If my absence doesn't bother you, then what was my presence worth to you?
There is something you need to know. You can't push me away, then suddenly look up and wonder where I am. You had access to me...ALL of me. And if you happen to find me again, you won't have access to THAT me ever again. You'll have access to the version of me that YOU created, from the energy YOU sent me. That's the me you deserve. Waiting for your attention is a mountain that I cannot continue to climb. I'm tired.
Regardless, there is definitely some healing happening. I can't explain how...it just is. The things that completely consumed my thoughts and took so much of my energy don't hold anything over me anymore. I may still hurt, but I'm not mad or upset or bothered. I'm in a more peaceful place, and I'm trying to enjoy this feeling.
