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Yes, I have disappeared, my Date was with the Angel of Death and boy have we been dancing back and forth. Sure J.B.F. hurt my friend but guess what? I am "Goddess_Luna" and I have had alot of ups and downs that just pushed me off this Site. Until Baby Jesus wrote me a week ago, wanting all of us back on... I have been so busy writing on many Sites most of my articles I've written is about Type 1 Diabetes and now being on an Insulin Pump. My Diabetes has been good since July 18, 2008 but there are times it goes down too low. Try having reading of 41 your Blood Glucose. What happens me? My body drops in temperature (normally I am lower than most at 97.6 degrees), I get the shakes and my heart speeds up. Enough to make me think, maybe I am about to go home finally but no... Then the race is on to get my Blood Glucose back up to normal like between 75 to 150 B.G.'s, with a Candy Bar and a Soda Pop ( I have drop way back in drinking Soda Pops,some days I will not drink any Pops at all now). I used to love drinking Dr. Pepper (then Mt. Dew came out with 3 new Pops this year, which I liked two out of three)but since I only can eat one meal a day, my other two meals is either Equate, Glucerna, or Ensure Nutritional Shakes to balance my Carbs. My other prefer drinks is Kool-Aid, Chai Tea and rarely iced cold Water. I have dropped more weight and looking damn sexy in smaller clothes now,I have gotten rid of all my cocoon clothes that I used to hide myself under. I still have my big breasts, damn them... I asked my Doctor if Medicaid would pay for Breasts Reduction, she said yes. So I am thinking seriously to get my breasts made smaller, God knows I would love to have a 'C' cup or maybe a 'B' cup and that should take pressure off my back. I have never liked having big breasts, especially when my body frame is small and I am losing inches off of my height which sucks, I was 5'3 which is consider Petite but most Companies that make clothes, they make for women at heights taller than 5'6" tall, which sucks. Plus now I have to put slits in my shirts, nightdresses and dresses for the tube to my Insulin Pump, arrgghh! But with all the damage I went through in 2007 with my Diabetes, I am now physically Handicap and J.B.F. misunderstood why I wasn't always on the Internet, my health was falling fast in July of 2007. I have Pherpil Neuropathy now (which means my Brain isn't sending commands to my lower back to my feet,I fall down alot now and cannot run anymore), Cataracts in both of my eyes and in my Right eye my Diabetes Retinopathy (Diabetic Eye Disease)is back and both my hands have Neuropathy themselves. Some of us that fall to Earth are giving bodies that may fail us or we may die young due to the bodies we were given. I know I am not my Meat Body and my Soul is burning in the brightest white light now. According to my Psychic Sister she said, I am about to go home (when? She and I can't predict that),we both have tired bodies but our minds are sharp as tact's. On September 13, 2007 I had a Carpal Tunnel Surgery done to my left hand and that Doctor was hopeful and sure of himself of curing the Neuropathy along with the Carpal Tunnel. Well 3 weeks later the Neuropathy grabbed my left hand again. I can never win over over the problems that are associated with Diabetes. Knock on wood, hopefully my Insulin Pump will put a stop anything else that could or can occur. I have develop some facial ticks around my eyes and it bugs the hell out of me. This year in January I went out on a date with a guy off the Internet, he wasn't what I was looking for and my son didn't like him one bit. In February till March another guy started talking to me on the phone, once again my invisible Priest Collar appears and I was hearing his Confessions. Man, is there any nice Guys in Anchorage anymore? Yes, you're hearing me now! I am willing to give a Nice Man a chance to romance me, no Bad Boys, Married Men or Players need not apply. With one Site I am on, I have discover I could be a Mistress if I want to be, I have brought many men into my On-Line Cage and fulfilled some of their Fantasies by chatting with them on the Site. Though this isn't what I want to be... I just want to love making a Man feel Loved and know how to keep them excited, that they would miss me sorely if they left me... Which brings me to my Ex, he started an affair while still married to me with another married woman, that is totally screwed up but I knew he was doing it. Being a Natural Witch with a few gifts that were screaming at me, that something was going on with him. He used my Son (my Son isn't his) to not let me know what was up. LOL, when you have a Gift of Intuition, I knew something wasn't right and it was screaming at me since February 2008. Okay, here's the truth so far about our Marriage... Our Papers were never filed due to him tearing them up and burning them in a Drunken Rage. So today I talk to a Receptionist at a Lawyers Office and she said if the papers weren't filed then, I don't need a Divorce but now how to get my Maiden Name back. Cause with him with the other woman, he is out (strike 3), the woman he's with now is a Loon. It serves him right, the Dope-head, Abuser and a Drunken Dip-head. This year (on June 29 this year would've been 20 years but we have been together for 21 years) is all down the drain. I asked him today,(he's back in Jail)for being Drunk again and according to Her talking to my Son he had taken 100 Valiums. I asked are you feeling the flames? He said yes. I am the Angel that can make a male burn when they can't deal with a sinking ship. Due to them not keeping their Johnson's in their pants. One mess up with me, they are out of my life for good and they burn for it. Funny it was my last Husband (or not my Husband) that figured it out about my past B.F.'s and my real last Husband and it jump up and bite his @ss. Well, I'm not crying over spill milk that had soured in 1999, when he left the Hospital during my Liver Biopsy. I know they had me awake during the procedure but they must have made me go totally numb and asleep after they were done, cause when I wake up in a Hospital Bed laying on my right side, to smelling the rot gut smell of cheap Vodka on his breath.That was when our fake Marriage (though we were married with Witnesses and a Preacher and the Preacher's Daughter, also my Father was there too) crashed right then and there. Besides he got arrested in 1997, 1999, 2001, 2002, 2007 and now 2008. Most of his arrests were D.U.I.'s, drinking in Public Places, riding a bicycle and falling down (that usually gets an Ambulance call). So far this year according to 'Her' telling my Son in July he cut his throat and he went to the Hospital a few times and discovered that he doesn't have Cancer which I told him back in 2006 the Cancer was going to skip him but he has a tumor in his bladder (which explains the pain he got when he came), they were going to Operate on him but she decided Food was more Important than my Ex getting his health better, I knew his Bladder was bad back in 1996 and '97 cause he would have bright blood in his urine and he's the kind of guy that doesn't clean where he tinkles. Of course too the taken a 100 Valiums. Good thing I said enough was enough when I did (In 2002, but my Housing Assistance also had me write a letter stating he couldn't live with me as long as I am with Section 8, I stayed to myself and raised my Son. Sure I am lonely but I figure the right man will be coming soon and he might be someone from my past. It could be a Childhood Sweetheart or the brother of my best friend that killed himself back when I was 16 years old. If it is William, oh man his Red Hair drove me crazy for him. It figures my best friend kills himself and his older brother falls in love with me. I wouldn't mind either if it is the one guy in High School that chased me for 8 years before I gave into him. Though there are many guys on the Net that have been asking me to marry them, I think Mr. Reaper isn't happy with me anymore since our Dance has stopped. But my poem called the 'Immortal Dance' is being published--YAY!! TTFN and Blessed Be... P.S. My Son and I are about to go see Batman the Dark Night.
This supposed to be a single Site for people to make Friends, Dating and possible relationship... All this place has done to my friend was breaking her's heart, not once but twice by the same 'Rebel Redneck Yankee'. Oh, he thinks he is so smooth and the Lady that he loves now is still in a very unhappy marriage. Funny thing is the compliments were exact what he said to my friend, but we can't prove it cause she killed one account cause he was acting very strange to her, why? She didn't know the first time, second time he accusers her of making him have guilt trips about him coming up to Alaska to meet her the first. She really didn't ask him to come up here like she wouldn't, she didn't know him any better than a Tom, Dick or Harry or Michael Myers 'Halloween'. Oh, at first he talks like a Gentleman does until 2 weeks into August he just starts acting odder and odder. Then a Family situation pops up beyond anyones control, what I think as time got closer he just didn't want to come up here the Player couldn't walked, the talk. So, he leaves Goddess_Luna for a territory that belongs to another man. I feel for any woman that gets stuck in a situation of either an Unhappy Marriage, an extremely bad Abusive Marriage or a Marriage that just goes South. Goddess_Luna loved that man, she calls J.B. now cause before he tried to break-up with her behind her's back she started a Private Dective Story, her heart still hurts. This she may never recover from but she smiles knowing that Fate is coming soon. And him for breaking her heart, you know the old saying: "What goes around, comes around". I pray it teaches the 'Player' and the married woman that claimed her love for another, now seems to be a line of B.S. to Goddess_Luna and I think she maybe right. Oh, J.B. the story Goddess_Luna is writing unfortunately after a few rumps in the hay, your character dies... You were good at nourishing back her back to health, yes she falls in love with you but Her's Master comes to take her to his place and your death is her's strength. All 'Players and Cheaters' should pay the price... In old films and in the olden times they did...
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What do you think? Have you tried dating a Pieces, a Leo or a Scorpio? Or have you ran the gambit of most of the Zodiac signs whether you believe in it or not? It seems a couple decades my one friend also a Cancer found another Cancer they were a damn good match and she married him, too bad he was in the Air Force. Cause after they married he was shipped off to another location breaking off my friendship with my friend. As they say long distant relationships never seemed to work out, I guess it was the same with friendship. The only reasons I get paranoid : I always got cut cutting their hair, I used to be a Hairdresser. I knew every time one would sit in my chair an snip either my pointer or middle finger gets snipped. I always asked afterward if they were a Pieces and they said "Yes, why?" I told them for some strange reasons they make me cut myself and when I was using a pair of scissors razor sharp, sometimes I wouldn't notice till I would see blood running down my hand. Right away I head to the First-Aid box and bandage it the best I could. Maybe I should had a sign up on my station "No Pieces Please!!" :laugh: I just thought to ask you these things and see if you had certain Zodiacs people got to you. I do know that Leo's are not Loyal for the King of the Jungle as their suppose to be they are the biggest players when it comes to the males. And the only Scorpio is my Father and he is a good man.If I did date a Scorpion, would it be strange for me thinking in some small way if he is like my Father. I don't want to fall under a spell thinking of a Scorpio. I love my Father...yuck! The yuck isn't for anything I could think of with a naughty mind.
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