Always Beaten and Bloody is a member LOL...'s blog: "life????? what to do"

I am well pleased with my desicion and the desicion of my wife i am a free man now and i love it a lot i wouldn't trade it for anything in the world i'm finally happy and i can go on with my life no more lies no more deceit no more CHEATING i am happy just remember to look at what you've got and look at it good then figure out if what you have is a good thing then decide what you should do with your life i know what i need to do and with the good lord willing it will happen

ik now this time someone will find themselves trying but the trying is over figure out how to win me is going to be a hell of a lot more tougher then most think tell me when tell me how is love lost or blind am i smart or dumber then the rock that i walk on take her or leave her questions questions fill my mind and they just won't go away advice has been given should i take it to heart or trash it only one knows the answers to these questions i just gotta wait on the answer to come to me come to butthead

can someone help me my mind isn't in the right place and i need help can anyone give some marriage advice or some mental help i'm going crazy i love her but i keep messing up everything i do and say is wrong but she is golden to everyone please help me