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PozLotus 9x6's blog: "Life Stuff"

created on 03/11/2008  |  http://fubar.com/life-stuff/b196838

Recently, I had an experience that I want to share.... unfortunately, I cannot really share it with anyone because it isn't really possible to effectively communicate something like this... I will, however, try.

Several months ago, someone asked my assistance to help them sort out what it was they were experiencing. It was very troublesome for them and there was significant confusion about what it was they wanted and where they were going in their life.

I tried to be as present for them as I could and listened to them with all the attention I could bring to our encounters. It became apparent that most of what was being experienced was, in some way, mostly illusory. The events which followed were miraculous and have absolutely nothing to do with the point of reference we shall call Ken Teel. Ken Teel, as I know it, was simply a witness. I mean this most seriously... primarily because there is no way that Ken Teel could have thought this into being.... All that was done was that I shared my experience with attention...

So... over the months, we met very regularly. Mostly one-on-one, but there were other times when there was a group setting. I taught this person the practice of mindfulness and a method of meditation called Vipissana, a method I learned in 1994 and one which I have been practicing with a little persistence and almost no consistency since (15 years this month). As time went on, we talked about the practice of mindfulness and the importance of the following statement, "It is a spiritual axiom that anytime we are disturbed, no matter what the cause, there is something wrong with us." If one looks at the disturbance with all of one's attention, that is to say, meditatively, one will see that this is the case....and the thing that is wrong with me is this: When I am disturbed, I need to find a way to become undisturbed. I don't need to analyze where the disturbance originated... if that is necessary it will become obvious if I simply LOOK....

So... after a few months of working with this person in this manner and sharing my own process with them, there came some insight. This has been the case many times but this case was so beautiful that I wanted to share it.

The insight is simply that there was fear. Not specifically "fear of" something... just fear... and part of that insight was seeing that there is no difference between this fear and that fear... there is just fear (not "fear of".....). With that insight came the understanding that, insight into fear and into the nature of fear dissolves the fear. This is because insight can only see Truth and fear cannot ever be true unless it is a clear, present and imminent physical threat. Otherwise it is based on the future or the past (neither of which is happening NOW). When the situation is a clear, present and imminent physical threat the necessary action will be obvious... so much so that there is no thinking about it... there is only action. When one sees this clearly, there is, in that moment, an ending of psychological fear.

As a result of this insight, the person was able to address the situation that had been so troublesome, take responsibility for their thinking and their actions and the 'problem' ended. As a result of that, only love remained.

This was an amazing thing to witness. One which had nothing to do with this person or with me.... it was truly only the unfolding of Love in the absence of fear, which is our natural inheritance.

I had to share this somewhere, with someone...because I have witnessed it and I didn't know what it was I was witnessing until this weekend. I think the actual shift which, for lack of a better term, I will call a miracle occurred months ago.... all I am seeing right now is the flowering of that shift.

This event changed the way I see my interactions with people. I know it changed this person's life drastically...

And none of it is personal to me or to them... it was an unfolding of Love. One which occurred because of ATTENTION.

I am filled with such amazement and such gratitude for the opportunity to witness this. I cannot really express it.

Life is interesting... I received the rejection letter in the mail yesterday. Bummer... It's been a while since I have wanted something that badly. However: There are some things that I noticed in this process: 1. I was able to get the attention of a very talented team at an organization that I am impressed with. This is a shift because it means that I would (and potentially could) 'join a club that would have me as a member'. That's new. 2. I took a risk. Something I don't like doing. 3. I didn't get what I wanted and was surprisingly okay with it. I am not saying that I am apathetic or happy about it - I am very disappointed. However, this does not define who I am, it is just something that's happening... not unlike waiting in line at the bank, eating a meal or typing words on a screen... it is as it is... 4. Something has shifted with my current job. I still have grown to dislike (almost hate) the organization where I work, but now I absolutely know that, whatever is going on there has nothing to do with me. 5. I have more paper to print my resume, more envelopes and more stamps... I am pleasantly surprised that, while this is disappointing, it isn't a defining moment at all.

Meanwhile, someone sent me this and I opened it today.

Live Well, Live Fully, Be Grateful

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