Ok, so after talking with a couple of men about this recently, I've finally figured out what it is I'm looking for. I want more than just a fuck buddy, I want a friend. Someone who calls me and wants to hang out with me, someone who wants to do dinner and a movie on occasion. Someone to pretty much rock my world. However, I do NOT want a relationship commitment. So basically, I'm looking for a relationship without the commitment. LOL. I'm tired of being used for just sex. I want a friendship too. Lately, I've been finding that I've been turning a lot of men down. The reason? I know they are after just sex. Recently someone I had been talking to and almost met on Sunday, but I listened to my instinct. I found out later he ended up getting together with a friend of mines sister. She said that he was very borring at conversation, and that he only wanted one thing. After they were done, he ended up calling her fat. I was like WTF? I am so glad I ended up listening to my instincts on that one. Sure, I like sex as much as the next person, or at least I think I do. I am beginning to wonder about that, but I want more of a connection then a one night stand, and more than a one time fling. Also a side note, please don't tell me you love me during sex, or even afterwards. I don't want love. Not yet anyway. It just turns me off, and turns me away from you. Yes, I've had this happen to me twice. To me, it ruins the experince, and ruins the fun. I want someone who is still willing to talk to me about life, and to joke around, and still have the courage to invite me over for a second/third/ etc round. Until I know for sure that you won't use me for just one time, or use me for just one thing, this girls legs are closed. So, don't bother asking. Get to know me first, go out on a date with me. I have to know you won't use me for just sex. Like I said, I don't want the relationship commitment, I want an actual friendship WITH the benefits. Is that too much to ask for?
