I'm not even sure why I'm doing this. Ya, that's a great way to start this shit lol. I've had a fucked up year so far. My Aunt had a stroke last night, a good friend just lost someone close, before that I broke up with someone that I truly loved, before that I quit snow plowing, and started off the year being fucked up and missing the stroke of midnight which I had plans for.... Ya, it's been fuckin wonderful so far. Well, with all this shit happening, plus some other odds and ends like me being me and throwing people away from some unknown reason like me getting a fuckin hair across my ass of them not seeing things EXACTLY how I see em. I've been doing a lot of thinking. Life's fuckin short man... Life isn't about being the fuckin hard ass that I am all too often. I guess I'm learning or... trying to learn how to be a different me. A BETTER ME. A longgggggg time ago I worked for someone whos dad was dying of cancer and I thought I was doing the right thing by not giving him a cig... SERIOUSLY... the dude's already DYING FROM CANCER!!!! I was a fuckin asshole not to give him the cig. What's it gonna do, shorten his life by 3 seconds??? I don't know, I'm fuckin rambling. I'm sorry if you took the time to read this, again, not even sure why I wrote it. If you take anything out of this besides I'm a weird fuckin dude... please try and learn from people, and be kind to eachother... you really have no fuckin clue when someone's gonna take their last breath.