SweetGrnEydGaGrl's blog: "Karla's World"

Every morning, I wake up and the first thought in my mind is what in the hell is my purpose? Somehow or another, I always end up fucking something up. I get so damn tired of dealing with people's crap, that I wish I could just f*cking disappear forever. The only thing that I ever did right was my little girl. Now, tell me, what the hell am I supposed to feel when several people in my life keep teling me that I screwed everything up? Apparently, I wasn't thinking, supposedly. I'm just done. Mentally & Physically. I don't know, maybe I'm just over reacting, but sometimes I just don't even feel like living. Anyways, there's my blog. Do with it what you will.

Okay, so for those of you that have not had any panic attacks, this blog isn't for you. If you've never had a panic attack, you don't know what I'm talking about. Today, I probably had the worst panic attack that I've ever had. I was at work and all of a sudden I had this tight feeling in my chest and just went down throughout my body. I don't know why I have these, but they are the worst feeling in the world. I need some suggestions on what I can do to ease them. Maybe music, I don't know. So if you've ever had a panic attack, what do u do to make it better? Please let me know:) Thanks guys!

After spending all these months back here in GA, it made me realize that there are so many f*ing retarded idiots in this small town...After my divorce, I built up a wall around myself so no one could get in, but when I tried to let someone in, it just backfired. Big Time. Maybe I shouldn't let my walls down. Maybe it's not my time to find happiness. All I know is that I'm so emotionally drained, I just want to scream at the top of my lungs and finally be happy for once.