Deadly Red's blog: "goddess"

I think everyone at some point in their life has liked or even loved someone who either doesnt like you back or doesnt even know you are alive. Seems I have fallen for the guys who cant love me back or just dont know how I feel. Both are my fault but whos to blame any one self for their heart and is it really love or just lust after something we cant have. Is it our way to know we still feel, by wanting something we cant have and getting our hearts broken? Could it be that if we did get what we wanted we wouldnt want it anymore? I've been there too, wanted someone so bad but when I got them had a change of heart and instead of them breaking my heart i broke theirs. So we go through life and want and need but never appreciate what we do have. We keep the bad apples and throw out the great ones then end up without any at all. All I want is to find someone who wont break my heart, treat me like Im someone special, and love me for who I am. Isnt that all any of us want??

time to rant and rave, people fucking suck anymore. answer me this, you're talking to someone getting to know them better and out of nowhere they stop talking to you and dont let you write them or take your calls, dont you think they should at least let you know why? oh and then theres others who are just fucking stupid to think that you wont find out that they are lieing to you. im annoyed with everyone right now and today has to be one of those days that imma tell you how i see it. so basicly, today i think everyone should just fuck off...

im just wondering if anyone reads these things, i mean im a mad blogger at myspace but i can see if someone reads it and here im not sure if anyone would really give a shit so heres a test to see if anyones gonna read it or if im wasting my time...