HAVE YOU EVER BEEN CONFUSED?
I dont mean momentarily puzzled. I mean confused! Sometimes it feels as if my whole life has been spent this way,,, my head saying one thing,,, my heart another,,, my hormones saying everything at top volume at 10,000 feet per second.
You get to where you dont listen to anything or anyone after awhile, because it is soo much easier to go with the flow.
Of course the opposite side of that coin is to over-control and live life like a stiff piece of concrete that is safe from everything except the ravages of time and the elements,,, and also cannot feel anything....
Would you like to know which is worse?..... Neither.... Whats worse is being tossed between the two like a rag doll,,, without choice,, without being asked,, without anyone seeming to care about the way your mind and soul are ravaged by these things, All anyone sems to care about is wether you will entertain them well enough, or defend them well enough, or be smart enough, So you make them feel good about themselves,,,,Or just plain stupid so they can feel superior.
this is confusion,,,, nnever knowing from second to second if what you are doing is what is necessary
