confused's blog: "life sucks"

created on 04/12/2007 | http://fubar.com/life-sucks/b73189

posted on 01/03/2017&nbs-08:00;@&nbs-08:00;10:01&nbs-08:00;pm

No more Pain
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I am to where Death resembles Heaven,
I can no longer take anymore.
Open the gates and let me in,
then seal and lock the door.

I've lost the will to carry on,
my life is at it's end
My spirit has been deeply crushed
and no longer able to mend.

I've lived my life the best I could,
and tried to do what's right.
But, this world is such an angry place,
where all they do is fight.

So, open the gates and let me in,
So I can stop the pain,
Lay me down to rest in peace
and drown me in your rain

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posted on 01/03/2017&nbs-08:00;@&nbs-08:00;10:01&nbs-08:00;pm

A day went by
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A day went by

A day went by without you
A week, a month, a year
In my mind things were foggy,
I struggled to make them clear

Was all of this really happening
It felt like the Twilight Zone
Surely someone would wake me up
I felt so all alone

But then another day went by
Another week and another month too
This had to be the worse feeling ever
How could I be living without you

Some day I'm living in a cloud
Just following my routine
Other days I'm too drunk to care
There is no in-between

And yet another day went by
And the seasons passed without hesitation
the nights were growing darker
They only added to my frustration

How could the sun still rise everyday
When All I can see is rain
How can flowers continue to bloom
Why didn't everyone feel my pain

And yet another day went by
And another and another and then four
Eventually I began to lose track
Living began to feel like a chore

It was something that I had to do
But it did not bring me delight
Living did not bring me any comfort
It only added to my plight

I couldn't face the days anymore
Too many had already gone by
Without any reason or any explanation
Only the lingering question of why

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posted on 01/02/2017&nbs-08:00;@&nbs-08:00;11:01&nbs-08:00;pm

my tears
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rip daddy 02/01/2016

The first of many tears I'm going to cry starts tonight as pictures of your memory floods by brain the way your voice used to sound breaks my heart everytime i think of you leaving way to soon. i remember your last words they still haunt me every day living in a world where nothing stay the same. walking around where we used to spend time make me miss you every time . as tears roll down my face as i wish i could feel your loving embrace i miss everyday i love you my dearest your love will never fade

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posted on 01/02/2017&nbs-08:00;@&nbs-08:00;11:01&nbs-08:00;pm

God Is Callin
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God is calling you now,

go with him and settal down,
for that is your home now.

Angel's will come to take you,
So lay your head down,
For there will be no more pain.

God is calling you now,
go with him and settal down,
For that is your home now.

No more pain sorrow or regrets,
There will soon be a stairway to heaven
and I'll be there.

God is calling you now,
Go with him and settal down,
For that is your home now.

The time will come for me to go,
I will be there soon,
So don't worry god wants me here now.

It is time for me to put away my tears an pain for
you are in a better place now.

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posted on 03/11/2011&nbs-08:00;@&nbs-08:00;10:03&nbs-08:00;pm

Soldiers
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As the day rise
As the night falls.

They stand Happy and Proud,
With their backs straight,
With their hand on their foreheads.

Slotting to our Flag.
Being Proud of their Freedom
& to be on Earth.

So they stand happy for their lives,
And their fellow people.
They all cry for their Wives, Husbands, Friends, And Family.
Hoping that they don't get sad but to proud instead.

When time comes around again
we'll be able to see them as "True Soldiers"
that they're meant to be.

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posted on 04/05/2010&nbs-07:00;@&nbs-07:00;06:04&nbs-07:00;pm

Teardrop
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If I could be a raindrop, there isn't a crevice I wouldn't explore From the moment I landed on your head, I'd adventure to the floor I would never want it to end I would be searching for something more If I could be a raindrop, there isn't an inch of skin I would miss Drizzling past your jade colored eyes, hoping to get lost in your kiss The feelings all come rushing back; you deny them reason to exist If I could be a raindrop, I'd take my time, I wouldn't rush Rolling down your chest, your breasts, your cheeks begin to blush The cool sensation sends shivers down your spine It's this contact you miss so much If I could be a raindrop, I wouldn't allow myself to be shy Trickling down your abdomen, powered by the electricity you supply Making my way below your waist, hoping to be impossible to deny If I could be a raindrop, I would entice you with my touch Streaming down the inside of your thighs, your hands begging for something to clutch What is unknown is that you hold my heart, and it's waiting, anxiously, to be crushed If I could be a teardrop, I'd let go of every ounce of pain I'd let go of every bit of hope; the reality of you isn't possible to obtain.

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posted on 04/05/2010&nbs-07:00;@&nbs-07:00;06:04&nbs-07:00;pm

I'm Already Broken, You Can't Break Me Anymore
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You can't break me to pieces,

I'm already broken.

You can't make me cry,

I'm already crying.

You can't make me hurt,

I'm already dying.

Through this I know the worst has come,

My nightmare has just begun.

I feel scared and alone with no one around.

I choke on my sobs, but you'll never hear a sound.

I want to be breathless, to feel no more.

I'm already broken, starting at my core.

I'm weak and I'm fragile if you don't already know,

I do my best to make it not show.

I'm broken and shattered, shaking inside.

All I want to do now is run..and forever hide.

Maybe if I'm alone no one could hurt me anymore.

I can live in my own pain and misery,

Maybe he won't even miss me.

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posted on 04/23/2008&nbs-07:00;@&nbs-07:00;09:04&nbs-07:00;am

the way i feel
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The hardest thing in this world is to find someone who knows all your flaws, differences, and mistakes but still loves everything about you True love is when you shed a tear and still want him, It’s when he ignores you and you still love him, It’s when he loves another and you say "i’m happy for you" When all you really want to do is CRY! You can miss someone who died, you can miss someone who moved away, but the worst way to miss someone is someone you see every day There’s always gonna be that one thing you wish for but never get, that one mistake you can never take back, && most of all that one memory you would do anything just to have it again. If i could show you how much you hurt me you would never be able to look me in the eyes again im not that same girl anymore

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posted on 04/23/2008&nbs-07:00;@&nbs-07:00;09:04&nbs-07:00;am

Now You’re Gone
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I see you’ve left, and gone away. When again shall I see you? You’re one of the best friends I’ve ever had. These are the memories I hold of you: Arguing togther, over nothing at all, next to each other in a history class. I never dreamed I’d come to love, The one whom I’d harrass. Being together, those days in spring, I never thought I was your "one," Speaking as best friends, staying together, Spending a lifetime out in the sun. Long summer days in a bowling alley, Five dollars to cover the cost of the gift. Silver jersey and wheeled sneakers on, Dancing along to fast guitar riffs. Leaning on my shoulder, telling a joke, Accompanied by my mini-skirt’s lace, Stealing things and acting profoundly, While music filled the place. Long phone calls on a Thursday night, Spent talking about nothing real. My love for metaphors, your best friends, And the ways that we both feel. Propping your legs up onto mine, Your cologne’s scent still fills this air. Sitting alone, talking ever so slowly, Touching my face, clothes, and hair. Before Christmas Break, I’d gotten my wish- You were finally mine. I spent ten vain days in happiness, Before I realized, it wasn’t our time. Valentine’s day spent thinking of you, Taking over my Ozzy sunglasses, Feelings of hope under red agony, Writing love poems to break the masses. Akward glances, our eyes would meet. My name was spoken eventually, Laughing off Fridays spent near you, Those words were lies, essentially. But now you’ve left, and gone away. When again shall I see you? One of the best friends I’ve ever had; Those were the memories I’d held of you

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posted on 04/23/2008&nbs-07:00;@&nbs-07:00;09:04&nbs-07:00;am

friendship Quotes
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~*i wont be your plastic barbie doll, but ill be your best friend. i wont always have a real smile on my face, but ill put a fake one there and pretend...*~ My friends are the kind that if the house was burning down, They would be making smores && hitting on the firemen everyone is goning walk out on you at one point in time. but the one standing right beside you tellin you its all right. well thats your [[BESTFRiEND]] &+ that person will be there til the end.! <3 You know how they say when the world Walks out you will always have your (BESTFRIEND) Well it’s kinda funny because when the world walked out on me my (BESTFRIEND) was right behide :( She’s the kind of girl who will burst out laughing in dead silence because of something that happened yesterday Feelings are many But words are few Clouds are dark But sky is blue Friendship is a paper Life is a glue But my friendship is true

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