sassy's blog: "in memory"

well what can i say it is alot harder than i ever imagined to get life in order im sat here thinking of my gorgeous son and wishing i could cry and scream i would give my life to hold him one more time smell his gorgeous baby smell see his beautiful smile see him pull tongues at me one time or just to sit there watching him sleeping i feel so alone i have no one to turn to no one to care how i feel no one who will ever understand how i feel it is 11.30 at night and all i want to do is to go and sit by his grave i wish someone would just sit there and listen to me let me just talk but there is no one i know i sound self centred and and atention seeker

well guys since last being on my special little baby boy died i miss him so much and wish i could just hold him one more time the only thing i can be thankful for is he is no longer suffering and went very peacfully in my arms not a day goes by when i dont shed a tear for him and everyone tells me it gets easier my only question is when?

it is fast approaching my little girls birthday she would have been 2 and my little boy would have been 1 in memory i would like to post this poem in loving memory They say that times a healer but as the time goes on, I seem to find it just as hard To face the fact you've gone. And today it's the anniversary of the day that you went away, and i'm standing here at your graveside And believe me when i say. You'll never be forgotten And every year i'll shed a tear, But it's only because i love you And wish u were still here