Brown Eyes's blog: "LIFE!!"

just thinking ... there is someone i really truly like ... and i am scared to get involved only because i know if and when i do i will fall so hard to that person and i am scared i am going to get hurt! he is a great guy! i love hanging out with him and we have great conversations about anything! we can sit and talk for hours on end and its okay ... he has always been there for me when i need something if he can and is always there with a lending hand even if i dont need anything. sometimes when i need a hug i can call him or randomly see him and get a hug and it makes the rest of the world go away! should i be scared and jump of just sit back and let it all slip away? im so tired of bein hurt and i am not going to jump unless im jumpin with two feet in the water!!

hmm well so far all men have proven me right that they are all assholes ... but can u be the one to prove me wrong that not all men are assholes ... that there really are some good ones out there? I really hope so ... but who knows all i can do is just wait and see. Just take life day by day and wait it out and hopefully you will prove me wrong!! I can only take a chance in life and this is a big one ... so just be ready if u break my heart ... cause its gonna suck!! ive had my heart broke too many times before and im not ready for it ne more ... not yet ... i dont want a controlling asshole i want someone who will stand by my side and love me ... someone who is not going to critize me for woking when im not supposed to! I want someone to encourage me not someone who puts me down ... r u that someone??