1534203's blog: "life"

Will you really ever meet that one person that makes everything seem so right in your world? Makes you feel giddy when you see them,hear their voice? gives you butterflies five years later when your still with them? Their touch sets you on fire. You can't wait to lay in bed with them,just because it's comforting. This is the person that you don't love as much as the day you realized you were in love with them,but you love them more everyday that comes. Will you ever find that? Will I?

I miss playing pool and darts,I suck at both,but damn I love playing them. Football season is here! YAY! Something for me to love and get hppy about. I finally get to sit at the bar and have a beer with my friends and not worry about drama,god I love men friends! Ha,I even get to say"Noooo,not that one,she slept with your brother last year!" Sunday football BBQ'a and beer! Even in the cold and snow,I can't wait!

My daughter asked me if her father was still alive today.I guess after him not being in our lives for over seven years,with absolutely no contact one would wonder if he was or not. How do you tell your child that their father doesn't love them or care? I don't know if he is alive or not,either way I will never know. His family is from Mexico and the last contact we had I knew that is where he was going. I have never lied to my children about their father,but I also never talk down about him.At some point I am guessing they would like to know the truth about him.I just don't know when I should tell them that.I know she remembers a little bit about him,but my boys don't.My 10yr old hates a man he can't remember and my 6yr old doesn't even know him. Then again his father doesn't even know he was born.Sometimes,there just isn't a way to explain things and I am somewhat lost as to what I will and should tell them. Maybe one day,just not today.