Entry for June 02, 2007
I think i've come to the end of my rope for one reason and one reason only and I'm tired of being frustrated about it, simple as fucking that and it's going to be said on here and Cherrytap in seperate blogs and hopefully this wakes some up! Anyways, I'm tired of not being treated good by others other than a those few like my girlfriend Kate and also a few others who I won't say here, What I will say is, people, I'm still a human being and I've got feelings like you do and everybody else and people shouldn't be faceitious and say one minute, they see me for me and then go off and sit there and not be honest about how they fruly feel, if your my friend than great but if your going to "act like my friend" and not be one for sure and be faceitious, I got a newsflash for you, it's done, I don't care if that means I clean out a good majority of my list of friends on here or Cherrytap or what have you because I'm frustrated and sick of the bullshit and sick of those being faceitious here, I didn't get on Messenger to be avoided or blackballed or whatever, if your going to be doing them things than guess what, you won't be on my list any longer, because I'm not here to play, I'm 39 going on 40 yrs old here and the games stop now, it's just like this damn crap with having a house phone and a listed phone number, it's been there in a phone book for over two years and does hardly anyone call me other than family or bill collectors or collegues from the Grand Traverse RICC and do I get asked to go throw a football and other shit? Hell no and it's pathetic! Now how would you all like it, if I treated you that way, by not talking to you on any Instant Messsenger or CherryTap or asked you to do anything with me? Wouldn't that piss you off? Wouldn't that piss you off to a certain extent if I didn't call you on the phone and you had a listed phone number or unlisted? I honestly think some people need to go look in the mirror and ask themselves that and IF they don't think they're doing anything wrong than they're not very smart at all, simple as that! I don't smoke cigarettes, I rarely drink any alcohol or do any illegal drugs and if people can't accept me at all for that, than to hell with ya, because I am not here to play games or accept sympathy for my disability at all and if you can't talk to me whether it's in a IM or in a chat room and treat me as human being and accept me for me, than screw you, because I'm thru banging my head against the wall, for good.
