Fallen Angel's blog: "Life"

Why this one Why this friend, What do i have to feel the way i do, Why do i have to feel the pain of looseing another friend to a decenion i've made Why Dose my heart feel like itz bein ripped out Why do i have to let this friend walk out of my life like he was never there, Why cant i go back and fix things before they got bad, Tell me why I have to feel this pain, Tell me why this friend walked away!

For all those Who have hurt me in the past This is for you: I'M SORRY I'M NOT PURFECT, I'M SORRY I'M NOT WHAT YOU WANTED, I'M SORRY I DIDNT DO WHAT YOU EXPECTED OF ME ALL THE TIME, I'M SORRY I DONT HAVE THE PURFECT BODY, I'M SORRY I DONT HAVE A PURFECT SMILE, I'M SORRY I LIVE MY LIFE THE WAY I WANT, BUT MOST OF ALL I'M SORRY I'M ME!

I dont know What i've done, I dont know how to ask How to ask what i did to make u not wanna talk to me! How Can I Know When i've made u mad or pissed you off! You The one who has to tell me, Let me know how u feel or what ur thinking! I cant read minds, I'm not purfect.

Hey everyone, I'm writing this cause i have alot to get off my mind. I'm dropping names in this one cause i think people need to know what kind of people are on this site, i'm not gunna do it all in on blog, they will slowly come out and yes you all will know who they are. soo with that said, imma leave yall in the dark for now!

Some of yall know of that saying, "Nice guys finish last", well I know two of those guys, They are two of the most wonderful men out there, Both very caring, very loving. Would go to the end of the earth to make sure I am happy. I'm not gunna drop any names but they know who they are. I just wanted to thank them for everything they have done for me, Down to the latest thing that has happend in my life, Both we're there for me in ways no one else would, well besides My mom. All three were my rock in the stress and painful time. I even woke my mom up a 5 in the morning cryin and she didnt get mad at me for it. The other two would drop what they are doin to be by my side! You dont find many friends out there like that, people who would drop what they are doin just to help you out when u need it the most, If you do find people like that, dont let them go, You will kick youself in the ass for it!

Well looks like the ex was 100% right about me. No matter what i to, i Can never keep a friendship, always try and run it into the ground. I've done just that. I was completely honest with this person, not once did i ever lie to this person, and now it looks like we might not be friends anymore. I thought i was doin alright hiding how i really felt, tryin to be that good friend everyone wants me to be. well i'm sorry i'm not perfect. I'm sorry i let things out, i fucking knew better, I knew if i'de let it out this would happend, this person wanted to know soo i told them omfg getting it off my chest it felt soo good, Only now i'm regreting it 100%, I wish i could take it all back and not tell, just keepin my mouth shut, And just being there for this person as a friend. i'm sorry!!! *CRYS* ADD ON: WELL THIS IS AN UPDATE, WELL I'M NO LONGER FRIENDS WITH THIS PERSON BECAUSE OF SOMETHING REALLY FUCKING DUMB, THIS PERSON TOLD ME NO MATTER WHAT, WE WOULD ALWAYS BE FRIENDS, THEY JUST TOSSED ME ASIDE LIKE I WAS YESTERDAYS TRASH, DONT FEEL SORRY FOR ME, YAH ITZ A LOSE, BUT I KNOW FOR A FACT I'LL FIND SOMEONE NEW TO TALK TO, THAT WONT STABB ME IN THE BACK!!!!!!! UPDATE: WELL THE TRUTH COMES OUT, IT ALL HAPPEND BECAUSE OF A TEXT I MADE TO THIS FRIEND, HIS OTHER HALF DIDENT LIKE IT THOUGHT IT WAS TOO CLOSE, EVEN THO, THIS FRIEND TOLD ME I COULD TALK TO HIM ABOUT ANYTHING AT ANYTIME, WELL FUK WAS I WRONG. SOO ITZ ALL GOOD. I DIDENT DO ANYTHING WRONG THIS TIME!!! CHECK BACK FOR MORE UPDATES!!! UP-DATE: ALL IS GOOD IN THE HOOD YALL UP-DATE: WELL LIFE AS I KNEW IT TOOK A TURN FOR THE BETTER, LIFE IS GOOD NOW!!!! MAJOR UPDATE!!!! OK WELL LIFE WAS GOOD THERE FOR AWHILE THEN SHIT TURNED AROUND AND SO DID THE PERSON. WE ARE NO LONGER FRIENDS FOR GOOD, HE TOOK SOMETHING ALIL TO PERSONAL AND YAH. SOO ENOUGH ABOUT THAT ASSHOLE!!! THIS IS THE LAST UPDATE ABOUT THIS SISUTATION!!!

Hello everyone, as most of you know i was with a guy who i was madly in love with. Everything was fine. up until his devorse came near, then everything started to change. I tryed everything in my power to help him. All he did was push me away.Soo in turn, I started pushing him away. I started talkin to people on the net, texting people, talking to other people more than i would talk to him. Then I got sick of it. I tryed so hard to bring him back to me. I did everything for him. I cooked, i cleanned, i washed his clothes for work, i made sure he had a lunch to take to work. Then one day he just snaped! He broke down and told me he was still in love with me, told me he was planning on leaving me for another woman. Then told me he wasen't gunna do it, and took every females number out of his phone right infront of me! We even went and got his number changed! but no, there was this one older woman that he had to call and thats when i knew it was over. I had done everything in my power to be the purfect girlfriend. I gave him all the sex he wanted. made sure he was happy, looks like it dident work. that day, we got back to the house. went to bed, woke up b4 he did and made him lunch for work, and made him alil something to eat b4 work. Yah well the mother fucker dident go to work, He called this older woman and went down to her, sent me a text breaking up with me, then turned around and fucked her THEN BROUGHT HER BACK TO OUR HOME!!!!!! Yah i never cried soo much She was the one who held me when i cried, talked to me when he couldn't, Well needless to say, i dident eat for about 2 weeks or more, couldent sleep. Well that same day, he went n did his court shit, came back and broke down and told me everything, that he fucked her, that he thought about me the whole time he was fucking her. That he was still in love with me and dident wanna loose me! Then almost a week later, after everything i had happend, I had it and broke the last straw and moved out. They got together, and are now seeing each other. this woman is 8 years older than him and 9 or 10 years older than me! only been together for like 2 weeks and already talking about getting married and starting a family! HAHA!!!!!! Which is kinda funny because she cant have anymore kids because she dont have what it takes to carry a baby!!!! HAHAHAHA She has him convenced that she can I have the medical proof to back this up, lil do they know. We're not talkin now, someone stepped over the line and yah, he was alil bitch and threw a fit just like a 2 year old. HAHAHAHAHAH!!!!! I'VE BEEN DIEING TO SAY THIS AND NOW I CAN, I HOPE AND PRAY THAT THEY DONT LAST LONG, BOTH ARE BACKSTABBING LIL BITCH TWO FACED ASSHOLES!!!!! THEY WONT LAST LONG!! OH AND IF THE BITCH READS THIS, GOOD FOR YOU, KNOW YOU KNOW HOW I REALLY FEEL ABOUT UR FAT UGLY BOYFRIEND STEALING CUNT ASS!!!!!

Check this out Juggalos/Lettes, a bunch of stuff has exploded since the V-Tech Killings.... The FBI is getting ready next month to release a full report on the V-Tech Killings and insiders say that they are going to try to put the blame on us all!!!. We all need to unite and stop this before it gets out of hand. Please upload this picture onto your photobucket, imageshack and your myspace and post it up on your profile to show support. Post this image everywhere even on other peoples comments to let the FBI know that "We are NOT to blame". We need to unite before things get more out of hand then they already are.

Look at the woman standing here, Look past the make up and the smile, The woman you see is a lil Girl crying out, Crying and Dieing inside. Looking for a place in this world to call her own. Looking for someone who wont judge her every move. She's looking for a way out, to show her true self. But everywhere she turns, She gets laughed at and talked about behind her back. She gave her heart to someone but that dident end very good. This lil You see is none other than me, i'm dieing inside, Wanting to know what real love feels like. Wanting to know if the person you gave ur heart to was really the person that they made themselfs out to be. I will Never know!!!

You knock on the door & seems so sincere. Slowly convinving me to open the door. Eventually I allowed you into take a sit. You did not stay long, disappearing as sudden as u've appear. Anger emerge from this sudden emptiness. You got me adapted to your companionship only to pick up & leave. I opened the door, allowing myself to be vulnerable, believing that you'll protect me & shelter me from reality, but instead, the one that I entrusted my heart & soul was the one that hurt me most