Wow.
What a difference a week makes. A week ago, I still had a list of people I called friends. Everyone I spent time around, I spent time with because I knew them and loved them, and, from what they said, they loved me.
Today, wow. I'm back with my ex-fiance. That's good. But, heh, that's the only thing that's good.
She might be playing me. That's bad.
Jammi is mad at me for 2 different issues, one of which I am not even responsible for. The other... I really had no choice.
Andrea is mad at me because I'm back with Renney and not with her.
Amy is mad at me for an issue I'm not even responsible for.
Chris (my GM) is mad at me because they're slaving me at work, and I'm not getting the time to recuperate that I need.
Jammi has no job.
Andrea has no job.
You know, I'm getting sick and tired of the bullshit in my life. People need to get their fucking act together and realize the way shit is now is the way shit is going to be, and it's always going to be like that. I got yelled at because I'm "cold" as a person. Well, gee, I wonder why. With so much fucking bullshit and so much fucking drama, I'm surprised I even have the ability to wake up most days, knowing that everyday, some other piece of bullshit is going to happen. It's making me sick.
Now. Don't get me wrong -- I still do love these people. Amy, Jammi, Andrea, Renney, all of them. Just fucking damnit, what do I have to do in order to get people to sit down and talk to me instead of acting immature and childish all the fucking time? Come on now. This is the real world, it's time some of us grew up and recognized it for what it is.
sigh. I guess all I really want right now is peace. The ability to wake up in the morning, knowing all I have to deal with is myself and the issues that I have to go through on a daily basis. Right now, people are just creating so much shit for me to wade through, I'm surprised I haven't drowned.
And I'm sorry if reading this pisses you off or gets you mad at me, but this is how things are. I want one day of relative relaxation. One day where I can wake up and KNOW that I won't have to deal with bullshit. One day where I can be me, have a little fun, and not worry about a whole list of bullshit. Can anybody give me that?
I sure as hell hope so.
