A True Independent Queen's blog: "From Tricklers Tongue"

Love`s Risk There is a risk involved in everything Every time you share a smile Every time you shed a tear You are opening yourself up to hurt Some people tread slowly through life Avoiding closeness risks bring, Side stepping what they can`t understand Turning away from those who care too much Those who care stay too long Those who hold to tightly There is never an easy way to love You can not approach it cautiously It is not reliable it is not cautious It is not sympathetic It is unprejudiced and unmerciless It strikes the strongest of minds And brings them to their knees in one blow Even in the best of times love hurts It hurts to need, it hurts to belong It hurts to be apart of someone else Without either of your consent But, from the moment it takes over you It hurts to be alone The risk of love never depletes It grows stronger and more dangerous with time But it`s in the total surrender of defense That we, no matter weak or strong No matter willing or captive No matter what, we truly experience love Despite many things that love is not Out weighing it all are the things that love is Love is surrender without loss It is a gift without cost It consumes your every thought and desire Every breath you take It is the fire that fuels you To do more than just pass through life It urges you instead to live No matter what the out come, having felt love You will never be the same It may scar your heart and soul And leave you only memories of forever Or, it may cause everyday of your life To feel like there is no need for tomorrow But love is worth it Love is worth the risk for all in life Love is the only risk worth taking

My Dream Come True As I sit here dazed and confused Wondering why time and time again it's my emotions being abused My instinct is always to trust from the start But why does it seem some men feel it's ok to mess with a woman's heart? Into a thousand pieces my hearts been torn Too many times my heart has been scorned From what I thought was love To often I'm asking the Man above Why am I so susceptible to all this pain? Maybe one day it will be my turn to gain My eyes have fell blind My time is coming to find a man to confide Someone I can put all my trust into A man that can vow not to abuse Someone to call my own A man that I know will not roam Someone to be my best friend A man to be with me 'til the end By the end I mean, 'til the day i die Until then I'll be waiting by and by Is this REALLY you? My dream come true

Go, Please Just Go Away Dazed and confused Yet I still think about you Morning, noon and night I want you out of my sight Go, please just go away I want to start a new life today Please don't stop to turn around I have moved on and picked my pieces up off the ground It's time I better myself So go find someone else to put through your hell Go, please just go away I want to start a new life today I have one girl and two boys For my heart no longer is your play toy Get out of my memory, get out of my life It's time I find someone who's going to treat me right Go, please just go away I want to start a new life today Everyday I struggle to erase the pain But now I know I have so much more in life to gain Just a few more lines to write in this poem of mine So these words to you are my final good-bye Go, please just go away Because I AM starting a new life today

Love Is Love is the dew on the pedals of a delicate rose the gentle way the water of a stream flows The peacefulness of a sunrise the tender way in which he lies It is the sweetness of his lips the caress of his finger tips It is the smoothness of his skin against mine the small gestures, charming and kind It is the way he looks at me and hold me tight the way our everlasting love takes flight It is the way I want him when he`s not there and the way he lightly strokes my hair It is the way I need him each and every day it is the warmth of a sunray A rainbow in the bright, blue sky watching a beautiful bird fly The crashing of the ocean tide and a wonderful man by myside

My Life All my life I feel like I been pushed out to sea With no one in site to rescue me The way I used to be abused Kicked around and used After twenty-eight long years And after drying all my tears I think I have found who I'm suppose to be I have been knocked against the wall Only to get up standing strong and tall He used to beat me at least once a week But no woman deserves to be beat I have been thrown to the floor and choked 'til i was blue While the words linger "Baby my love is so true!!" You lied to me once, you lied even twice But still three years later I feel I'm the one who sacrificed I have forgiven you just so I could move on with my life Three years ago I left all those toils and strifes But now I know who I want to be I want to be the old me, the one that was long to be set free I feel as if a burden has been lifted up off my chest But starting today I live to my fullest and give life my best Never again will you hold me down Nor will my face wear a frown So this is just a little of the life of me The life of Stephanie B

What If What if all your dreams came true? What if you never felt being down and blue? What if all your wishes were granted? What if love was forever enchanted? What if you really never find out who you are? What if you could really look to the sky and count all the stars? What if the sun never was to shine? What if you never find someone for you to call "mine"? What if you lay to sleep and never wake? What if something you really like turned out to be a fake? What if the world was to stop turning? What if the forrests just keep burning? What if questions were never asked? What if you could never grab on to life's simple tasks? What if you never found love and peace in your heart? What if someone told you they loved you from the start? What if someone said they didn't love you like they had before? What if then the relationship became destroyed and torn? What if you didn't accept me when I told you how I feel? What if someone told you it's your heart they wanna steal? What if love made your heart grow stiff? What if someone never had to ask "what if"? What If?

Will It Be Heaven?? As I lay here fast asleep I see you as I dream Not sure where it is we are But I feel you near my heart You touched it the day we met I felt like you were sent to me You were exactly what I did need Non-judgmental, as great as can be You are so very special to me It doesn't matter what I`ve done If I was right or maybe wrong Past those things you looked and saw What I am inside, but with some flaws You ask why I think I need you You see the reason - isn`t easy to say I just know I pray, you never walk away A part of my heart you do hold No matter where you and i go The highest mountain.....the deepest sea.....the longest road Will not take you away from me In flesh we may never meet But you will forever be with me In my heart.....in my mind..... Because you have touched my soul I know I will never, ever, let you go So as I think about you my dear I just touch my heart and feel you near Tears I cry with hope my dear That one day I will feel you here Cuddled against me as we sleep And then begin a life long dream To forever share these feelings we have Nothing in life so far has even compared Fate has shown us that maybe this is All of what we want it to be This chance we are given, and time will show - For now we will just let these feelings flow If the day ever arrives that we stand face to face Will it be Heaven --- or a similar place??

MANY SIMPLE THOUGHTS I HAVE OF YOU.... YOU CROSS MY MIND MORE THAN YOU KNOW TIMES WHEN I AM AWAKE AND TIMES AS I SLEEP WANTING TO FEEL YOU NEXT TO ME JUST THE WAY YOU ARE IN THOSE THOUGHTS AND IN MY DREAMS FEELING THE WARMTH OF YOUR BODY.... TOUCHING YOUR SKIN TASTING YOUR LIPS AS I GENTLY KISS THEM CUDDLED SO CLOSE I HEAR YOUR HEART BEAT KNOWING I AM EXACTLY IN THE PLACE I HAVE LONGED TO BE MAYBE SOON IN YOUR ARMS I WILL BE AND NO LONGING NEEDED JUST TO DREAM

You call me a freak but you haven`t seen me between your sheets No blankets ever needed cause I`m sure we can keep it naturally heated I love how you make me laugh and chuckle but damn I can`t wait til I make YOUR knees buckle I wanna be the one to make ya heart stop and ya hands shake fuck it I wanna be the one to make you feel your body is in an earthquake Do as I say not as I do just lay back and let me put this lovin on you I have a better idea how about we play a little role play You be my Master and I`ll be your Slave I promise I`ll do everything you say just tie me up and do as you wish Flip me over and make me your favorite dish take me as I am for you`ll never find another Just bend me over and stick it in a bit further and please remember that you are my Master and I am your Slave I must obey everything you say as I lay here legs open wide Waiting for you to come slide inside now its you making my heart flutter and my hands shake I lay here wondering how many licks it would actually take to make my knees feel as if they were in an earthquake Tear this pussy up right fuck it all night Thats right Master just take ya tip and slide it over my slit being careful not to touch my clit and if I ask you to quit Pound this pussy hard and fast damn Master I wish this would last With you inside of me must be some kind of dream if so I dont wanna wake So please let me lay here as my body continues to shake please flip me on all fours I want more I`m not done with you yet you make my pussy so fuckin wet Damn you must be a dream come true cause i never thought i could find a freak like you well i`ll sign off for now so lml (lick me later)