maranda's blog: "just me lol"

so i was with this guy for a while all was great but we lived in seperate states. he wanted to move in with me i freaked thought it was a little fast. i have been there and done that before so jumping into things scares the hell outta me. we broke up kind of i mean we where still talking but i told him i didn't want him to move in with me just yet. so yesterday i found out from him that he is dating someone else but that he said he still loves me and wants to be with me and i am the only one for him and then he asked me to marry him and broke up with this girl. he still says he wants me and wants to marry me and all that. so i get on here today after telling him that i wasn't sure that was part of the whole jumping into things and see on his page that he is still fuengaged to her and hers said the same and said that they were still together i overlooked it knowing it takes me a while to change things too. so i go into the room where he dj's and both he and her are in there and you know how it lets you read the whole conversation from before you get in the room well i did like a dumbass and they where still talking to eachother like they where together and all that. so i tell him no on everything and he keeps trying to change my mind and all that but wouldn't you do the same thing as me after all that? i mean i really loved this guy and until i saw all that i was actually considering what he was saying to me but now i am not sure what to do help!!!!

so like for some reason my ex husband looked me up on myspace and has been talking to me for about a week now. i am so confused cause he has a girlfriend but we are talking like we used to a long time ago before there was ever a problem with our relationship. i don't know what the hell i am thinking or what the hell i should do. i am just so confused i mean here is the man i was in love with for most of my childhood and adult life acting just like the man i feel in love with so long ago. but he has a girlfriend and i don't know what is going on or what he wants from me but talking to him is making all those old feeling come back and i just don't know what to do.