It's been awhile since I've been here. Alot of things went on that kept my mind away from the idea of psychological diversions.
I went through some personal difficulties.
I got single. And by "got" I mean that I didn't have a choice in the matter. She threw me out and another guy moved in a few days afterwards. I'm not supposed to talk about this, or feel bitter because my ex feels that it all "makes her look bad".
I have no desire to make her look bad. I love her, and I wish her the absolute best with her new man.
Nonetheless, I am a little bitter. I lost a woman. But I also lost a future that I had already gotten used to having with her. I lost all of my momentum in life.
But that was then. This is now. It's been seven weeks. or so, since this all happened, and things are beginning to change for the better. I'm beginning to act like my normal self, as the pain of loss begins to fade. I'm not dating yet but I do have a couple of people that I could end up going out with, when the time is right. I'm finding it more and more easy to feel optimistic these last few days.
And so here I am, back on the Internet, which had become a "no no" in my previous situation. There was a time when I would get bored and spend way too much time blogging, or surfing. Now there's nobody in my life who'll feel slighted if my attention is upon something as mindless and trivial as this.
And maybe that's a good thing. Ya know?
I think that there are many good things on the horizon, fo rme. And I think I'm ready to stretch out my arms to reach them.
