Single but not alone's blog: "Love"

A sadness fills my heart A loneliness tearing me apart I don't know how I don't know why I long for you I have known you forever But we have never met You are living within my heart A love I will never forget I am in search of you The woman of my dreams I'm waiting for you With your eyes of beautiful blue I awake each day and take care of my self In hopes that you will show I open my door expecting you to be there So that our love will finally grow I explore the night life In hopes of running into you And one day making you my wife You are my happiness You are my dreams The one I've longed to love Each day I pray That god will hear And answer my prayers from above

I wrote this for my son A love So real A love that you can feel A love that can only come From heaven up above First there was fear Of how will I get by Then I held him in my arms And knew that help was near From the first bottle To the first diaper change I was in love And ready to go full throttle I am dad Proud as I can be I am dad Proud that he loves me Oh look he can hold his bottle Now his head is up Crawling Then Walking I think I'm getting old I'm so happy Its ok I'm watching his life unfold I remember That first kick In his moms belly I remember that first kick He was trying to work his way free Each day I work And then go home to him I'm alone But not lonely Because I have him He is my life My future My only gift from my wife Thank you god for my son He brings me hope And happiness And Joy Thank you god for my son My precious little boy.

Where to begin? Lets just say love is the greatest most enjoyable miserable thing ANYONE can experience. Growing up I thought I loved this girl. Then there was another. Then another. I later realized that wasnt love for that girl; it was love for the attention; the togetherness. Then, in hopes of finding that one that I don't feel the same about; feel more than that togetherness, feel something special I met my now Ex wife. I'll admit she broke my heart. Not just for me but for my son when she left me. For the fact ultimately he would have to choose a parent; a side. I NEVER wanted that for my son, and STILL feel terrible his mother would do this to him or I. Well, I'm divorced now, back in the dating scene. Problem is I meet many very nice women.... for a while. Then something clicks and they all keep turning out the same. Tell me I'm a great, good looking guy, a good dad but there's always that BUT. . . So I write this in hopes that all of you reading even those not reading have success in their love lives. If you have a marriage spend every ounce of energy to consistently please your loved one. Don't lose them by ANY cost ESPECIALLY if children are involved. If you feel you love someone and they feel the same take the plunge and give it a try. Breakups never went easy on me or anyone I know of; so give it a try, its not like your getting engaged. Your only dating!!!