What I am typing right now will hopefully help out more than one person. It’s no exactly a lecture, what I’d rather call it is a statement of hope. In the event that something not so great happens to whoever reads this; just read on, because it might help you in the end.
A lot of people in this world feel that they have entirely too many problems that they are dealing with, and regardless of everybody else, they may find themselves isolated from the rest of society, leaving them in a void of hopelessness. Some of these people may turn to different ways of handling these problems, several good, and several bad, and depending on the choices they make, there may be alternate turnouts for them.
Conflicts tend to get the worst of people, and if they are desperate enough, they will be willing to do anything to get out of it, even if it means ending themselves altogether. Well, hopefully if your reading this right now I will be able to help you in some way, shape, or form. Try to think on the more positive side of things, there are so many ways to solve your problems. Now I’m going to be honest, I used to be one of those people who looked at the darker side of life when problems came my way. Here are some of the things I had turned to:
1) Cutting/burning - This is one of the most common ways that people (both young and older) turn to. What I absolutely hate about this is how the people NOT doing this judge the people that do. I personally heard somebody say, “Why don’t they just be a man and kill themselves if they’re so depressed.” This bothered the heck out of me, knowing that I was one of those people. Cutting and burning has it’s reasons behind the act. Some people cut because they feel that they’ve done something wrong, or that they’ve hurt somebody, so they inflict pain on themselves to make up for it. Others cut because they are accused of doing something wrong when they didn’t, so they punish themselves in that way. The pain of cutting covers up the emotional pain that they feel inside.
2) Drugs/Overdosing - Another common solution to those who can’t handle themselves in an appropriate manner. The sense of getting “high” is a way for people to get away from their problems, as other things come to mind. Now overdosing is something that I did that I regretted. Taking medication of some sort and swallowing it down with alcohol really has it’s effects, emotionally and physically. It’s one of the larger causes of suicides in the country.
3) Now to be a little bit more appropriate, I went to a therapist. However, the man did not really help me that much; he brought up the problems stated above and more, and I learned more about my father than I thought I knew. The doctor got into my head entirely too much, more than I wanted him to. Eventually one day he unofficially diagnosed me with depression. Yeah, so apparently everybody is depressed but when you are depressed, you feel like you’re the only one, and there‘s nothing that could help you. He put me on a “hot list” as he called it. The “hot list” is for people who are more at risk of hurting themselves than all the other patients. And he also recommended that I see the office’s psychiatrist as soon as possible, because he thought I would have the recurring thoughts I did and try to kill myself, and if that was the case, he gave me a number to call, which I still have to this day. Anyway, my father took me out of the sessions before the doctor was able to prescribe medication, because he didn‘t think the man would be able to help me, and strangely I felt the same way.
Basically none of the things above seemed to help especially the first two things. The only thing that really seemed to help me was BEING SOCIAL. If you’re one of the anti-social people in this world ( I also used to be), get out and make some more friends, because there is absolutely NOTHING in the world that is better than great friends. They have made me such a better person, as well as a positive thinker.
Every now and then I get my relapses of depression, but I get over them eventually. Just know that there is never a reason to give up hope, no matter how bad things get. Life is way too short to be stressing over the stupid little things that hardly affect you. I don’t really think that there are any more topics that I can cover, or I can’t think of any more at the moment. If I do I’ll update this. I truly do hope that this has helped whoever reads this, even if they aren’t under the same stress that I’ve talked about. Know that I really care about anybody who is going through what I went through. If you need someone to talk to I’m always here. You can either IM me at Spydurrboi or email me at Spydurrboi@hotmail.com.