i really wish that people would stop pretending to be something!!! I fucking hate it when people say things because that is what they think the other person wants to hear. what are we so young that we cant just tell the truth. if you dont like me dont pretend that you do. just say i dont like you, i dont want to be your friend and ill be kool with that. why is that so fucking hard?? and if you know something and someone asks you about it dont lie!!! i know that i always find out the truth later. all it takes is some detective work and good sixth since. i usually listen to that voice in my head cause it is usually right, when i dont listen to it because someone tells me something other than what i feel then i end up feeling really stupid. i think it is almost time to purge some more people out of my life. why should i keep trying to make new friends when most people judge by apperence?? i am one of the best examples of dont judge a book by its cover. i look a little, ok so a lot different from others but that is part of who i am, but i am one of the most loyal people that anyone will ever meet. i would do anything for a friend.
this whole thing was the problem with people not knowing amanda. they judge her so she shut down around alot of people. if only people would learn to open the book and read a few pages before they choose that it isnt worth their time. i wish people would fight off everything that they were taught about "cliques" and look past the out side. it really sucks now that i know somethings that i might not be able to feel 100% comfortable in my best friends house, and it has nothing to do with her. :(
oh and guys dont fucking send mix signals!!! whats the fucking point???? fucking say what you mean and mean what you say. dont be all yeah i like you one minute and when your friends walk in the room be fucking cold. it is just annoying and really not worth all the trouble. if people quit worring about what everyone thought this world would be sooooooo much better. i give trying to care what people think, i am or i am, and if you dont like it, FUCK OFF!!! i dont care anymore. if someone is your friend they will support you whatever the decision is that you make. that is what friends are for. friends arent there to judge you by something that you did. they are there to help you fix things or make the right choices, not judge. i true friend will always tell you what they think but will support you in your decisions, whiether its a mistake or other wise. just let go of caring about shit that dont really matter and be who ever you are. if your "friends" dont like you for it then they aint real friends.
the last thing that i have to say is "DONT JUDGE A BOOK BY ITS COVER" i know that it is so cliche but it really is true. at least atempt to read the book first before you make any decision about that book. it will make you a better person and you never know who you might find if you only give them a chance. they could be the bestest friend you ever had if you only took some time out of your precious schedule to get to know them.
