11/21/11

 in my life

ive been throu alot

i was almost a wife 

an one again i was forgot

ive shed alot of tears

conquored most of my fears

i lost a love, but gained another

im no longer alone, for i am a mother

to have your heart broke so many times

ive done alot an commited sum crimes

i almost died, but am now alive

i was revived, all my greed set aside

without me knowing

my son is wut kept me going

ive struggled an been knocked down

the depression i suffor left me with a frown

ive come so far n been throu alot

the person i once was has not been forgot

ive ended the chapter on the life i once had

i started a new beginning, at first i was sad

ive been up n liked wut i saw

only to stumble an watch myself fall

i kno its my life an i kno wut i see

i cant help but wonder if its were i shud b

no time to look at my past this life i have is moving to fast

i kno wen life gets me down

i shud pk myself up n lose the frown

to me its hard an almost hopless

to put up a fight is jus as ridiculous

to cut all my ties

os having to say my goodbyes

to pk myself up requires sum help

looking back at my life i thought it was bad

but to reaize wut my son goes thou us jus sad

it helps to have friends an fam that care bout u

knowin your down they help you throu

i kno im not the best person on the outside

but get to kno me you will understand the inside

i was once at the top

i never gave it much thought

wen you cum to your end

dont b so quick to defend

there will always b a place for you

it dont matter wut you've done or r about to do

jus look to the sky

theres no need to cry

wipe away your tears

conquor your fears

for once use ur voice 

tell everyone they have a choice

wen you become vain

ur the one that suffers the pain

ive had loved ones lost

for that we all payed the cost

sumtimes i feel i have nothing left

the memories of happiness an love i kept

most days i wonder if im a good mother

but to my son he dont no other

for so long i didnt kno who i was 

but to have my son an his love

the feeling is better than all the above

i have a great man that stays by my side

wit him in my life theres no reason to hide

the love of a child

is a feeling so wild

b4 my son i was filled with greed 

i only cared about me

thats not how it shud b

in my life ive learned some things

life isnt always wut YOU want it 2 b

its no longer bout greed an only me

its bout who i am an wut i see

no time for me to come undone

i am now a better person

cuz ill always b there for my son

i will always stay by his side

letting him kno theres no reason to hide

im goin to stand my ground

so i can tell him his mother is proud

to tell my son that i forbid 

not lettin him go down the path i did

but my son has his own voice

so i mus step aside an let him make that choice

if only my son knew

wut horrors hes been throu

i shud  let it b

for wut happened that day ill always blame me

im always hangin my head in shame

my family tells me im not to blame

his father has married

so his burdons i no longer carry

he has a new life 

an by his side a nieve wife

they have gone down the wrong path

an for that they will suffor the wrath

i have my own life

who knows if ill b a wife

i am with a man an i fell in love 

still seeking advice from the God above

i still look for a sign

jus to kno im doin jus fine

my thoughts of the past im leavin behind

as i live my life i kno they'll intertwine

i was the one that was abused

yet im the one that they accuse

i jus wish that they cud understand 

im the one that needs the helping hand

for a few yrs it all went well

than towards the end thats wen it fell

i was the one they pushed aside

alone in the dark is were i hide

no longer he stood by my side

i opened my eyes wide

an him i did find

the man of my dreams

who heard my pleas

an silenced my screams

once again i felt gifted

for my hopes were again lifted

for all the tears that i have shed

for a broken heart that bled

an all my scars that ran so deep

im no longer in pain cuz of the man i keep

for wen i sleep i no longer scream

because of this man i always dream

wit him by my side i can reach the sky

wit him in my life i no longer cry

he lets me kno that he cares n is givin

wit him an my son my life is worth livin.