch again and again and again.

Not that long ago i got a weird email from Classmates.com. Someone sent me a message. I opened the message and for the life of me i didn't know who it was from. As i read thru the message it finally dawned on me who this person really was. This mesage was from a woman i had not seen or spoken to for more than 17yrs. The last time was after I returned from the Gulf War in 1991 and she has been searching for me since then. Sometime around 1999 or 2000 there was an article in the local newspaper which stated I was killed in a car accident. I was? That's news to me anyway. So all this time she thought I was dead! One day, she was going through the classmates directory and came across my profile. As she puts it "she nearly hit the floor". There i was, and all this time she thought i was dead. Now, I've been a member of classmated for quite a long time. At least since 2000. To make a long story short we reconnected with the help of the internet. We've all heard of stories of people finding long lost friends, parents, or family online but i never thought it would happen to me.