i guess if i put this in here that in some small way ill get some clossier .ive seen some prity grafick stuff in my time cut up bodies to sixteen year old girls that ive pulled out of the water after 36 hours . just in case your thinking how , i used to be in a search and resceu called tri county, here in new brunswick. even when i was in the army ive been shot at and shot at poeple and have hit some .but my point is they always try to get you to talk about what happend . but you never forget those images that are in your minds eye.as i said there are some things id rather just forget but cant and never will i guess . but i have come to gripps with them ,i havent forgiven my self for some but i can live with them . i guess thats why i have such a great respect for men and women that risk all to save some . it is the werst job in the world when you just found some ones lost child dead in the woods ,you just wish you could bring them back to life but you cant .well this beers for all those HEROS out there .
