DivaliciousKym's blog: "Life in general"

Seek Not My Heart Oh gentle winds 'neath moonlit skies, Do not you hear my heartfelt cries? Below the branches, here about, Do not you sense my fear and doubt? Side glistening rivers, sparkling streams, Do not you hear my woeful screams? Upon the meadows, touched with dew, Do not you see my hearts a'skew? Beneath the thousand twinkling stars, Do not you feel my jagged scars? Seek not my mournful heart kind breeze, For you'll not find it 'mongst these trees. It's scattered 'cross the moonlit skies, Accompanied by heartfelt sighs. It's drifting o're the gentle rain, A symbol of my silent pain. It's buried 'neath the meadow fair, Conjoined with all the sorrow there. It's lost among the stars this night, Too far to ease my quiet fright. No gentle winds, seek not my heart, For simply ... it has torn apart.

Why does it matter what other people think about us? Should be feel bad about ourselves because other people dont like us? Why do we try to change who we are for the sake of being wanted? I found out that is excatly what I have been trying to do for 20 years. I cant even tell you what I really like to do or what I do for fun or just anything about me personally without feeling like I will be judged or hated. The thought of rejection just sends a chill up my spin! Doesnt everybody just want to be wanted and excepted for who they are no matter what race, sexual prefrence or religion they are? I know I do! The main thing that makes me so angry is when people sit around and bad mouth the gays or the black people and make them feel like they are "different" when everyone is the same and should be treated with the same respect. My bestfriend is gay and I have seen him go threw torture for standing up for his gay rights. I have seen him be laughed at and mocked for being who he is.....he shouldnt be made to feel this way and neither should anyone else. I also think that the most vulgar thing you can do is call a black person a nigger....that is so disrespectful! And while we are on the subject when guys call a gurl a whore or a slut and they dont even know her...dont call anybody a name like that if you wouldnt want somebody to call your mother the same name. And I think it is dont right horrible when somebody uses the Lords name in vain, as woman we shouldnt have such foul mouths but it really upsets me when I hear people use that word, it just makes me want to shoot them in the foot! And when people dont think you are skinny enuff and make you feel like you have to be a certain weight to fit in. If you feel comfortable in your own skin that should be enuff! So I am done with all this drama of people liking me or not liking me because personally I am not living to please other people!